I take a look back at what I've left

Before I tilt my head to look forward

My eyes get hypnotised

My mind turns on the series of flashbacks

Reminds me how I treasured what I've left

Wanting it back, thinking it's not too late

Forgetting the purpose of my previous actions

Getting pulled back in the abyss of addiction

Before I get trapped fully,I get a call

My remorse and sorrow begging me to look forward

A battle has started between love and guilt

Want vs Need

Then I get an advise from my rationality

There's a difference between my past and future

There's no time Machine to change my past

But there's "present" to change my future

It is just an advise

I'm the one who needs to make a choice

Looking forward is my "

is my past

I can't afford to let my thoughts wander to-and-fro

It's a battle

In order to live a free life

Even though it feels impossible

I must let go...

-affkff

This is written by me.