I am so humiliated

I feel so disgusted and used.

If it was any other man who is asking me to nude dance, I would've felt that it was my ill fate and would've danced.

But, when if it's a person who you have grown upon and started having feelings for, you feel disgusted upon yourself when you see the same in his eyes.

Crushing my feelings deep inside, I slowly started swaying to the erotic music that was playing in the background.

I swayed with stiff body and restricted moves and seems like he didn't care less about it. He continued to watch me like a hawk and threw many dirty and lustful looks towards my body.

Every now and then he would signal with his finger to dance near him so that he could touch me and I would do that. The little inflict of pain he would give me by pinching and biting is nowhere near the pain I'm feeling in my heart.

"Hmm, I should've known you are a tissue long back. You do look like one." He said tracing his fingers along my arm and br***ts.

"Why – why are you – " I started stuttering but he cut me off by biting my hip monstrously.

"Did I allow you to use your mouth?" He gritted, pulling to kneel on ground before his legs.

I shook my head vigorously not wanting to make the beast even angrier. "Then use it when and where I ask you to. I bought you to use your body, so just speak with your curves." He bellowed and took me by my hair and dragged me towards the car waiting outside of the club.

Where is he taking me now?

Will he kill me?

He is enraged beyond logicality and he might as well kill me. But killing me will be a better option rather than keeping me with him or worse keeping me in punishment room.

Heavens save me from this life and take it away!

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"Miss Miller, Here's your coffee and your handbag." A maid reached me to the dining room and handed me my bag alone with few files.

"Miss, Master Bianchi already left for office and he asked you to take black BMW today and warned me to give you breakfast before leaving." Mrs. Wang, our head maid brought me a plate full of different assortments of breakfast along with a glass of fresh juice.

"Mrs. Wang, I cannot eat this much food, so please take away few pancakes" I pleaded her looking at the large plate of food.

"I am so sorry Miss, Master Bianchi would not be pleased when he knows that you did not eat your breakfast completely. We are strictly instructed to look after your meals and hygiene." Mrs. Wang smiled sweetly at me and placed the jar of maple syrup on the table.

"We are so happy that Master found you and we are quite happy that he loves you so much." Mrs, Wang commented, leaving the dining room to bring me more juice and I just smiled a little at her.

"Look at her, how come anyone resist such girl! Boss sure grabbed the opportunity and bind her with him." A male employee commented in a low voice to the group of other workers looking at me.

I walked through the hallway and reached the elevator to go to his cabin.

"She is so lucky! Boss treats her like a princess and did you see the smile on boss face when he's with her? Damn, I need a man like that who treats me like that too." A female employee commented while I'm talking the elevator and I did not miss her friends reply to her comment "I did not see wearing a same dress again all these days. Boss must have bought a whole shopping mall to her feet. How Romantic"

Not minding their comments and gossips, I mode along the crowd and finally reached the top floor of the building. I walked towards my desk and placed my bag and files on it and walked directly to the meeting room to set it up for the awaiting meeting.

"S-sir, Mr. Hedgewood is here in the meeting room waiting for you." I said in a low tone with head held low.

"When did he arrive?" Mr. Giant asked gruffly and control my urge to run away from there.

"It's been fifteen minutes, sir. I arranged all the documents and files for your meeting" I answered

"Were you arranging the files with him in the same room alone? Showing true colors, aren't we?"

"No sir, please. Don't say something like that. I just did my work" I begged for his understanding. His misunderstanding can lead me into disasters.

"What have you done now? Did he offer you a quickie, did you enjoy it? You do look well spent." He closed towards me and caught my arm in a hard lock.

"I- I didn't. Please don't talk like that."

"Huh, you are connivingly convincing. Better keep your pants closed and behave. I would love to show you your place if you go around dirty in my office." He warned me and walked out of the room towards the meeting hall.

I wish you let me explain myself, Mr. giant.

I wish you understand why I am in this situation.

Yes, this is my life. For all the people who look at us, we are a couple of decade. Mr. Giant is a Prince charming and I'm his princess.

To the outside people, I live a fairy tale life but only I know what life I live in a room alone with him.

No soul knows what he is to me actually.

One Month.

It's been one month since he bought me and these thirty days are the darkest days I've seen in my whole life.

My brother always used to say that there is no complete dark place in this world, even the tiniest ray of hope always chases it away with a new morning.

No! He was wrong. There is no ray of hope that can light Mr. Giant's dark heart.

There is no way he can ever understand me or the predicament I was in. He can never relate to the life I lead and still leading it.

I don't know what I should expect from him. I don't know what he is thinking about me. The whole month, he insulted, tortured and hurt me emotionally that at one point of time, I forgot what pain is because I was numb.

Numb to every pain he was giving me.

The day at the club, I felt humiliated and dead for pole dancing for him. I danced for him how a s**t does and he enjoyed it. The continuous flow of tears from my eyes while dancing did not affect him any way. I cried, I begged for him to stop doing this to me but it only made him work harder towards my destruction.

I thought he would touch me, use me and throw me on roads but what he did to me scared be even more. He took me to his mansion and I started living there from then on, in his private room.

Yes, he has a small room inside his bedroom with a medium sized bed, a small closet and two chairs.

I remember reading somewhere that in the medieval times, kings use to have a secret private room inside their rooms and they use it to keep their current mistress/slave in it and use them when king's sexual needs arises.

And Guess what, I was kept in that room from then on. Though he did not approach me for any of his sexual needs other than constant touching and biting, I was constantly insulted and tormented emotionally. Each and Every second, he rubbed on my face about who I am and what I am.

Still, why is my heart still fluttering for him in expectation? What am I expecting from him? Pity? Sympathy? Friendship? Or...

They say that tough times polish your ability and strengthen you but in this case, the only thing that strengthened is my feelings.

My feelings for Mr. Giant.

I know this is the worst time of all to fantasize a person but the feelings I didn't feel before, I'm feeling them now. No doubt I was a little attracted to him and liked him before. But now, even in these worst times, I started understanding him.

All the atrocities he was doing to me only made me understand him better and only made me know how he's feeling right now.

Few days ago, when he declared our impending marriage suddenly, I doubted how he can love me? He was always bickering with me and trying to make me work to death.

I think I started understanding the meaning of his actions now.

When he said he loves me, he really meant it. There are many kinds of people who show their feelings and emotions in different ways and I think it was his way.

He did not once correct his servant staff about me being his fiancée. He did not tell them that I was bought by him in an auction. He let them think I am his fiancée though he continued to persecute me in front of them. He warned them to treat me like their queen, but what use of a queen who is broken beyond repair?

In front of them, I am his sweetheart but when alone, I'm his slave.

After being a week at his mansion, he suddenly ordered me to rejoin the company as his PA. I was stunned by his decision. As if tormenting me with his words at his mansion was less, he decided to use the alone time at office too.

When I wondered why he would recruit me as his employee again even, the answers for his actions soon found their way to me. He wanted to inflict pain in me even in office.

'I paid to enjoy you. Why just keeping you at home when I can do whatever the hell I can do with you anywhere? You will serve me at office too. Maybe after years of your service, if I get contented, I might sell you back to some good person'

That was his exact reply for my unasked questions.

What can I do then, I joined. I started working at his office as PA again. Yet again, he behaves like a sweet romantic boyfriend in front of his employees making them envy my life with him.

Only if they know what it's liking being in my shoes.

I always wondered how he can impose hurt on me when he once declared he loved me so much.

Does he still love me?

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

"You dare flirt with him? You are so desperate to get in to his pants right? Let me satisfy you. After all it's my right to do that." He dragged me towards the mansion, horrifyingly towards the punishment room.