Searching for Something

You stare at him, he was holding your hand as you two went down to stroll at the mall during Sunday, which is your only free time. You and Seiji are currently heading down the cinema, yet your eyes are fixed on his back as he lead he way holding your hand tightly as if trying to keep you as close to him.

It's been a while, and yet you wonder.

What are you really looking for in a relationship?

You're relationship with Shindo, as you try to recall, the perfect way to describe it was. First love, he was the first person who understand you, and you just happened to understand him at all too, manage to keep you warm and happy during your times together, it was almost perfect. Maybe that was the reason why it was so hard to let go of him at first. He was the who you thought has always stay at your side, someone that would hold you tight during the worst day of your life.

And yet looking back at it now

makes you want to laugh

before you knew it, you bump into him as he stop his tracks to look at you.

"Are you okay?"

You nod at his words

"You look like your in a deep thought so might as well stop for a moment"

He stated rubbing the back of his neck, making you chuckle

"I just realize some things"

You stated with a chuckle at his cute reaction

He look at you with curiosity

"What is it?"

"I like you"

You smile at him,

He swore to himself he's gonna pass out

"I like you too. Wait WHAT?"

He stare at you wide eyes

Looking back at it now, Shindo Yo was never the one who stood by your side.

He used to be

But it's always been this guy, he's always been the one to support you.

"You heard me Seiji"

You said with a chuckle

"Wait"

He frown as you walk past him and started dragging him inside the cinema

"So what? Are we dating now or what?"

He stated,

You stop for a moment before stopping on your tracks, you turn around to face him.

You held up 5 fingers

"Five years"

You stated

"Five years what?"

"I'm moving back to (country name) once the school years ended"

You explain, looking ta him directly in the eyes

"I won't be coming back for five years"

You added, smirking at him as he stare at you with wide eyes

"Still like me after that?"

You saw him gulp, you let go of his hands, turning your back at him

Then you felt an arm warp around you.

"I'll be waiting"

You failed to see the man in the distant.

"Yo?"

His girlfriend voice was enough to snap him out of his thoughts

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah"

He stated, pulling his girlfriend on the opposite direction

"I'm fine"

The toughest part of letting go

is realizing the other person

already did