Trey

Ever since that day I saw Khia out with some guy at her school, my mind has been all messed up. I never told her to go out and get her someone else. I treat her like my Queen. I may not have given her the title but the way I treat her should've been enough. I gave this girl everything. Whatever she wanted, I gave her. I've blowing up her phone and I guess she made it a mission not to answer not one of my calls. Just then I heard a knock on my door. I went downstairs hoping it was Khia but it was genovia instead.

"Hey babe",she said cheerfully and hugged me. She wore a nice fitted red dress and a white blazer to match. I forgot that today was Sunday and she was dressed up for church.

"Hey",i said letting her in my apartment.

"Why aren't you dressed?",she asked me while crossing her arms.

"Dressed for what?",I said having a seat on the couch.

"Please don't tell me you forgot. It's bad enough you didn't come to church today. My family's dinner thing is today trey."

"Oh that was today?",I said putting my arm on my forehead.

"Yeah hurry up. Get dressed",she rushed. I yawned and slugged myself up to my room. I picked out a a pair of gray slacks and i ironed a black dress shirt. Genovia came up to my room and sat on my bed watching me get dressed. "Are you mad at me or somethin?",she asked.

"Nah",i said brushing my hair.

"You been acting all weird to me lately. That's why I asked."

"Nah baby I ain't mad at you.it's just this new case at work that been stressing me out a bit",I lied.

"Okay. Well I'm here if you need to talk",she said and kissed me on my lips.

I pulled her closer to me and kissed her back. For some reason her kisses comforted me and I was no longer thinking about Khia. Maybe it was time that I try to work it out with Genovia and treat her as a Queen. As Maybe it was time to let Khia take the route she wants to take and let her go. If I couldn't gs just me thinking that, got my heart sinkin down to my stomach. Genovia and I walked out to my driveway and I held the door open for her. She sat in my all black Audi and I got in the driver side of the car. On the ride there I just kept thinking about seeing Khia with that guy. I don't know what his intentions are but I just hope it's good. When we arrived at genovia's parents house, I was amazed at the huge house which almost looked like a mansion. I opened the door for genovia and she got out and looked into my eyes. "It'll be fun. Don't look so scared",she said. I half smiled because little did she know I wasn't scared, I was just amazed at how big her folks house was.

Khia

After second service at church, I got home around 9. I took my outfit off and laid in my bed and just started crying. I cried because the message by pastor Michael Todd was about damaged goods and it funny because all week I was telling Santiago about how I'm damaged goods. I want to be happy. I want to be loved. But I was just too broken, I've been through too much and figured I could just settle for being a sidechick. I knew my worth but it doesn't make me less of a woman to be that to a man. I love trey so much that I couldn't go to something better even if it were staring me in my face. Trey is everything to me. I looked through my call log and saw all the missed calls from trey that I decided not to pick up on so I decided to call him back. The phone rang but he didn't answer. I tried again and he still didn't answer. So I threw on a pair of ripped jeans, a tank top and my black bomber jacket and decided to walk to his house. I didn't see no car except for his out front so I assumed the coast was clear. I was nervous about ringing his doorbell cause I had no idea what I was gonna say to him. He opened the door with his sweats on and no shirt revealing his 6 pack and bare chest.

"Hey. Can I come in?",I said. He let me in and opened the lights in the living room.

"I called you at least 100 times. Wasup with that?",he said rubbing his eyes. I guess he was asleep when I called him.

"I know. I'm sorry",I said.

"It's cool I guess. Wasup? I know you ain't come here for no reason",he said standing against the wall with his arms crossed.

"I just wanted to talk."

"Oh now you wanna talk. You can start talkin then."

"Last time I was here...you chose her over me. It broke my heart again because we had a chance to be together and you didn't take it again. What was I supposed to do? Wait around some more? Be a sidechick for the rest of my life?"

"So you go out and get another guy?"

"I didn't get a guy trey. He showed me attention that I needed. What did you expect to happen? I want to be your main and you gave me false hope that I would be. I don't want to be a sidechick forever."

"Baby who told you that that's what you are to me? Who called you a sidechick? I never considered you as that. I never called you that. I treated you better than I treat my own girlfriend. Whatever you want, I gave it to you."

"That's not enough trey. Why are you ashamed of me? Do you not love me? Because any guy would love to flaunt their girl around. Why am I STILL a secret?"

"Why would you question my love for you? You know I love you. I love you to death Khia",he said. There was a silence between us and you could hear the air conditioner run.

"So what do you want me to do? Because I can't do this anymore."

"You can't love me anymore? What is it you can't do anymore?",he said looking into my eyes.

"Be this side girlfriend or whatever I was to you. I don't want to do it anymore. I know my worth I know I'm pretty and I know me letting you go is the right thing to do although it's not what my heart wants."

"Baby can't nobody treat you like how I treat you",he said coming close to me.

"That may be true but I don't want to be a secret. I'm not secret girl material",I said looking at him. When our eyes lock, I could feel his heart crushing and sinking. My eyes got watery and I tried so hard to hold my tears back. I had to be strong and do the right thing. There's no time to comfort myself and have someone tell me to follow my heart because right now I had to follow my brain, my common sense. He cupped my soft smooth face and kissed me passionately. My tears fell and he wiped every last tear.

"One last time?",he asked me.

"Yeah",I said wanting him. He picked me up and carried me to his room and gently laid me on the bed. He climbed on top of me and said,"I will always love you Khia."