As we're driving back home, all I can think about is how Addison feels. The whole drive so far she's sat in the back with her knees clutched to her chest crying. Honestly I think she'll be ok. I mean, I won't ever be her favourite person in the world, but I need to keep her safe. And that means keeping her away from Alexandria.

I'm sitting on a bed with Rosita patching me up and all I can think about is how I'm gonna kill Negan and get Addison back. "What's on your mind?" Rosita asks. "Nothin'." She smiles. "Daryl I know you. You're thinking about something." I just sit there for a minute in silence. "It's Addison. That guy started beating my arm and I couldn't do anything to get her back from them." I start tearing up and Rosita knew because she stopped and hugged me. This is the worst feeling in the world, when you know you couldn't have done anything to save someone you love. "We'll get her back. Don't worry." She says letting go and wrapping the finally bandage around my arm. I nod my head yes before going to find Rick. Addison is the one person I can't loose. Because if she dies, I die with her.

Right now I'm sneaking out of Alexandria because I'm going to get Addison. I know I'm probably going to get taken, or even killed. But as long as she gets out of there it's worth it. The walk from Alexandria to the Sanctuary is about 2 hours. I didn't tell anyone I was leaving because if I did I knew they wouldn't let me go, or they would come with me. I need to do this on my own. Because the day Addison dies, I'm going to die to.

As soon as we arrive to the Sanctuary Negan leads me inside and then I go straight upstairs to my room. I can't even look at him or hear him. "Addison honey, I just want to say that I'm sorry-" I cut him off by punching his jaw. "I don't want your apology!" I snap. He frowns and then goes outside my room and locks the door. To be honest I don't care if I'm locked in here. It's better than being out there with him.

As I'm still sitting in my room, Nick all of a sudden comes in and grabs my arm and starts pulling me through the hallways and down the stairs until we end up outside. My heart stops as I see Carl pinned to the ground by Dwight. "Carl." I whisper to myself. He looks over at me while he's facing me on his stomach, with Negan pressing him down. I narrow my eyes that are now filling with tears. "Carl what-" I was cut off by Negan. "Ah ah ah! Do not! Speak to him!" I look over near a truck to see 3 of his men laying on the ground, dead. I look at Carl again who has a machine gun on the ground beside him. "Now, I'm going to bring Carl inside and show him around." Negan says while standing up. "Are you going to join us?" He says walking over to me. I look at Carl and he's nodding his head yes. I look at Negan with gritted teeth. "Yes." Was all I could manage to speak out. He gives me a creepy smile. "Ok then! Let's get started!" Negan gives us a smile before grabbing Lucielle and leading us inside.

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