A/N:

So I wanna talk about something a bit different today, it's something that happened recently to me and I wanted to raise awareness of it.

I wanna talk about relationships.

(nope I'm not going to talk about s*x, that shit's awkward and disgusting)

More specifically, I wanna talk about secret relationships.

Here's the thing, secret relationships are really hard, you live in constant fear and terror of anyone finding out about your relationship.

To quote Little Mix on this 'Why can't I say that I'm in love? I wanna shout it from the rooftops'

I think for me, I discovered that more people than I thought knew about my relationship. and just to confess things, the breakup almost made me commit suicide tbh (yes, i loved that much), so to get reminded of it (the relationship), especially after the breakup, made me relive all of that pain again (even if i never stopped thinking about it), the pain of the person whom you thought would never hurt you hurting you in the worst way possible, the pain of seeing the person you love the most with someone else, the pain of getting lied to, the pain of losing everything you ever cared about for someone who left you like you were nothing, the pain of watching the person you love more than anything give up on you, the pain of filling the void they left behind, and finally, the pain of seeing the person you love happier than ever after your breakup.

Which is essentially what I'm here to talk about.

2 of my closest friends reminded me of the breakup a lot, and recently, one of them told another person who didn't know that i dated someone, about the relationship, and just one word made me relive everything again, and that shit broke me.

So, why do this? Why remind someone of something you know hurts?

I wanted to do this on many social media platforms but 1) facebook and instagram are down and 2) everyone who knows me personally will know what im talking about and i don't want that.

i keep my writing a secret from most people, mostly because I'm scared I'll get hate because of it, also because i don't want anyone to know I'm a hopeless romantic and honestly, it feels good to confess everything to a stranger, so that's why I choose Wattpad.

Please, please, think before saying anything, think if the words you're planning to say will hurt anyone or not, think about people's feelings..

Who knows, by think about everything you say before saying it, you may save someone's life?