"So I've been thinking..." As soon as Marissa opened her mouth, I tuned her out.

That girl can talk. She blabbers about anything and everything. She never stops talking. Her voice just gives me a headache.

"Everett baby, are you listening?"

"Huh, what? Oh yeah, I'm listening."

I could tell Everett was miserable without Willow. I felt bad for not sticking up for her when he was bad mouthing her a year ago.

I've never had romantic feelings for her, it was more of a sister-brother bond. She was one of the few people that I was close with.

If I could change the past, I would do everything different. I would stick up for her. Be by her side. I knew she was hurt and needed someone to talk to. She was always there for me, and I did the exact opposite. I turned my back on her, but it's in the past.

I glanced towards Willow's way. I'd be lying if I said she wasn't beautiful. She was wearing a pastel purple hoodie with dark washed denims. She looked good in anything. Her face was dull today. She was always positive about everything. She always tried to put others in a good mood. Today was different.

Something was bothering her. Maybe it was the thing Oliver told me about?

A girl came up to Everett.

Ugh great. Here we go again.

"Hey Everett, here's your book, thanks for letting me borrow it." The girl said. I think her name is Ally?

"Oh, don't worry about it..." Everett knew what was about to happen. We all did. Even the whole cafeteria started to get loud because they knew Marissa was gonna throw a fit.

"What the hell Everett? Are you cheating on me? Why would she have your book? Do I not satisfy you enough?" Marissa yelled. This was nothing new. It happened on a daily. She would see Everett with a girl, and throw a whole tantrum.

Embarrassing as hell.

"What? No baby, why would you think that? You're the only girl in my life, I promise."

I scoffed. Pathetic if you ask me. I don't know why he's even with her. I know he ran to her after the whole Willow scandal, but if he was so miserable with Marissa, why not end it?

I'm going to be honest, I dislike Marissa so much. Close to hating her. Lunch was something I did not look forward to. She clings onto Everett as if he life depended on it. Like geez, do you not have a life?

I miss sitting with Willow everyday. She made the whole table laugh. The tension wasn't thick as it is now.

It was now the start of sixth period. I had this class with Willow. We never really talk. Well it's mostly my fault. Ever since that video, I started to ignore her. It pained me to see her sad when I brushed her off.

Noticing an empty seat beside Willow, I get situated beside her.

We all knew that Noah and her kissed, but something about the situation wasn't adding up. I knew Marissa always wanted Everett. She was envious of Willow. Part of me wished that Everett would've came to Willow first so she could've at least explained herself.

At the time, I sided with Everett, I knew him longer and we always had each other's backs. Sometimes I wondered what would've happened if I stuck by Willow's side. As I said, I can't change the past, so I just have to live with what's happening now.

After contemplating whether I should talk to her or not, I open my mouth. "Hey Willow..."

Why am I so awkward? Lord help me.

"Umm.. hey." Willow said, but it was more like a question.

"How are you?" Not knowing what to say, I settled with trying to see how she is. "I'm okay."

I figured she didn't want to talk, but I continued.

"Are you okay? You seem down. You know you can talk to me right?"

"Okay."

Taking the hint that she was uncomfortable and didn't want to speak, I stopped talking.

Marissa was talking my ear off again, something about how she wants these new pair of heels? Or maybe it was about a party? I couldn't focus on what she was saying when all my attention was directed to the girl across the hall.

I know it's rude to not pay attention when someone's talking, but trust me, if you had to hear Marissa talk, you'd want to rip your ears off. She talks a lot.

I wish you were here Willow.

I admit, I am still upset and hurt that she kissed Noah. I thought we had something special. However, that didn't mean I couldn't miss her nor did that stop me from looking for her.

I longed to see her. My eyes would even wander on their own to find Willow in the hallways, at lunch, or anywhere she could possibly be.

I know it was wrong to run to Marissa, after all I'm dating her when I have no feelings for her.

"Stop looking at Willow. I'm the only girl you should look at baby." Marissa said her name as if she was some sort of virus, when in reality, she's the virus herself.

I know I shouldn't be with Marissa, but at first, I thought it would make Willow jealous. She never even glances our way. I'm only with Marissa because I feel like being with someone would help me move on.

The day I found out Willow was involved with Noah, and how she was just playing with my emotions, I was going to ask her out. Make her mine, officially.

I guess Noah beat me to it.

I have every right to be upset, but I can't help myself. I'm always searching for her whenever I walk into a room. I miss her touch, her kisses, her voice.

God, I miss her.

She doesn't even give me the time of day anymore. It bruises me, but I know it's for the best. She moved on, so why can't I?

What's so hard for me to move on? It's been a year, yet I'm still stuck on her.

Sometimes I wonder if she even thinks about me.

Does she regret what she did? Is she proud of herself? Do I even cross her mind?

My heart screamed and yelled at me to walk up to Willow, and talk to her, whilst my mind tells me to stop.

Deep down, I knew she captured my heart, and I wanted her to keep it. I was willing to do anything for this girl. She had my heart, and it was hers to keep. I didn't want it back. I was fine with that.

What Everett didn't know was that her heart was ten times more broken than his. He wasn't aware that she heard him bad mouthing her. It never occurred to him that she went home even more broken than she already was. All because of some lie. All because he decided to talk behind her back than to confront her about it.

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