I looked up at Killua, my eyelids feeling heavy.

Me: Killua I- I love you don't forget that

Killua: No! You can't die! Please!

My eyes close.

I sat there holding my boyfriend in my arms. He wasn't going to make it.

Me: Gon please! *cries* Don't leave me!

He looks up at me slowly.

Gon: Killua I- I love you don't forget that

Me: No! You can't die! Please!

Gon's eyes close and his body goes limp. I sat there numb. I look behind me and see Kurapika and Leorio standing there in shock. I look back at Gon.

Me: No! This isn't fair! Why?!

I let go of Gon and stand up looking at Hisoka who was looking at me with a guilty face.

Me: Why would you do this?! *tears streaming down my face*

Hisoka: I was told to *doesn't look at me*

Me: You feel guilty don't you?!

Hisoka:

Me: *walks over to Hisoka and stands in front of him* You should start watching your back *looks at Illumi* You too *looks back at Hisoka*

Hisoka: I was only following orders

Me: You could have said no! But you didn't you goddamn asshole!

I couldn't keep the tears back, I broke down. Hisoka had a guilty look on his face like he had regretted what he had just done.

Illumi: Great now let's go Hisoka, Killua I'll tell father that you did this that way your on his good side again

Hisoka walks forward and I grab his wrist. He looks down at me. I look down.

Me: You better save him

Hisoka: It's already to late *walks*

I let go of his wrist when he started walking and fell to the ground. Kurapika and Leorio run over to me.

Kurapika: Leorio see if Gon is ok! *kneels down in front of me and places a hand on my shoulder* Hey-

Me: *brushes his hand off* Don't touch me!

Kurapika: Gon's going to be ok, Leorio knows someone who can heal him

Me: Look at him! Does he look like he will be ok?! Does he?!

Kurapika: *looks at Gon and frowns* It's worth a shot though..

Leorio: *picks Gon up* We need to go now! He's barely breathing!

I look up at Leorio with hope in my eyes. (authors thingy: or whatever its' called) I stand up with tears still streaming down my face. We get into Leorio's car and he drives us somewhere. I didn't know where we were going. (Kurapika and Leorio sat upfront while Killua held onto Gon) Leorio was right, he was breathing.

Me: Gon? Please if your alive open your eyes do something

My voice cracks as tears fall down my face. I held his hand and looked at him. There was blood everywhere.

Me: I failed you Gon I'm sorry