jordyn dolan

one month later

Ethan and I have been trying to get pregnant all month, but haven't been entirely lucky yet. It's still really early so we aren't worried about it, but I just want one now.

"Hey Carly," I called for my assistant. "Can you make forty copies of these?" I handed her a piece of paper. She nodded and left my office.

It was basically the end of the day and I was dying to get home and make some dinner and curl up next to Ethan on the couch. It was always the highlight of my evenings.

"Here are the copies." She walked back into my office and handed me the papers.

"Thanks." I smiled and excused her from the room.

I stood up and walked over to one of the filing cabinets. I placed the copies into a folder and closed the drawer. I looked at the clock that was on the wall and it was exactly at 5:00pm.

I walked back to my desk and saved everything that was on my computer. I logged out afterwards and put my long brown coat on.

I grabbed my bag along with my phone. I opened the door and said goodbye to everyone in the office who was packing their things up as well.

"Have a goodnight, Jordyn." One of my coworkers said to me smiling.

I stepped in the elevator that took me down to the parking garage. I pulled out my keys and pressed the lock button so my car would beep since I forgot where I parked it. If I come in the early morning, I'm not going to remember where I parked my car in the evening time. Plus it's dark down here with the only source of light to be some cheap LED motion light.

"Aha." I saw the lights flash and immediately walked over to it.

I placed my bag in the backseat and started the car to drive out of the parking garage. Today was a little stressful so I just wanted to get home.

Since I was the boss on my floor, everyone brought their problems to me and of course today was the day where everyone ran into problems. On top of all of my work, it's just all so much.

First it started with customer complaints, which led me to fill out a lot of paperwork. Plus it was the last day of the quarter which meant that I had even more paperwork to give to cooperate. That's all on top of my typical work that has to be done everyday, it was just a lot.

I merged onto the freeway and luckily there was a stretch of no traffic. I wanted to get home quick so I picked up my speed, not really thinking about it much.

Then I'm still thinking about Vivian and her possible baby affair and what's going to happen to Grayson. It's just a lot on my plate--not that it's my personal probably, I just can't help but think about it.

But most of all, I've been thinking about Ethan and our future baby. It's the start of our second month trying, which is still really early, but every week that I'm not pregnant, I can't help but think that something's wrong with our fertility.

It just makes me sad that I'm getting to a point where I think we can't have kids. I was just at a point where I was so, so nervous to have a baby and now I'm scared I won't be able to have a baby.

I know deep down that Ethan and I are still really young, but sometimes it feels like we're in our thirties trying for a baby. I feel like since we've waited 'so long' that I, specifically lost a lot of my eggs. Even though I know we aren't at that age yet, it just feels like it because everyone had kids when they were even younger than us.

I rubbed both of my eyes and felt a very sudden, frightening and most of all very intense pounding against my entire body. It felt like a huge giant shock wave running through my veins.

A huge rush of pain pounded against my head. It all happened in half a second, I couldn't even think straight. My eyes blinked many times trying to see what was going on, but everything was just in a big blur. My entire body was shaking, my fingers could not keep still.

I was finally able to open my eyes and my vision was still sort of blurry, but I was able to make out that I hit the car in front of me. I wasn't paying attention and I could've cost someone's life, maybe even mine.

I should've been smarter about this. I was on the freeway, going fast, during rush hour. I should've known that the major traffic was going to hit fast. I wasn't looking, I wasn't paying attention.

I touched my forehead and saw the blood on my fingers.

"Oh shit." A stranger opened my car door and pulled out his cell phone. "911, yeah can we please get an ambulance." He said and turned around, looking very stressed.

I moved my legs outside of the car and breathed in some fresh air. My eyes just felt extremely heavy and I was in immense pain.

"The ambulance will be here soon." The man walked back over to me. "Is there anyone I should call?"

"I-uh..." I couldn't think straight. I, instead just shook my head and winced in pain. I couldn't even bother to speak anyone's name.

In the distance I heard sirens coming our way. I wanted to get out of the car so it would be easier for everyone, but my head was in just so much pain.

I felt my eyes getting heavier and heavier, but I wanted to keep them open for the paramedics. I couldn't take it though. My eyelids soon fell down until I couldn't keep them up anymore. All of my surrounds disappeared as all I could see was black.