⚠WARNING SUICIDAL STUFF HAPPENS AND BLOOD!!!⚠

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They say we have a purpose on why we are brought into this world.. There are those who have happy lives but others that have unhappy lives. People who suffered a mental illness see the world differently not a happy or unhappy world.. People with mental illnesses hide their real emotions their real selves.. Like me.. Everyone knows me as the sweetest, happiest girl in the world. But they don't know the reason why I smile is to hide my tears...

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I turned off my alarm clock, its a Monday morning which means there is school today.. I really don't want to go like at all I don't want to have to go through the day pretending to be happy, but if I do miss school people would probably get suspicious or 'worried' about me.. (Why would they be worried they won't care if your gone!!) There we go again with the voices in my head.. I sit up and get myself ready I put on my uniform, fix my hair and put on light makeup (Whats the point of fixing yourself!?, your ugly, your not pretty, your fat, look at yourself a pig that's what you are) Everyday they tell me the same thing and every time I believe them because its true!! I am not pretty um ugly and no body really cares about me!! I wipe my tears so my makeup won't get ruined, I grab my bag and head to the train station.

I was holding on to the rail just daydreaming but I can't help but feel like everyone is stating at me (They're looking at you because they see you weak, worthless, not good enough) Maybe they do think that.. my quirk isn't good enough I'm not strong enough to be a hero people expect me to be.. "Good-morning, (Y/N)." I recognize that soothing voice I look up and put on my biggest smile "Good-morning, Tokoyami." He stands next to me and we do small little talks "Are you okay you seemed really sad when I saw you standing by yourself" he asked with concern in his voice "Yes, I'm fine I am just tired I slept late last night because... I was reading a good book!! Eheh. Thank you haha you didn't have to worry about me." I smiled he nodded and waited for our next stop.. I feel bad for lying to him, I really wasn't reading.. I mean don't get me wrong I love reading books but last night I was.. hurting myself... My arm still burns from the cuts.. I want to cry but I held in my tears (HaAhAH He will never love you!! Hah why would he return his feelings your worthless, weak, nothing, your a nobody!! Look at yourself your a complete mess!! He will never love you back. Ever!) "Hey (Y/N)." Tokoyami schools me a little "This is our stop." he looks at me with concern in his eyes "O-Oh haha sorry I was daydreaming and I'm still feeling a bit sleepy." I laughed it off we haven't said anything to another ever since we got off from the station we were close to the entrance of U.A until Tokoyami gets my hand and holds it "(Y/N), are you sure your alright? You know I'm here for you, if you want someone to talk to I'm here." He hugs me my heart skips a beat I want to tell him right here right now. but I can't, I can't tell him if I do he would never talk to me again and probably tell the others and they would never talk me ever again either.. So I hugged him back "Thank you, Tokoyami, you're a good friend but I promise you I'm okay!!" I smiled, I'm internally screaming hoping someone could here me and save me from the pit of darkness I'm in!! But its no use.. Nobody can't hear my cries...

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Tokoyami (POV)

I can tell something is on (Y/N) mind, but I don't want to pressure it out of her I just hope everything is alright right maybe its just me worrying probably.. after we hugged I didn't want to let go.. I just want to kiss her and make her happy.. Wait! No (Y/N) my friend!! She will never love me.. But that's okay, being friends with her will be enough.

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School is over and I am finally home and sleep so I won't have to hear these voiced anymore, they kept getting louder and louder I hope Tokoyami didn't figure out or even think of something is wrong with me!! I just can't take it anymore I don't want yo live anymore I just can't if I end it all I'll get rid of the voices in my head I'll be happy and everyone will be happy I'll be gone and they will forget me!! Haha I laugh hysterically. I grab my razor and cut my wrist and ankles. my cutting has gotten even worse..

I wake up unexpectedly it was 3am.. I had a nightmare and the same voices were in my nightmare... Now I can't get away from them anymore.. There is only one thing to do now, I have to end it all...

I left a note on my nightstand in case anyone wonders where I am... Its all on that note. I put on my jacket over my nightgown and put on my slippers and I opened the door, I took one last look in my home and closed the door.

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Tokoyami (POV)

I can't help but think of (Y/N) it is 3am I can't sleep every time I close my eyes I see (Y/N) smiling that gorgeous smile she has on makes my heart skip a beat. But today, her smile seemed different was it always like that before? I'll check on her I am getting worried.

I am now in front of (Y/N) dorm I take a breath and knock on her door. "(Y/N)? Its me, I apologize for being here so late I just wanted to see you" Its quiet a little to quiet (Y/N) is a light sleeper she could've open the door by now "(Y/N)?" I turn the door knob it is unlocked I panicked and opens the door. I called out for her no answer.. I knock on her room door "(Y/N)?. . . I'm coming in" I opened the door she's not in bed I feel my heart stop. Where is she!? I looked everywhere she is no where insight!! I look at the kitchen counter, it was a letter from (Y/N)!

To whoever finds this letter,

If anyone is wondering where I have gone, let's just say you all don't need to worry about me. I have gone to the other side now I am with death at this moment. I can't take life anymore! I'm suppose to be the happiest girl in the world right!? But nobody didn't know I was faking it all!! I'm sorry I lied!! I'm sorry I'm a horrible person!! I don't think you all would care anyway.. The voices in my head kept taunting me everyday and I just can't take it anymore I'm tired!! So tired.. Well goodbye.

- (Y/N)

I ran out towards the door and ran across the neighborhood looking for my (Y/N) I should've known she was going through something!! And I didn't know!!! I contacted Midoriya about (Y/N) to help me find her he contacted everyone else as well to help. I kept searching until I stopped and took a breath, I was close to the bridge and when I looked up I saw a small figure in the middle.. (Y/N)

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I looked down the bridge, the voices in my head persuading me to jump.. I take off my coat and my shoes I climb on the bridge taking one last look of the city lights. I take a breath- "(Y/N)!!!" That voice.. It can't be... I hold myself on the bridge and and turned, Tokoyami...

"(Y/N), DON'T DO THIS!!" Why is he here?.. Isn't he mad I lied to him and the others!? "Why?.. I lied to you and I'm worthless, I'm nothing to this world I'm a nobody. Also why are you here!? Why do you care if I'm gone!?!! None of you realized I was faking everything all the smiles I show everyday it was a lie all a DAMN LIE!!! I'M SUPPOSE TO BE LITTLE MISS HAPPY SUNSHINE, RIGHT!?!!? NOBODY HAS EVEN ASKED ME IF I WAS OKAY, WELL I'M NOT AND ITS TOO LATE FOR THAT!!!" I yelled tears falling down my face just wanting to finish it all already. "(Y/N).. I knew from this morning something was wrong. But I didn't want to pressure it out of you.. I knew I should've asked, I'm I apologize for not realizing it since the beginning but today somehow you just couldn't hide it anymore, hide it from me.." I look away I don't want to keep eye contact with him... "Please, please font do this (Y/N).. I... I.. I LOVE YOU!!" I looked up at him in shock, he loves me?.. (He doesn't love you he is probably just saying that because your in a weak state and he'll probably think you won't jump) I then look away and stand up on the bridge setting one foot out Tokoyami takes a step forward but I stop him "If you take one more step I'll jump.. You are probably just saying that so I could get off from the bridge!! And you probably pity me huh!?" I yell at him angrily I can't believe he would be that way to me.. "Don't listen to those voices, they need to shut up!!" I look at him shock he sounds mad now.. "(Y/N), I'm not saying it because I pity you, I really am I love with you. Ever since I first laid my eyes on you and when we first talked I fell even more. The way you smile, your caring, sweet, kind, everything!! You in my eyes are like a goddess, and I want you to be mine." He brings his hand up "If you come with me the others and I will help you get through this, mostly i want to help you get through this so.. Will you be mine? My goddess?" I look at his hand and him he has tears in his eyes, I didn't mean to make him cry... I take on leg out and fell off the bridge

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I wake up everything looks fuzzy I blink a couple of times to adjust my eye sight. Where am I? Am I at the hospital? I look around I have flowers, cards and a (Favorite animal) plushie. I look at the time 6:30pm. I hear the door slid open I looked and it was Midoriya, his face lit up "Guys look she's awake!!" He ran inside next to my bed set and well everyone from class 1-A came barging in. "(Y/N) ARE YOU OKAY!?" "YOU'RE FEELING OKAY!?" "ARE YOU HUNGRY!?" "DO YOU WANT OR NEED ANYTHING!?" "WHY DIDN'T YOU TALK TO US!?!?" everyone throwing questions at me I don't know what to say.. "Everyone calm down, she is okay no need to throw questions at her." Tokoyami.. "I-I'm sorry, I'm sorry I lied to all of you. I'm sorry about everything.. Now you all are here wasting your time on me..." I cried "No, don't say that." "Yea, your not wasting our time" "We care for you that's why we came." "Your our friend, our classmate and we will be here for you no matter what" I began to cry more and kept apologizing for the ridiculous act I've done.

Visiting hours was over so everyone had to leave we all said our goodbyes and I got get well soon's but one stayed behind, "I see you got the (Favorite animal plushie)" Tokoyami says looking at it, "Oh it was you that got me this? Thank you, I really do love it. It really does make me feel a bit better." I hugged it tightly "You already know how much I love (favorite animal)." I smiled. "Tokoyami, your not going home? I'll be fine here by myself" He walks closer and sits next to the side of the hospital bed. He holds my hand and cries "T-Tokoyami, I'm fine. This time I promise I'm fine.. I'm sorry for my ridiculous act.." I pet his head and kiss his beak "Also I didn't answer your question.. Yes, I'd love to be yours, your goddess" I smiled. He hugs me and holds on to me tight "I'll stay here for the night, my love, I'll keep those voices from bothering you because I'm here and I love you so much. I want you to know that all the time." he cups my cheek and kisses me "Now get some rest love, I'll be here" I smiled and fell asleep while he holds my hand.

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Phew! That was a long story haha, I hope you liked this one, I just thought about it. Also Kids Suicide isn't the answer to solve problems, if something is going on and/or if you want someone to talk to, talk to a trusted friend, maybe your sibling, parents, plants, or your dog. Just talk it out with someone. Because if you hold in everything in your head of course it will get worse and you'll be adding more stress!! Remember someone out there will listen to you, or if you want to talk with me that's fine. Because I've already been through some a lot of stuff, trust me. I'm all ears :3 I'll be here. I'm Here💙.