Now to think about it, I want to stay.

I want to stay with Jungkook.

Even if I have to go through the pain being with him.

I can do it!

What if he betrays you,

What if he will have you even more when your with him?

Those voices in my head, get the fuck away!

What the fuck is my new persona, it's so cringey.

You have a problem.

Whatever.

It's getting dark outside as I saw the sun set outside of my window. The room darken by a bit.

I went to the light switch to turn it on.

I went to the sofa that's in my room.

Wait Taehyung! I forgot about him.

I switched my position from sitting to laying down. It was kind of hard when I breath. When I lay down, so I went back to the sitting position.

I got my phone out and texted Taehyung.

-

It's alright.....

Meanie.

Is that supposed to be a good thing?

Did she actually, she pissing me off.

THAT BITCH IS SUCH A FUCKING GOLD DIGGER WTFFJEKSHSJNWJAKEHAIMSHFISSM.

Did u have ur RoMaNtIc TiMeS?!

What happen?

Then what

MAYBE HE LIKES U

Idk tbh

YASS QUEEN lol um yayyyyy. Want me to pick you when you come back from the airport?

Bye

-

One reason why Taehyung is a good friend.

I got some comfy clothes from my suitcase and went to the washroom.

Wash up and put on my clothes and went to the bedroom.

I am hepressed (hungry + depressed).

I remember how they can bring up food for you.

First time doing this because I rather walk down. But because I am lazy. I will call.

lol jk.

I am too scared, ermmm rather starve to death.

Another way to kill myself.

I decided to brush my teeth. I went back to my room and turn off all my lights.

And admire the view from my room.

Pretty nice.

Something to kind of lift up my mood.

But I remembered about how Michelle and Jungkook.

Which made me sad and then I thought about something else.

Killing myself, I mean it's... a great time to...

I put on my jacket and left my room.

Must....

Find a

Blade.

So I can...

Cut

Myself.

The joy of doing this is making me happy. Unwinding from the world, cutting myself and letting all of my sins out. But thinking about them makes me sad, winding up, cutting myself, let all those crybaby tears come out.

Like a crybaby.

But that was just all in my head.

I just closed my eyes, imaging myself killing myself. Hurting myself.

The best thing that could ever happen.

Maybe jumping off of the Effiel Tower.

They speak French in here as well. Maybe you can,

but do you want to?

Do you want to end this story now?

Is this my last chapter?

No Y/N..

Wait for the right moment, where everything is ignoring you. Everything is just doing their thing.

While with my thing is pain,

Pain everywhere and...

"And just killing myself." I said and sobbing after.

I cried myself to sleep.

Life is just sad.

My life is pain....

I woke up stilling sitting at the same spot. Where I cried like a crybaby.

Where I should really pack up now.

I hope I don't see Minho, should I just delete his contacts?

I mean we only know him as a stranger we just know.

Well who cares.

I started packing up my clothes and all the other important things.

TAEHYUNG!

When we (I) get to the airport, we will get something for him. He is an actual good friend, again.

I didn't bother waiting for Jungkook, since that is his fault for not arriving in time.

I washed up and wore some warm clothes. Since were a thousand feet high up in the air.

I wore the same black sweater with roses on it, round glasses, a mask, and ripped jeans.

The basically outfit I like a lot.

I finished packing and closed my suitcase. Returned my key for my room, called a taxi. Went to the airport.

Did all of those things, my flight back to Korea will leave in like a hour. I better eat something since I didn't eat a big dinner.

I went to this close place where they just sell some candy.

Why not?

I payed for my candy and I have a hand full of candy.

Skittles, M&M, Jolly Rancers, Coffee Crisps, Chips, you name it all.

I went to the area where the passengers get on the flight.

I sat at a spot, ate a candy, and watch some YouTube videos about 'THINGS THAT KEEP ME UP ALL NIGHT' (for y'all TheOdds1out fans).

The video was weird and funny. Another thing that lifts up my mood.

I saw people lined up to get on the plane.

I brought my carry on suitcase and stuffed my snacks in my purse. I did have a backpack in the suitcase, just in case. So I put my purse in the backpack.

Now I have my small backpack on and my suitcase.

Let's go!

I looked behind me.

No sign of Jungkook and Michelle.

You shouldn't care if their late.

I went on the plane found my ACTUAL spot.

Put away my suit case and kept eating my snacks.

My wifi is dead so I listen to music, I downloaded on my phone.

Y/N, either way you would know if Jungkook is there. Your mom and his mom wanted you guys to sit together.

And gusss what, he made it.

Looking like a hot mess.

"I hate you."