"Don't. Don't ever touch me again." She said fighting the tears that wanted to come out and use vampire speed to get out.

"What have I done?" I asked to myself then I turned to see all of them and said "I am going after her"

"Son, she is going to need a moment alone. She needs some time before she looked at you again. You hurt her, she needs time to heel..."

"And if she turns off her humanity. She won't, I am going now try to find her and when I can I text you. Just stay here before you screwed any chances that you have to be with her again." Rebekah said and went away.

"Everything is going to be fine." Elijah said with a small smile.

I thought in turning off my humanity but that it was just giving to Klaus to much importance and he didn't deserve that... I can't believe that I was with a guy, who is capable of killing me. What was I thinking? Maybe Tyler was right, it was all an illusion. He just wanted me for a while because he couldn't have me but now that he saw that I care about him, he doesn't care if I am dead or alive.

I went to Marie's motel and asked a bedroom, she give the key of my bedroom, it was really modest. Had one bed, not too big but not too small, had one small wardrobe and a small bathroom

I decided to go take a walk and buy some alcohol, when I was about to come into the store where they sold alcohol, ice-cream and chocolates.

"Oh, hey Bekah" I said with a weak smile.

"I was just wondering how you doing after..."

"I don't want to talk about it" I said cutting her off and then I start to walk through the halls and Rebekah walked next to me.

"What are we doing here?"

"Buying chocolates, ice cream and alcohol. The ingredients to happiness..." I said and she just nodded then I added "Don't worry I won't turn it off"

"I know. I am your friend, I know you and I know that you are stronger than that..." She said and I smiled to her.

"So... ice cream of chocolate or vanilla?" I asked her

"How about both?"

"I really like the way you think..." I said smiling, and then we start to walk again and put some bottle in the shopping car "How are the things between you and Marcel?"

"I don't think we will ever going to work out."

"Why?" I asked.

"Because I think he will always choose Klaus over me"

"Than he is stupid. Any guy will be lucky to have a sexy and smart girl like you."

"Aw, you're so sweet!" Rebekah said and we smiled.

After we buy everything that we wanted we went to a park and start to eat the ice cream with bottles of alcohol, it passed a few hours and we already eaten everything, but we were still drinking, we were totally drunk.

"It already passed 3 hours since Rebekah text me saying that she was with Caroline. Do you think Caroline is okay? Do you think she will forgive me? What am I going to do?"

"Brother you need to relax. Rebekah can keep you update or Caroline will be suspicious..."

"Yeah, they are probably having girl talk or whatever." Kol said and went to his room.

"Elijah, I think I won't be able to live with myself with Caroline hating me..." I said and tears came out and start running through my face. "I can't do this, Elijah."

"Brother what are you think you're doing?"

"I won't turn it off but..." I said and open a drawer where I had a weapon that gave me hallucinations make me want to kill me but didn't kill me because I am an Hybrid. "... I am going to make myself pay for what I have done."

I put the weapon on my stomach and my brother Elijah took it, but my hallucinations will just stop after some days, maybe months... I went to my bedroom and start to sleep. I deserve to suffer and death is not an option because if I die, Caroline will die...