He was crying in my arms and I was thinking that I was so wrong about him, I always thought that he is heartless, he is inhuman, he is arrogant, he is rude and void of all emotions, but I was wrong he is so broken, helpless, sad and lonely, he is one of those who show themselves to be the most cruelest and strong of all but from inside they are soft and full of emotions.

"Now you are here.. Then tell her to go.. tell her to leave me.. ask her why she is doing this to me.. why she comes here and leaves me heartbroken.. why Is she breaking my heart like its nothing.. like I don't feel any pain.. why?.. save me.." he said breaking the hug and looking into my eyes, his blue eyes seems like ocean of tears,

Seeing him like this an lone tear escapes my eye, "I promise I will save you from everything, now come on first stand" I have no idea who is she? And what have she done to him, that made him so vulnerable? I picked him up from his shoulders and he stands up, after making him sit on sofa I run to get the first aid kit, after searching for few minutes I finally found it in one of the drawers,

I sit beside him taking his hand in mine I start cleaning it with drenched cotton of antiseptic wound wash, I hiss a bit feeling his pain but he remained seated looking at me, after cleaning it properly I applied ointment on it and wrapped the bandage around his palm, Thank God, the cut was not that deep, and it didn't had any glasses in it,

He is so careless how can he just hurt himself like this, why he always wants to feel the pain, he always tries to suffer, I want to know why he is like this, but no-one can tell, even he also never speaks of it, I'm amazed that he is always thinking about his past but never wants to talk about it.

His fingertips touch my cheek and I come back from my thoughts, he wipes my tears, I just look at him, those eyes they always ties me in something, whenever I see them I'm lost, in the deepness and beauty of it, this not the first time I'm seeing his eyes, I have always seen similar pairs of eyes in my dreams, it's strange that the eyes you see in dreams comes alive in real life the difference is just in reality they are quite and sad but in my dreams they seem so alive, and full of life.

"Thank You" words left his mouth,

"It's alright Mr. Adams but I want to know why are you doing this, why? You were hurt, you were bleeding and still you didn't even try to help yourself, you were sitting their staring at your wound, don't you feel pain?" I'm annoyed, neither he tells me anything and nor stop thinking about it.

"This pain is nothing in front of what I feel everytime, this wound will bleed for sometime then it'll stop bleeding and will be cured but the wound I have inside me" he chucked darkly "it might not bleed like this one but Its killing me from inside, because of that pain I don't feel any other pain"

"Mr. Adams" he cuts me off,

"Look Miss. Peers it's your tear" he said showing my tear on his fingertip "I gave you this.. this is the only thing I can give to anyone, tear.. hurt.. pain.. sadness.. you helped me.. you want to help me don't ya?" he asked and I nod, "Then kill me, kill me Keira, I'll be more than thankful"

"Please Mr. Adams don't say this, please don't, I know you are hurt, I know someone have hurt you badly and you want to die because of it, but tell was she the only person in your life?" I asked,

"She was my everything" he said with a sad smile over his face, it's clear he is again thinking of her,

"No.. Maybe she was your everything but not the only one in your life, you want to die for one person who loved you but can't you live for other persons who love you, Erik, he is your best friend he sees his family in you he thinks you everything and I know you also want to see him happy always but do you think he'll be happy if you'll die.. Mary she thinks you as her brother, she loves and cares for you do you think she'll be okay with you dying.. and what about me.. a girl who can't stand your bleeding hand a girl who is always thinking about you, who just wish one thing to see you happy smiling like you used to will be able to see you dying.. If anything will happen to you I'll die as well" I said in tears,

He cupped my cheeks wiping the tears, and took me in his arms, "Promise me you won't leave me.. you'll never leave me" he asked still hugging me,

"I would never leave you but promise me that you'll also not hurt yourself or if you'll hurt yourself, I'll be doing the same myself" I really mean it,

He nod and then lay on sofa keeping his head in my lap, looking at me, I run my hand on his temple,

"You are so beautiful" he said taking my hand in his and keeping it on his heart, I could feel his beating they were slow and soft like an sad music "I was living without an heart but when you came.. it start to beat again, you won't go right? because if you'll it will stop beating again and I'll.." I cut him in middle,

"I would never do that" I leaned down kissing his temple and closes his eyes, after murmuring "don't go" he fell in sleep.

I keep on looking at him, he looks like an Greek God, his eyelashes are so long and thick, even girls don't have it, I feel like I'm an stalker or something looking and admiring his beauty when he is sleeping is creepy but I can't help it.

I want to end all his pains and give him all the happiness and love that he deserve, God please help me and make my wish come true, just end all his suffering and sorrows give him every colors of joy and happiness.

My phone rings and I pick it up, 22 missed calls and 50 messages from Betty, wait what it's five in the morning, oh crap I must have slept here, my neck hurts because of sleeping in seated position, I looked around and Troy is still soundly asleep,

His hairs are messed not like usual glued one but he look so hot, in his shirt with few top buttons open and in this casual jeans, he is so perfect, well I'm checking a sleeping guy out and I feel like I'm Joe from You it's creepy to check out someone,

Maybe I should leave now he was drunk last night that's why he allowed me to stay and now as he will woken up sober with his mood swings I think he'll kick me out,

Slowly and silently I got up I stir a little but slept again I picked up an pillow putting it under his head, I cover him with a blanket kept on couch,

Before leaving I bent down and placed a kiss on his temple, "I love You"

I woke up from the ring of my phone, I get up groaning from headache,

"Yeah Erik"

"How much did you drink?" he asked pissed off,

"Not that much that I can't handle" I remarked,

"Oh that's great, now if you are back to normal then will you please bring your ass here we have meeting" he said in sarcasm,

"Yeah I'm coming" I cut the call running hand on my face and hairs I sighed.

Wait what, I slept here on couch explains why my neck hurts, did I just slept last night, how can I? How does it even happened?

I have been an insomniac for seven years, I can't even take a nap as it's usually abrupt by my past coming in my dreams that's why I soak myself in alcohol so I would at least get a nap but it never helps me even it increases my pain and sorrows but last night I was able to sleep nicely without getting up panting and stressed from my past, how was I? And who covered me with blanket?

I ran my hand in my hair and a bandage caught my attention, as I look at it things starts to became clear,

"Keira" she did this she bandaged my bleeding hand, she helped me to sleep, I don't need this bandage.. I don't need this sleep but I need her she is the medicine to cure my pain she is the one who can bring me back to lights from deep dark sorrows,

I need her but I can't have her, she is so perfect, she is beautiful, brave, bold, smart, caring, kind and loving she is perfect she clearly don't deserve an guy like me who is confused, aggressive, rude, a bad luck and so fuckingly messed up,

She is an angel any guy would fall in her feet but me I'm myself fallen.. fallen from heights of love which took me high showing me beautiful heaven of love, I was so lost in its beauty and in enjoying those moments that I didn't even noticed that someone is cutting my wings, and I fall deep down in hell of heartbreak and sorrows all alone with no one to help me to stand but now with Keira coming in my life I feel like to fly again but I can't my feet are tied up with my wounds of past..

God please help me..

I walked in my office with Erik following me,

"Why are you late?" He asked as we get inside my cabin, " And what's that bandage over your hand, Troy I hope you didn't tried anything stupid"

"I'll tell you if you'll let me explain" I hate it when someone throws questions at me, "I got drunk and broke the whiskey bottle on my hand"

"Great I'm glad at least you bandaged it" he mocked,

"No I didn't",

"Then who did it?"

"Keira" she is a angel, my angel I still can't get it out of my mind that she literally said that she loves me, my heart is like dancing but I'm scared also what if someone will take her away from me, I can't stand separation again, I won't be able to bear it if someone will take her away from me.

"I'm still here Troy" Erik snapped in front of my eyes to get my attention,

"Yeah" I said clearing my thoughts, I was about say something to him as her melodious voice came in my ears,

"Can I come in Mr. Adams?" She spoke softly,

"Of course you can" Erik said smiling at her,

She entered in my office looking more than beautiful in her baige colored pencil skirt with white ruffled top tucked in her hairs tied up in pony tail with few flicks on her angelic face,

"Good Morning Mr. Adams, Good Morning Mr. Simon" she greeted us with her kissable lips stretching in smile,

"Morning Keira and please call me Erik and Thank You so much for helping my idiot friend last night" Erik really admires her he is certain that only she can bring me back from my sorrowful life to an colorful life,

"Good Morning Miss. Peers" she looked at me and we both looked in each others eyes, I think again I'm drowning in her deep eyes like always,

Erik cleared his throat "I have to see some files I gotta go" he quickly leaves,

"Hmm.. I wanted to" we both said in unison, she giggled,

"You first" I said,

"I want to ask how are you feeling?" she asked softly,

"I don't know but now these days kinda feeling alive" hearing my words her eyes lit up, "And Thank You for everything you did last night"

"Pleasure, but I want to say something to you" she said,

"You can say anything you want" I replied looking in her magical eyes,

"Last night when I got their to give you your wallet, I realized that you like pain, when I found you sitting their with a bleeding hand I was very scared, you were the one hurt but it was like I was feeling that pain, I'm no one to you I just work for you and we know each other for few months but I'm kinda attached to you but before hurting yourself like that you should have think of the people who are related with you, who cares about you, who can't just think of spending a moment without you and who loves you, I know I said it last night as well and I'm no one but now when you are sober I just want to ask you to stop hurting yourself by doing things like this you are not hurting yourself but you are hurting your loved ones"

"Keira you are right but.. tell me how can I end this pain in my heart, how can I live when someone has taken my breath away" I myself want to end all these but how can I?

"Someone have given you one reason to die but look around you, you have so many reasons to live" she says with her eyes glossy with tears, "Just try to give your life another chance"

We stared in each others eyes I want to tell her everything but I just can't, what if she'll hate me..

Before I could say anything her phone rang,

"It's time for your conference.. I'm sorry to take your time Mr. Adams" saying she left it's cleared that she is hurted because of me.

She loves me, and I love her, I should listen to her,

Live your life.. Move on..

"What do you think about it sir?"

"Troy" Erik called to get my attention,

"Yeah" I was so lost in thoughts that I completely forgot that it's conference going on,

"What do you think sir?" the guy asked again about the car design, and I have no idea what to say as I was just not listening,

I opened my mouth to say something, but the droplets of rain falling on window glass gets my attention, I get up from my chair with everyone getting up with me, I stand in front of window looking at rain and everyone looking at me,

It look so beautiful, the clouds, the rain, the breeze, the aroma of wet ground.. In this seven years many seasons came and go but I never liked any of them but why now this season, this rain why I'm liking all this why everything looks beautiful now.. Then I saw peoples enjoying it and kids playing football in the park in front of my office,

I know what I wanna do, I turned around loosing my tie and putting off my coat placing it in Erik's hand I left the conference room.

Harry is asking the question but Mr. Adams is not even listening it seems like he is just sitting here but his mind is somewhere else,

Without uttering a word he stand up and start to look outside the window, we all were waiting for him to say something but he just after loosing his tie and putting of his coat he left,

Erik followed him calling his name, and so I,

What's the matter with him? Where is he going?

I come out of the building, and saw half of the employees gathering like a crowd near the park,

I hope he is alright..

They look shocked as if have seen a ghost or something, Mr. Adams what have you done, with fast steps and heavy heart I reach there making my way in crowd and I'm shocked to see it,

Words come from my mouth "Oh My God"

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