could you hold me please ?

because the comforting words of my friends suddenly feel so empty

and the echoes of melodies that once brought me life fade into the background

as all I think about is one hundred different shades of you

I want to feel that warmth again

I want to go back to the lie I believed when you blinded me with your affection

maybe all I want is a deflection of the truth, or maybe I just want to feel as put together as I once was when i believed you were in love with me too.