(Devon's POV)

I turn my music off, pulling off my earphones. I've been doing nothing but listening to music and reading. I can't get the image of Alex and Jamie kissing out of my head.

Jamie has the same job as me, right? So why did Alex cheat on me- saying 'she's alone', when Jamie has the same damn job. She hasn't cheated on Jamie yet- so what makes me any different?

I don't know, Alex is confusing.

I get out of my bunk, only in sweatpants and a sports bra. I put on black ripped skinny jeans, a dark purple shirt, my leather jacket and combat boots.

Sometimes, I want to go back to square one. Back to 3 years ago. Back to the beginning. Where I didn't have to meet Alex. Where I didn't run into her at the restroom, Starbucks or on that stupid walk. I don't want to be in love with her. Because all that does is bring pain to me. But it also brings joy.

Sometimes I wish I didn't meet Alex. But at the same time, I am glad I met her. Because she brings me happiness. She brings me a lot of emotions. Pain, joy, happiness, anger, sadness, confusion, a lot. She's the one who brought feeling back to my heart.

I sigh as I walk into the kitchen. Our first concert is tomorrow. We're still in Virginia.

I look at my watch, seeing it's 10:23. I grab a bottle of water out of the fridge. I rub the back of my neck as I walk out of the kitchen into the lounge. The only seat available is next to Alex.

I open my water as I sit down next to her. Alex looks at me, then the floor, then Jamie, who is next to her.

You know what I just noticed? That I haven't gotten laid in 3 years.

"Holy shit." I mutter to myself. 3 years!

"Penny for your thoughts?" Ryan asks me.

"I just noticed that I haven't had sex in 3 damn years!" I scoff.

Skylar then starts laughing uncontrollably, along with the others, except Alex.

"Dude!" Leon starts. "We're going to go get you laid tonight!"

I shake my head, drinking my water before speaking.

"No," I start. "As much as I'd like that. I would like to be in a relationship before having sex."

The laughter stops as they stare at me.

"You have changed," Skylar mutters. "A lot."

I glance at Alex, who is looking down.

"Depression does that to you." I admit.

It goes quiet, seeing how I just admit I was depressed.

"But," I sigh. "If you can find me a girlfriend. Go for it." I smile at them.

Skylar and Leon look at each other. They nod before high-fiving.

"Operation find Devon a girlfriend in motion!"

I can't help but notice Alex looking..jealous. Her fists are clenched and her breathing has slightly became heavier.

I raise an eyebrow before looking away.

"Shouldn't be hard since I'm a celebrity." I say.

"True, how do we know if they're only using Devon for her money?" Ivy asks.

"Then we'll use other celebrities!" Leon exclaims.

~~~

I'm sitting in the lounge watching TV when Skylar comes in with Leon. They have grins on their faces, making me raise an eyebrow.

My brain then comes to realization, probably finding a girl.

"Who?" I ask them with a sigh. I turn off the TV, turning to them.

"Nobody," Leon says. "But, we have a contestant!"

I look at Skylar, wanting her to elaborate.

"We went online and started a poll-" I cut her off.

"What the fuck? A poll? You're out of your fucking mind!"

"Listen, just listen. So we went online, started a poll. The question is, 'Who do you ship Devon with the most?'. Most responses we're Alex-" I cut her off again.

"Nah dip! Have you seen the fucking Delex ship?" I roll my eyes.

"Let me finish! Anyways, most responses were Alex. 2nd place was..ehem. Sadly, me." Skylar mutters. I start laughing.

"Sevon!" I wiggle my eyebrows at her. She makes a disgusted face.

"Anyways-" Leon starts. "3rd place was Shay Mitchell. From Pretty Little Liars."

I raise my eyebrow at this. Shay Mitchell. Hm, we've met. We got along pretty well. But girlfriend material? No.

"We've met, but I think of her as a friend." I say.

"Exactly! People caught pictures of you two hanging out, laughing and everything! The fans would love it!" Skylar exclaims, doing hand motions.

"My point exactly," I say. "The fans would love it. But would we? Probably not, Skylar. I'm not going out with her. This was a bad idea."

"Then go to a strip club or something!" Leon exclaims.

It would be nice..I mean, I haven't had fun in awhile. Plus, who's going to stop me? Alex? Hah! No.

"Not tonight, we have a concert tomorrow. Maybe the day after." I tell them. They nod excitedly.

~~~

We're at the club right now. Our concert yesterday was a success! We sold out the whole thing. It was pretty exciding, especially when you're touring with your old bandmates.

I'm wearing black skinny jeans, a black button down and combat boots. My Alex tattoo is covered.

Right now, I'm at the bar- alone. Alex and Jamie are dancing on the dance floor, along with Ryan and Ivy. Before we left, Leon told me that him and Alice broke up- so he can do whatever the hell he wants. So currently he's hitting on girls and boys. Skylar has to stay sober so she can drive us home. Plus, she has a girlfriend.

I lean against the bar with a beer in my hand. I sigh as I look around. The loud music makes it impossible to hear. The lights are colorful. People are grinding on the dance floor, not caring about anything. I watch as Alex dances with Jamie, jealously flowing through me.

"Ooh, Devon Swift- the loner!" I turn to my left to see a girl grinning at me.

"Yeah, I'm such a loner." I roll my eyes, drinking my beer. I keep my eyes on Alex as I watch the two dance.

"Well you are watching your ex-girlfriend dance, so you probably have jealousy running through you." The girl says.

"Sorry- but what's your name?" I ask her.

"Ellie." She smiles at me.

"Well, Ellie. Care to dance?" I ask her, putting my beer down.

Ellie has long blonde hair and blue eyes. She's wearing a tight black dress..which makes my hormones go off.

She takes my hand and leads me to the dance floor. She turns around and starts dancing on my front. I put my hands on her hips, moving around. She snakes her arms around my neck, bringing me closer to her. My hot breath is on her neck.

Ellie turns around, now facing me. Her hands roam my body. My forehead is against hers as our eyes stare at each other. I then take the chance, leaning in to kiss her. She kisses me back, but harder.

"Someone likes it rough." I growl into the kiss. I remove my lips from hers and go for her neck.

"Let's get out of here..yeah?" Ellie pants.

"Your place."