it was the day of the party and minho was shaking with nerves. he hadn't spoken to jisung since their mini dispute.

he knew he messed up. jisung had no idea, or at least minho thought jisung had no idea, of the feelings he was questioning.

but if minho was being honest to himself, he wasn't questioning anything.

minho has known he was gay since the seventh grade when his best guy friend got a girlfriend and he was jealous... he wished he was her.

he couldn't stand to see them together and he hated that she basically took his spot as the boys best friend.

minho has tried to mention it to his parents, but of course they are extremely conservative and religious, believing love is only between a man and a women.

minho tortured himself with the idea of love, denying himself of his true feelings and being too afraid to really accept them.

another thought minho was torturing himself with at the moment was jisung being uspet with him... having not spoken since yesterday it was eating away at him.

he needed to speak to the boy.

hey

are you feeling any better from last

night?

i guess

did i do something wrong?

no

i don't really believe you

i'll be fine minho

i'll see you in a couple hours

can we keep texting for a bit?

yeah...

is something wrong?

kind of

but i don't want to talk about it

i just want to talk to you

so you want me to just distract you?

yeah

can you tell me what the subject is

so i know what not to bring up???

is typing

a.n.

if it's centered and italicized like this then it's just 3rd person pov to explain thoughts and stuff while they text

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minho thought about what to say. he didn't have anything that didn't directly give away his feelings.

he wanted to tell jisung his feelings were making him upset, but if he mentioned feelings for someone jisung may not realize it's him and move on from minho.

it was a battle he was having internally with what to say, eventually deciding on something he probably was better off not saying.

i'm upset about you

uh—

so how am i meant to distract you from me?

also what did i dooo?????

i know something upset you last night

and i don't know what it was so

it also made me upset

so much for not wanting to talk about it🗿🗿

well...

you asked

and i didn't know what else to say

i'm sorry, it wasn't your fault

it's something with me

i feel like that's a lie

minhoooooo

just believe me

please

i don't want to speak of it

but you're not mad at me right🥺

i don't know if it's even possible for

me to get mad at you

don't say that, you'll jinx it

man and i thought i worried a lot

are you saying i worry a lot ???

maybeeeee

rude.

not rude, just speaking the truth

noo you definitely worry way more

than i do

i don't know man

i don't think soooo

i think so

i changed my mind

you can make me mad>:(

no i can't 🥰

yes.

no❤️

YOU IRRITATE ME

I WILL SEE YOU AT THE PARTY

byeeee sungie🥰

bye minho.

minho

don't be a hoe

bye minho love u so so much🥰🥰

is that better?

no because you didn't mean it🥺🥺

minhooooo

of course i meant it ✋😔

lies.

you right

byeeeee

whattt

>>sungie went offline

what a whore !!

a.n.

sorry it took me so long to get a chapter out, ive been so so busy i'm sorry everyone 🥺🥺

but ummmm ex and any and b me are just dkeodbekoffi i cant

all the song teasers literally sound so amazing

can someone send me help bc i can't freaking breathe bc of skz