Y/N's pov

I've been staying alone in my dorm lately. Wishing death would claim me. Wishing that I didn't have to choose a fate of uncertainty. Wishing not to hurt anyone. But wishing never worked. I have to choose. I pulled out a piece of paper and start a pros and cons sheet of each girl. I spent hours on it and it still came up as an equal amount of pros and cons. I slam my head on the desk in frustration. Dammit why can't I just pick one?! There's a knock on the door. I crawl out of my desk chair and go to the door. It's them again. I pull myself together to try and act cool.

Y/N: Hey you two how's it going?

Phyrra: It's going good. Have you decided yet?

I can feel my heart hurt. I'm scared. I don't want to hurt them but I also don't want to keep ignoring it.

Blake: It's not like we're in a hurry it's just been a while since we had our little you know *winks* also we haven't seen you lately. Are you ok?

No I'm not. I don't want to hurt you two. Why can't I just decide???

Y/N: I'm solid. If you're ok with it I need to talk to your twos teams alone about something secret. I promise you'll get your answers by the end of the week.

They look annoyed. They wave dismissively and walk off. I close the door and begin to cry. I want to just say both but I can't do that. I have to choose one... or I could just end it. If I'm not here then they won't have to fight over me. I pull out a clean paper out of my desk and begin to write a goodbye letter. As I finish writing this I feel someone come up behind me and spin my chair around. It's Yang... she looks really pissed... her eyes are red. Nora is also here. She has her hammer deployed and looks like she's ready to snap.

Yang: What the hell is your issue?!

Nora: You just wanted them for sec didn't you?!

Yang slapped me across the face. I just look down in sadness. I hear metal shifting and look up to see Nora aiming her gun at me.

Y/N: If you're going to kill me do it. I'm done... just kill me.

I watch as she lowers her gun in confusion. Yangs eyes begin to change back to there original color.

Yang: Why do you want to die? You have two girls that want you.

Y/N: THATS THE FUCKING ISSUE!!!

I slam my hand on my chairs armrest. Nora and Yang back up in hesitation. I clear my throat and look them in the eye.

Y/N: I'm sorry. I...I just don't want to hurt them. I have to pick one but if I do the other one will be crushed. I was thinking that maybe I should just end it because at least then they won't have to be up and arms about me.

I begin to cry into my hands. I feel Yang hug me and Nora pat my back in comfort. They break the embrace and leave. Before they left Yang looked over to me.

Yang: Hang in there buddy. We'll take care of this.

I was left alone in my dorm again. I curled up in my bed and cried myself to sleep.

Later...

Blake's pov

Me and Phyrra we're sitting in my dorm. Her team next to mine. Yang and Nora went off to go get some answers out of Y/N. That motherfucker. He can't decide. Bullshit. He's using us.

Blake: You know what? Enough is enough I'm breaking this off with him.

Phyrra: I agree. He's been so distant lately. I think he's probably seeing someone else.

Ren: Let is think about this logically.

Juane: I agree with Ren. You two are trying to win over Y/N and he's probably struggling on who to pick because he doesn't want to hurt either of you.

Phyrra: But he knows that he can tell us this. We've waited for weeks for a response and he keeps putting it off. Blake's right. Enough is enough.

Yang and Nora enter the room.

Blake: Sorry we made you do that Yang and Nora. We're going to go take care of it now.

I walk towards the door. Yang blocks my path. She looks saddened or worried.

Yang: Blake, Wait. Y/N isn't picking beca-

Phyrra: Because he was using us.

Nora: No it's not like that.

Blake: I don't want to hear it. Move.

I push Yang out of the way. Me and Phyrra head over to Y/N's dorm. Yang and Nora keep trying to give us excuses to which we firmly ignore. We get to his dorm and bang on it heavily. No response. Should've figured. Phyrra kicks down the door. I look over and see Y/N balled up in his bed. I walk over to him and try to shake him awake.

Blake: Wake up...

No response

Phyrra: Y/N this is serious.

No response

By now me and Phyrra are starting to get worried. He's a heavy sleeper but not this heavy. I hear a gasp come from the side of the room. It's Ruby. She's holding a paper. She hands it to me and calls someone on her scroll. I read the note and I feel my heart drop. I hand it to Phyrra and fall on my knees next to his bed.

Phyrra:...no.... I'm so sorry y/n....

Letter:

Dear Phyrra and Blake,

I'm sorry. I just can't pick between the two I love the most. I'm going to sleep. I haven't eaten or properly slept in weeks. I just don't want to hurt one of you by picking one or another. I'm sorry. If I don't wake up. Know that I love you and wish you the best. I love you both so much and I wish I could've just said both of you. I'm sorry...

Sincerely: Y/N.

Ruby: Hello? Dr, Ooblek? we need your help. It's Y/N. He's not waking up from his sleep. We found a letter and it says he hasn't eaten or slept in weeks. Please hurry. Thank you.