I though today would be a nice day, but sister’s face is scary. Just scary.

“Goo…good morning Onee…”

“Get here at once. Let’s get this over with!”

Aaahh…

“Sorry for interrupting your training…”

These eyes!

*sigh* “At least you got it. Start by closing your eyes.”

I did it and soon felt her hands around my arms. Where is she taking me, I wonder…?

Oh, it smells.

Wait, don’t tell me…

“Sis! What are you doing!”

I am above the toilet’s hole! What are you doing!

“Onee… you aren’t intending to….”

I started to fell.

NO!

Ah, she got me.

I’m sweating cold here!

Still, her eyes are so hard. Have you taken a grudge on me sis?

“Calm down and pay attention to the feeling on your body. Can you feel something different?”

Uh?

I can feel my nerves on point of bursting, that is for sure!

“Here, try swinging with all of your strength.”

Ah, my knees are trembling.

Still, I swung the twig.

It made a huge explosion sound. And then I felt tired. Very tired. It’s as if someone had drained strength from my insides. My hips feel so weak…

Still, was that a sonic boom? I heard professional swordsman can do it, but me?

“Aah….”

“That’s good. Remember this feeling. This is how you use your aura at maximum power. Avoid doing that if can, or you will fell dead tired like that. Now sit on the ground and close your eyes.”

… you won’t do that again, will you?

Well, if she just wanted to give me a scare… plus, I am dried up already, so she probably won’t do it.

Let’s trust sister.

“Now, try paying attention to the feeling on your skin. Try to feel the wind and everything around you. Tell me if you feel something pressing on you, like when someone pokes your leg when it goes numb.”

I waited a bit and started concentrating. It was hard, since the sleepiness was starting to take me. I may have been just an armchair magician in my past life, meaning I would read a lot and never practice, but meditation is the basic of basics.

This feeling… uuuhm… yeah.

“I feel it sis”

“Good. Let’s continue. Tell me when you feel it.”

There. Don’t feel anymore. It’s back. Now it’s stronger. Now it’s weaker. It’s closer. It’s far.

Yep. This is just like feeling someone’s energy back on earth. Just like what I had learned to do when I tried Aikido.

I opened my eyes and sister was staring at me. Have I gone too far?

“This is so unfair.”

“Sorry.”

“…. It’s not your fault. Common, let’s resume training. Or are you too tired for that?”

“Ah… I want to sleep”

“Okay, go on.”

I won’t even bother getting to my crib. The bare floor is good enough.

Goodnight.

***

When I woke up it was night already. I was on my crib and my parents were sleeping heavily.

Damn I’m hungry.

I wonder if it will be long until morning.

Actually, forget it. I will go and get food by myself. It will take some crying for me to wake them up and I’m just dead tired.

I don’t know why, but I guess that thing with sensing aura got me in a bad mood. I think it is because it has lost some of the magic it had to it.

I mean, sure I am excited with the idea of a world were Qi is real. As anyone who liked dr*agonb*ll or wuxias in my previous life, the idea of cultivating it until I am able to do superhuman things is nice.

Still…

Still…

Well, I have no real reason to be in a bad mood, do I?

What a weird thing. I am just moody today. Maybe it’s because sister almost tossed me in the hole.

Argh. That is definitely it.

Damn sister, I trusted you!

Let’s get out of this crib at once and…

….

….

I can’t.

I can’t push my own weight over the crib’s bars. What the hell… A few days ago I could push my own weight easily….

Is this because I have used all of my aura?

If so, then my physical body really is weak on its natural state, that is, without the passive bonus… I definitely need to reverse this situation. If I have unlimited growth capacity, then I should make good use of it.

My aura may fail me someday, but if I have good muscles underneath then this is good insurance!

Right!

Now, you damn crib… fall over!

I slammed my body against the crib and it feel to the ground. I took a little damage, but it doesn’t seem to have awoken my parents.

Just as I thought. They are hard asleep.

Let’s just get to the kitchen at once.

Ahh.. walking is hard.

I can barely keep myself on my two feet. My legs are on fire with just a few steps. Plus, my balance is affected.

I really have been relaying too much on aura.

It seems I will have to craw from here I on.

I could try getting my parents awake, but I want to do it myself. I need a little time for myself.

“Uuhm… All? Is that you ?”

Oh, father has awakened.

He is looking at me with a dumb face.

“Why aren’t you on your… oh.”

He saw the toppled crib. Well, it’s inevitable now.

“Come here. Let’s sleep together in the bed with Ma, ok? Tomorrow we think about the crib.”

Didn’t I say it was inevitable? He is carrying me.

“Pa! I’m hungry! Pa!”

Damn these sleepy heads. I had to pinch him in the neck to awake him for good.

“Ouch! All! Don’t pinch me!”

“I’m hungry!”

“Hmpf… of course you would be, after getting so much aura damage you had to sleep for an entire day… still, pinching me is bad.”

Please don’t say I will have to go back to sleep without eating. I am really hungry you know!

“It’s because Pa wasn’t listening to me!”

…

“Come on. Let’s get you something to eat.”

All is well when ends well. Pun intended.

I ate some cheese and drank a cup of the diluted beer we drink instead of water. It isn’t exactly the most suitable for my tastes, but i couldn’t care less.

After that we went back to bed and I slept between father and mother.

I don’t know why, but I feel very safe here. I shouldn’t, since I am a reincarnated person, but, still… I guess this is just how humans are.

My bad mood is gone.

Goodnight.

***

The next day was a bit awkward. I awakened at the same time as everyone else, since I had slept so much the other day.

So it was my first time having breakfast together with the family. It was a rather simple meal, and I listened to what everyone intended to do for the day.

Father had some things to solve at work, mother had to adjust Jacen’s clothes and sister would resume her training.

Father also scolded her lightly for making me go too far the other day, but then gave me serious advice.

“You should take the day to train with your sister, eat plenty and rest whenever you feel tired. Good food, good rest and enough exercise to get you a rough breath but not enough to make you pant. That is how you recover from aura damage the fastest.”

I took father’s advice to heart. It made a lot of sense, since the qi one’s produce in their bodies is made with the qi absorbed from what they eat and refined by making good exercise.

Still, there are better ways to do it. Faster ways. And I intend to train them today.

By the way, sister seems a bit fed up. I guess father talked a lot on her ear the previous day. It was a rough training after all…

Well, she will be fine with a little reflection on what she did.

No I won’t go on and hug her! She almost threw me in a pit full of shit!

… I will think on something to make our relationship sweeter some other day, but not today.

Today is qigong training day!

Even if I don’t remember much, I still used to practice a little bit of one or two techniques, so I may be able to get a grip. Let’s do it.

***

So, here are the results of today’s training:

- My muscles are indeed very weak. However, I noticed there is almost no needed time for me to recover from fatigue. I guess this is an effect of my regeneration power, which means as long as I can catch my breath and give my body some time to produce more energy I can recover from exhaustion without any pain or sore muscles. This also means I can grow them much faster, since I don’t need to wait a lot before getting the muscle fibers to regenerate. My strength gaining speed is almost instantaneous. As soon as I get some muscle fatigue and recover I will be stronger.

– Almost any kind of exercise will produce aura, and in big amounts. I was amazed to see a little bit of exercise getting me stronger by a lot. I have been trying to develop techniques to let it out in a controlled manner, but sister’s teaching methods really were too rough. Right now I can only use aura in big amounts by putting my all into it, and feel terribly tired after. I have managed not to pass out, but still… my control is just too little for now.

– When I tried using the technique I knew for absorbing qi from the “infinite” above, that is, from space or heaven… it just resulted in almost nothing. Just a very thin amount of qi being absorbed by me. It’s an amount dozens of times bigger than the one I used to feel on earth, but, still… eating a fruit and running around the yard a few times gives me a lot more.

– Then, when I tried absorbing energy from my surroundings… it was awful. I felt extremely heavy, and my belly, right below my navel, were one must accumulate qi… well, it became hard as a rock. I had to massage it for a long time until the thing dissolved. I’m not afraid of dying for doing something foolish to myself, but if I had to resort to self-surgery to take this off of me… it wouldn’t be pretty. So, direct absorption of energy is out of the picture.

- So, what I could do… was to eat and control the qi production process directly. Surprisingly, it worked wonders. After eating something light, if I just warm my body with a little or exercise and then start the meditation, breathing control and visualization process I used in the qigong practice I can make the amount of produced aura increase several times. I tried some feats of strength to compare. I can lift myself from the ground using only the fingers of one hand, while in lotus position, after a single use of this technique. By doing simple exercise it takes me over five attempts to lift myself using both my hands, whole. I would have tried for a longer time to discover exactly how many times the technique is more effective than exercise, but it was dinner time already, so I just stopped.

Of course, I kept my training a secret as much as I could. It wasn’t very difficult, as mother and sis thought I was resting for most of the day.

Why?

Obviously because this is knowledge from my previous life. If I am to just pop with a method to increase one’s aura strengthening speed they would be frightened or even think something supernatural is going on.

I mean, this IS a world of monsters and magic. Maybe they would think a globin had taken me in my sleep and put a globin child in the crib instead… or something, I don’t know.

So I just kept it a secret.

Anyhow, these discoveries made me think on a very interesting new training regime for myself. But I still want to discover exactly how many times the technique I have is faster than the normal technique – since this will be the defining factor on what will I do about my daily training with sister.

So, let’s eat dinner and listen to what everyone has done during the day.

***

What… what kind of situation is this?

This is the first time someone asks me about my day during dinner. And it is father from all people.

Aah… they are all looking at me, aren’t they?

Well, let’s be true.

“I slept and trained.”

“And have you made any progress in controlling your aura?”

“….. no.”

“Then keep going at it! Try to get at least a couple blows before falling to the ground, okay?”

…

Father just gave me a goal to reach.

“Father, me too!”

Ah, Jacen is competing with me again.

“You too hum. Very well, why don’t we have your sister teaching both of you tomorrow?”

… sister is glaring at us. What murderous intent!

“Jacen have to go outside during the day, so he won’t be training here!”

Mother is strict as ever. I wonder if she is worried about Jacen not making any friends?

“But Ma! I wanna!”

Oh, he is gonna cry isn’t he?

“Hey, let’s do it this way then. I will take you to the barracks and teach you myself. How about it?”

“Really??!”

Ah, Jacen’s eyes are shining.

Well, at least sister is freed from losing another of her training days with us.

But I wonder if father has so much time to spare like this?

…

Not my business.

We went to bed at the usual time, and I slept between father and mother again. Since I toppled the crib the day prior they decided it would be safer for me to sleep with them.

I cannot say it’s something comfortable to sleep between a couple being aware of the fact, but there’s something which just makes me feel very good being close to both.

I don’t know if it’s their smells, or the rhythm they breath or just their presences.

I am very happy to have these two parents to sleep between.

***

I have spent most of the next ten days trying to get an accurate measurement on how many times my qigong training is more efficient than regular sword swinging.

Of course I didn’t spend the whole of those days training since I had other things to do… like knitting with the hags and helping sister to fix a whole in the fence.

Also, Jacen has also worked to exhaustion numerous times and got a terrible mood in all of them. He tried to poke me and get in a fight numerous times. Luckily a few days later he got to the two blows line, while I haven’t been training, and all of that rivalry went to space.

Father was a bit disappointed with me. That hurt a little, but I just endured it. I’m not wrong in my calculations. Learning my potential before trying to master these techniques, in my present condition, is the best thing…

Right?

All those hindrances aside, I have counted thirty exercise routines (comprised of a meal and numerous hours of sword swings) for each qigong routine (which is comprised of a meal, light exercise and then qigong training).

… really. Just how much of a cheater am I now?

Just a single day of qigong work from me is worth a whole month of sister’s sword swinging.

And that is why I decided to try a new training regime.

I will wake with everyone, take breakfast and then just head straight to endurance training.

That means I will get my best to take all of the aura out of my system, leaving just a little bit behind. Just enough so I don’t faint.

Then I will have classic strength and muscle training with calisthenics. I don’t have weighted clothes to make advanced training, but this is for the future. Now my own body’s weight will be enough.

Next is sword swinging with sister for the rest of the day, save when mother needs me.

I will do it not with the objective of accumulating aura, but to make upper body and dexterity training.

I was very disappointed after discovering that not only my strength but also my dexterity had fallen after my aura had been consumed. Maybe I have even lost some insight and intelligence, as small details which I used to notice easily, like sword swinging angles, are now difficult to gasp.

I guess aura really is a wonder thing which can make you a superior human.

That is why I will get heavier and heavier sticks and try to get more and more blows in smaller amounts of time, without using any of it. So I can have a strong body besides the amount of aura I have at my disposal. It’s just basic insurance.

Of course, to do that I will need to be able to be constantly spending aura as I exercise – so the amount gained with the exercise is compensated by the amount I spend swinging and I can train my muscles instead of accumulate aura.

Let’s do it!

***

Time has started to go by really fast now.

Every day I have something new to learn or do. Some things I used to do easily, like running or calisthenics, now are much more difficult to do.

Knitting has become almost impossible, as my fingers have become so much less dexterous.

But my growth has also been extraordinary.

I may even become one of those ugly six-pack babies if I keep getting muscle at this rate.

Just joking. I am getting stronger and sharper, not buffed.

A good thing about this body of mine – the goddess indeed gave me what I asked. Unlimited growth potential.

How is this related to not getting buffed with muscle training?

Have you ever seen a heavy-lifter trying to scratch his back? Some can’t even touch their own shoulders because of the bulging muscles in the way.

So not getting any perceptive changes on my physique while my strength is clearly growing is a good thing.

Also, sister seems to have misunderstood my intentions.

After a month of training she suddenly came by and said she would help me get better at it – that is, aura control.

I realized she might have been feeling guilty about exaggerating in my first training, so I just went along with it.

Truth be said I could already do much more than two blows after my second week of training, but since I released everything at once every day at morning the family may have misunderstood.

Since then I have been releasing it in two shots, instead of doing it only once. Father made a pleasant expression when sister told him, and said my next step was to get as good as sister was now – and that I should try to do it in three years’ maximum, since that was how much she had taken.

By the way, it seems sister can do five blows before getting worn out. Jacen have stopped training too hard after reaching two, but father said he also should try and get to five.

I wonder how father would react if he knew I already have enough aura control to be able to continuously release it on small blows. If I try seriously it is possible for me to release aura blows all day long, since the consumption is the same amount as the one I generate.

They aren’t even closely as powerful as the ones as I do with max power or even half power, but they already have an extra kick to it.

Of course I don’t intend on telling him or anyone else. My growing speed is monstrous because I roughly know what I’m doing, while everyone else is learning by feeling and empiric experience alone.

Besides, I don’t need to fear death or injury so I can do reckless things like when I tried to absorb the environmental qi.

Everyone else have to deal with the fear of getting badly hurt by experimenting with aura. If I told them how I got my current abilities, wouldn’t this spell trouble?

So let’s keep this a secret.

***

My third birthday has come!

I was too young to notice Jacen’s when he had his, but this is a date when people commemorate birthdays in this world.

At the first, third, fifth, tenth and fifteenth years of life.

They signal what you can and should do.

At your first year you are expected to just lay around and survive.

By the age of three it seems we start getting chores to do around the house, besides helping mother when she asks for help. Jacen’s is to watch the fire during winter. Mine will be decided once the party is over.

On the subject of the party itself, it’s supposed to be a big one, but not so big as the one I got for my first birthday.

In the end the first, fifth and fifteenth birthdays are the most important out of all, since they mark great changes in life. From totally dependent to half-dependent after the first year. And then from half-dependent to just economically dependent after the fifth year. And finally from economically dependent into adulthood from the fifteenth ahead. The third and tenth are just regular birthdays.

So the party isn’t going to be too big.

Just me, the family and a few friends.

Father will have three or four people coming from work, Jacen will bring two boys he is acquainted with, mother will have a friend and her kids come over and both grandpa and grandma are going to be here. Our neighbors may come by quickly and have a drink before going back home as well.

That will make a party for something around ten or twenty people.

Quite a number, but on my first birthday there were a lot more.

Still, it’s a party!

Beer barrel is in the living room; mother is making snacks. Sister will go wash herself sooner and both father and Jacen will return home earlier than usual.

We may even have some music, if mother decides to sing.

Oh, I haven’t told this before, but father can play the lute. Some of his friends can play some other instruments as well, so we get to have some music from time to time.

It’s not of the most refined and it seems to be all improvised or folk tales, but it’s music nonetheless.

It’s going to be fun.

***

Well, it has come and it has gone.

The party was so-so. I got a few gifts this time. A few wooden marbles, a hand-carved small statue of a monster spider and, most important of all, some sweets.

That is right! Sweets!

Mother never let us have much of it, since sugar, even if it’s brown sugar, is very valuable. But grandmother and some other visitors got me some as a gift.

Call me a glutton as much as you want, I didn’t get to over 150kg in my past life for hating sweet foods.

So I am very happy.

Since they received a good amount of cloth, tea seeds and other stuff, father and mother seemed happy as well.

Jacen was behaving a little better than the last time. He still craved for the attention of adults from time to time, and he even tried to steal some of my sweets. We got in a fight and mother told me to give some to him and his friends.

So unfair!

But that’s family policies for you. I will eye your ten-years-old candies, heard me poop brother?!

Anyhow. Sister was gladly chatting with father and his militia friends. I guess after being accepted by father as a future warrior she earned a place at the “army” table. At a certain point even me and grandmother joined in.

It may not look like it, but grandmother knows a lot about weapons and stuff. It seems being a traveling peddler in this world, especially as a woman, is dangerous – so she learned and practiced quite a lot back in the day.

She is the one who taught Ann, and mother seemed to have learned a lot from her as well. Except mother had no talent for the sword and quickly dropped it in favor of learning domestic stuff and living a normal person’s life.

Grandmother seemed a bit disappointed at that.

The party went on for a couple hours into de night, but that was it. Then we all went to sleep.

And that is when I discovered my parent’s gift for me.

Or should I say it’s a gift for them?

They got me a new bed.

That means, a suspended sheet of wood on four rustic legs, with a crude straw-stuffed mattress and no pillows.

Still, it’s my bed.

Which means I will be sleeping in the “children’s” bedroom now.

I guess my nights of sleeping comfortably between my parents are over. It’s just logic when you think about it.

I have been able to control my sphincters fairly good now, but I still had an accident a few days ago.

I also have just completed 3 years old, and the crib have proven to be unable to hold me.

Plus, father and mother have been abstinent for at least two years now…. or something. I don’t know. Maybe they did it somewhere recluse?

Anyhow, I’m sure they miss their bed.

So be it. Children have to grow sometime, right?

I accepted it calmly and went to sleep.

Still…

Do they need to do it on the very first night I get out of there!

Look, Jacen is putting his ear on the wall, and sister is pretending to sleep while holding her chest. But I can see everyone is feeling extremely awkward now!

Besides… I can sense your presences, so it’s almost as if I could see the two of you.

Damn medieval houses and their tiny wooden walls. I demand soundproofing! And aura sensing proofing as well!

Guess I will just try my best to erase my aura and numb my senses.

Yes. I’m not hearing anything. Not. A. Thing.

***

“Pa, what were you and Ma doing last night?”

Thank you poop brother. Now my breakfast is all over the table.

“Uhm? Me and your mother? I see… so you three could hear it…”

“Thinking well, Ann has complained in the past, hasn’t she?”

Mother… you even knew…

“No sense worrying over it. Everyone’s house is like this.”

“Still…”

Well, mother is at least a bit uncomfortable.

“My parents used to do it in the straw right next to me and my brothers you know? And our neighbors lived close, so sometimes we would hear they doing it. Your mother is the weird one for giving so much attention to such things.”

….. poop brother, poop sister, poop mother. Poop father as well. It’s poop family, the re-mastered edition!

Still… why am I feeling a bit excited with this?

After being reincarnated I thought my impure feelings would vanish little by little. I don’t even carve mother’s breast anymore, and the other day, even though Ann was changing right in front of me, I didn’t get aroused at all. And she has developed quite a bit already….

So why am I feeling like bursting right now?

… I must keep my bottom hidden under the table at all costs. Not wearing pants for being young is a huge embarrassment right now.

“John! You promised!”

Is that the first time mother calls father by his name in front of us?

…. I guess it is.

Today is a weird day. Definitely.

“Okay, okay, no more talk about that. I will just explain it to Jacen and we won’t talk about it anymore.”

“… fine. But I will be in the kitchen, so talk quick.”

Jacen is totally lost. Ann is blushing a little, but she hasn’t quit eating.

“So, son, you see… when husband and wife are together, sometimes they want to make each other feel good. That is what me and your mother were doing last night.”

“Feeling… good?”

“That is right.”

“Then…”

“Uhm? What is it?”

“Can father do that to me as well?”

Gah.

GAAAH!

Poop-brother I could fry an egg on my face right now! I’m red as a pepper! How do you dare say such a thing?!

Children are shameless. Just shameless.

Pff.

I just looked at sister’s face. She is laughing. Now I’m feeling like laughing as well.

Still, father doesn’t look very happy.

“That is something which you can’t do with family son. Also, two man doing it is bad.”

Jacen seems a bit crestfallen.

“Bad?”

“Yes. Don’t say you want to do it with your family or another guy, or people will be angry with you. Better yet, only say you want to do it with people you really like and who really like you as well. Because you will have to take responsibility if something happens.”

…what’s with this mix of prejudice-filled and accepting father?

Jacen probably just said that because he has been very attached to father lately.

It’s not like he is gay.

I mean, he surely is better at house chores than most, and have a little bit of a sensitive feeling.

But none of those mean he is gay, right?

Well, maybe I’m the one prejudiced here. Maybe father just want to avoid Jacen telling weird stuff to strangers.

Still… from what father said, I can understand that homosexuality isn’t well accepted in this world. But he accepts it?

Well, I asked for a body which could change into any sex and for a loving family as well. Maybe the goddess understood my hidden… special sexuality…and gave me a very special family?

…. At this rate I am almost convinced this is the case.

“Responsibility?”

“Yes. When a men and a women do it, there is a chance the women will become pregnant with a baby. If that happens you have to take responsibility and be a good father.”

“A baby?!”

“Yes, that is how babies like you and your brother are made.”

“But then, why can’t I make a baby with father?”

For Christ’s sake little brother, I’m starting to think you are a woman in a man’s body…

“What have I just told you? You can’t make babies with your family. That is very bad! Also, two man can’t have children. You need a man and a woman to have a baby.”

“But Paaaa !!!”

“That is enough. Jacen, go out.”

“But Ma!”

“Not “but”. Just do it! Now!”

And now he is crying. I guess father will just… uh?!

Mother just tossed him out. Crying and everything. And slammed the door after.

Mother…. Aren’t you afraid Jacen will grow up to be traumatized with sex?

No… I’m pretty sure mother can’t take another word. She is as red as me.

So much for that loving family thing…

And sister is just munching on the rice.

That is right sister. Just munch and jiggle. Munch and jiggle.

***

Days have finally started to go back to normal. It took us a few weeks to get over the whole “father and mother having sex next door” thing, but eventually we just grew used to it.

Jacen stopped listening with his ears glued to the wall, sister is sleeping soundly and I have discovered my young body is capable of dry orgasms.

…

Don’t judge me. I don’t do it always. It’s just… that talk the other day, it started something inside of me.

I’m trying to stop, I swear. The mean hags are making sure to make me feel pretty bad about it already, when it happens of me having an erection near them.

Of course, they don’t think it is abnormal since kids around my age usually have erections and even rub themselves publically. But they still make fun of it and I’m still a reincarnated person, so this is rough.

“Hahah, look at that little man getting all stiff again!”

“Alice, this kid of yours will bring a lot of grandchildren in the future!”

“You are becoming quite the man, aren’t you Alvin? Getting worked up with some old hags knitting!”

Cut me some slack already. It’s not like I’m thinking on YOU bunch when I get like this. Definitely not on the giant-mole-in-the-nose Rina.

Anyhow. Being able to get some relief by myself, this isn’t the only think I discovered.

No sir.

I also discovered that I’m now able to sleep just a tiny little bit every night and be completely refreshed the next day.

I have calculated my needed amount of sleep to be roughly two hours. I can sleep normally during the rest of the time, without any setbacks – but it would be wasted time.

So I have added a night routine to my training.

During the day I do the usual, but at night I wait a little bit until everyone is deep asleep and start a special type qigong training. It’s still being perfected, but the focus isn’t on accumulating more energy but on strengthening my connection with the infinite, void, heaven and earth or whatever you want to call it.

It is a training mostly comprised of meditation in lotus position, and I don’t know much except for the basics of the basics in the subject of how to connect to what should be this source of infinite energy.

Still, I’m making progress slowly and since it’s a silent training there is little chance of brother or sister awakening subtly in the middle of the night. Even if they do, I would just say I was playing with an imaginary friend or something. With a bit of luck this should be enough to convince them.

Not that I actually have an imaginary friend. That ghostly apparition I used to see on my first days in this world is totally gone now.

But how do I know my siblings are asleep in the first place?

I poke them in the cheek.

Just lightly.

Once or twice sister awakened and I had to pretend I wanted to sleep with her, but Jacen hasn’t awakened a single time so far.

If I did something to sister during her sleep?

I may be a pervert, but I am not a family destroyer. Sister is untouched, thank you. When in her bed I am just a peaceful toddler sleeping with his sister.

… a toddler with a raging boner which he keeps from poking her as best as he can, but, still.

As long as I can repress it, it’s okay.