Lizzy's POV-

I picked up the blade off the counter, I could smell my metallic blood on the blade.

I looked at my arm, "Why did I do this, this, this is all wrong. Why did I harm myself." I tought

Flashback-

It was the first day of winter vacation, Cindy and I were about 11. Cindy stayed over my house, When we woke up, we could see the grass full of white snow, it was snowing! Cindy and I put on our coats, and we ran outside. So did my dog Malaki. The white snowflakes landed on Malaki's fur. I was distracted by the snowflake that landed on Cindy's earlobe.

We both made snow angels, mines was missing a wing, while Cindy's on was flawless.

end of flashblack-

"Why couldnt out our friendship be like playing in the snow?" I tought

Suddenly, My brother Caden, slammed open the door and saw my cold body lying on the ground, covered in blood.

He screamed "No, Lizzy not again!"

He took out his phone and dialed 911.

"Please Caden, don-don't call 911.

Im fine, trust me" I said

"Im calling the ambulance, I don't care if your okay, your my sister I love you way to much to not call the paramedics" Replied Caden

I blanked out again.

All that I remember was hearing the loud obnoxious sirens of the ambulance near the house.

I don't remember much after that, I pretty much stood unconscious for almost a whole day.

I woke in my comfy bed. I had 18 dashes on my arm, my arm was numb. I didnt have a phone, so there was no way of getting in contact with Cindy.

Flashback-

It was summer, I was about 15 or 16 Cindy and I were going to our friend Troye's house.

I may have had a little crush on Troye. We played truth or dare.

"Dare!" I said

"I dare you to, kiss Troye!" Cindy said.

I never had my first kiss. Especially with my crush.

"Okay" I said.

I stared at Troye, and he leaned in. I leaned in aswell. I felt my lips collide with his. I pulled away. "Ooohhh!" Cindy said.

We both chuckled.

After we left, I dropped my phone on Troye's bed.

After I realized it was gone, I went back to Troye's house. I knocked on the door and he let me in.

"I think I might have dropped my phone on your bed" I said

"Come up and look for it!" Said Troye I walked upstairs, and Troye followed behind.

"Here it is! Found it!" I said.

When suddenly I felt a strong force push me onto his bed. Troye got on top of me and violenty kissed me.

And the rest is history.

Im am surely not proud to say that I lost my virginity at 15.

I was actually pregnant with his baby, but I had a miscarage early in the pregnancy.

Thats when I started cutting, because people started bullying me about Loosing my virginity, and pregnant at age 15.

End of flashback-

I laid down in my bed, and wondered what it would be like if life was a harmless place.

If only life was easy...