↳(a/n: the words in the stars or whatever this is * is gonna be comments and subs lmaoo)

shit, im so scared for this stream. i usually never stream bc usually im never noticed, so im hoping i get some type of attention today.

i start the stream and join the discord call with vinnie.

 "hey!"

 "hi vin!!"

 "you excited?"

 "ermm, im a little nervous bc ik how ur fans are when ur around other girls"

"yeah its sucks, but i promise you they'll like you, not like we're gonna date"

" yeah hahaha"

we start the stream as i hear vinnie in the discord call introducing me.

"hey guys, im playing with one of my new friends, y/n! shes setting up her stream if you wanna see hers"

i start my stream and introduce myself

"hii! im y/n, um im a friend of vinnies. im on tiktok and insta if you wanna check me out more its y/n.y/l/n !!!"

"okay lets start this yeah?"

 "yeah for sure"

*devynwinkler subbed for 5 months*

 "oh shit, thank you devy!"

as im playing i overhear the robot speaker

*louispartridge subbed for 3 months!*

*louispartridge says: bestie is going great!*

 "uhm thanks louis", i smile for a slight second and look back

*giabailey subbed for 4 months*

 "hi bae gia thank you!!!"

*jackdgrazer subbed for 1 month*

" PLEASE JACK YOU ACTUALLY JOINED"

*jackdgrazer says: i told you i'd get embarrassing pics of you!!*

"vinnie?"

"what's up?"

"how do you ban someone from your stream?"

*jackdgrazer says: STOP BULLYING ME YOU SHIT HEAD*

"im not a shit head"

*jackdgrazer says: yeah you are*

"vinnie if you dont tell me-"

*louispartridge says: i dont think you can*

"oh-"

after an hour of playing i decided to end for the day

 "okay guys im gonna end the stream here, i hope you enjoyed!"

as im ending the stream i see a comment

ava.mae: PLEASE LMFAO, stop trying to act like ur one of the boys

 "uhm ava, i dont know where you got that info but its so very wrong!"

"i game for myself and to find friends, sorry you still stick with emily"

i gave her a slight smile as the chat goes crazy

YES PERIODDDD

YES OMG YES

BESTIE IS GOING OFF

YES BITCH I LOVE YOU

okay guys im going now bye!!

lou😏 and y/n😮

y/n...

y/n?

hello?

are you ok?

i just wanted to talk...

what

oh

hi

are you ok?

yeah, just tired...

millie told me...

aboutt?

on how you feel ab me and ava...

louis, you can talk to her if you want

im not gonna keep you away from talking to other ppl

then why are you so rude to her?

bc she used me to get to you

but when i told her we were talking she got pissed

 and tried to use her own way 

 talk to her idc at this point.

so what about us?

idk what do you want us to be?

the thing is

i still wanna talk

i wanna do the things we do

flirt, then act like we're besties

facetime all night long

listen to each others problems

do you not want that?

i do..

its just ava

she makes me so insecure of myself and makes me feel not good enough ig?

but you are good enough

uhm, i gotta do something...

ill text you later :/

oh okay

fuck my life.

i put my phone down and cry for what seems like forever. does louis not understand? i love him, so much. its the amount of love that i'd put myself in front of him. where i would take his side in every argument. the way that i love him more than i love myself

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