Sometime it gets too painful doesn't it?

It gets too painful that you wish you can rip off your heart to be void of all those feelings,all those volcano of emotions.Yusuf smiled as he looked at himself in the mirror,no doubt he is looking exceptionally handsome today,it wasn't like he made an effort but today he was just looking fresh and vibrant.

Today is the first day of his morning class so he carried his legs with confidence and grace as he walked down "I can do this," He told himself as he reached the door,the house was so quite that even a light pin drop will be heard,his father came down too booming with confidence and grace as he eyed him.

"Good morning," Yusuf greeted smiling,his father's face turned pale at the sudden change of Yusuf's demeanor,Yusuf have always been so stern with his father,he doesn't at all smile around him.

"I heard that you started working,"

"Yes."

"Where?" And Yusuf told him.

"That small place,how much is your salary?" His father raised his eyebrow.

"The salary doesn't matter Baba,some people have the excess salary but still don't know how to use the money. I think it is about how the salary is being used and I trust myself, I know I will use my small salary in a good way." Yusuf finished and his father was again left dumbstruck.

"You have got nerves because you have started working," Yusuf let out a dry laugh "I am not surprised,am used to your cheap interpretations in every single freaking thing I do," Fire was blazing in his heart,he wanted to let it out on his father.

"Wow!" His father's voice boomed "Yusuf just don't forget that it takes just a phone call for me to snatch this job from you,maybe even every possible way for you to get work again." He threatened and Yusuf shuddered as his heart beat increases.

"It also was just going to take one minute for you to make a phone call and get a job for me but you didn't,you can snatch this job away from me but Allah is with me." Yusuf made his come back feeling stronger than he ever was.

"Don't forget that you have made a-lot of mistake and I still favored you Yusuf!"

"You have never favored me Baba,you have always turned a blind eye to my struggles to be the perfect son for you,but you still didn't love me."

"I am actually done with this discussion Baba," Yusuf rubbed his eyes "Just don't act like you have never made any mistake in your life.Don't forget!" Yusuf stormed out of the house then turned around with a smile.

"And yeah the salary is 40k."

His father let out a sigh as the driver opened his car for him "I want you to be happy Yusuf,I know I have gave you alot of pain," He let out a sigh "I know,but am not sorry,well maybe a little bit." He laughed dangerously.

Yusuf reached his office and slumped down on his sit looking at his wrist watch,he have 1 hour left and he is sure that students will start trooping in right away,before he could even get himself more ready for the class,students started trooping in and to his dismay most of them are girls,the guys are three.

10:00am ticked and he stood up as he walked to the front where the projector was kept "Good morning all,My name is Yusuf Abdul-aziz and I will be your tutor for the whole session,I hope you all will concentrate and participate well." He finished trying to make sure that he sounded confident,a series of good morning were passed which he answered with a smile.

"Today is the introduction so we are not going to do alot, I would like each and everyone of you to stand up and introduce their selves before our class starts," Yusuf explained as he put both his hands behind his back.

The door was pushed open aggressively as a girl with Abaya and a veil wrapped on her head boomed in "Sorry am late," She voiced to him.

"Ow,Zarah wait for me," He heard another voice and it seemed like the girl was running.A panting girl in long red hijab and black niqab came into his view "Sorry am late," She panted out and her voice was so sweet and calm,what is even irking him the most is that he finds the voice familiar "Can I come in?" She asked and a broad real smile caressed his cheek,the girl is well mannered and he like girls like her "Yes you can,but please try to come early from today," He explained and she nod her head "Okay sir,"

With her eyes casted down she went to an empty sit and sat down "So back to where we were," He clapped his hands "Let's start our introductions," He smiled.

"Good morning all,my name is Khadija Alkali and I am waiting for my university admission,so I thought why should I keep staying at home doing nothing? It is better if I come here for my diploma certificate." She lovingly smiled but her vibe is actually those annoying girls vibe.

Another girl stood up with a calm smile "Hello,I am Jamila," She sat down after that,in-fact she looked so shy when she stood up.

The other one who he made out her name to be Zahra stood up "My name is Zarah and I am a graduate," She said confidently and Yusuf smiled at her nodding his head as she sat down rolling her eyes a little.

The niqab girl stood up with her eyes cast down "M-My n-name is Yusrah," She was visibly shaking as she said out her name and sat down "Did you really have to stutter?" Zarah asked unbelievably and Yusrah just kept quite "Low self esteem,low confidence.God! You are a spoilt case." Zarah shook her head and Yusuf diverted the class attention to himself.

"So now since you have all introduced yourselves then I think we cam start our class," Yusuf smiled.

A knock was heard and Yusuf mouthed a come in without looking at the person "Good morning sir,forgive me for being late," He looked up and a smile caressed his lips "It is okay sit down,just don't come late again," The guy smiled and nodded his head,Yusuf instructed him to introduce himself.

"I am Bilal Muhammad Aliyu and just like all of you here,am also here for my certificate." He finished as he sat down smiling goofily.

"Okay so the first thing we need to discuss is the parts of a computer system,a computer will be nothing without its parts," Yusuf started and he have to admit that he really enjoyed the class because it was a very interactive class even though Khadija and Yusrah didn't say a word.

"So it is time for me to ask questions," He smiled "Yusrah," He called and her eyes shot up to him terrified,she reminds of him of himself "This question is for you," She nodded her head casting her eyes down "Who is the father of computer?"

"Um the father of computer is Charles Babbage." She answered and he smiled "Impressive." He turned to Khadija's direction "Khadija this question is yours," She nodded her head "What is this?" He touched a mouse.

"It is a mouse." She answered and he smile "Am sure all of you already know all the parts but it is the introduction part of our session."

"So we will meet tomorrow,all of you should come early because I won't tolerate late coming,"

"Yes sir," They chorus and smiled.

Taking this job is not at all a bad idea.

All the students kept trooping out one by one "Zarah,I think we can go now," He heard Yusrah's voice and turned to their direction,Zarah was busy playing game on the desktop "You can go,am not going without finish this stage," Zarah voice out annoyed.

Kabir walked inside smiling at Yusuf "Hey Yusuf how was your first class?" He asked and Yusuf shrugged "It was better than expec~"

"Kabir!" Zarah cut Yusuf off as she lounged in-front of Kabir "Zarah!" Kabir's surprised voice boomed.

Yusuf noticed the way Yusrah's face turned pale as she also lounged in front of Kabir standing beside Zarah.

"Uh Kabir please don't punish Zarah for my mistake,she truly love you so please take her back," Yusrah begged and Kabir rolled his eyes laughing humorlessly.

"You have got guts,Yusrah." Kabir growled and Yusrah's eyes filled with tears "Please don't punish her for what she didn't do," Yusrah's voice dripped with agony trying to blink back to tears that have already filled her eyes "You are the reason behind all this,you are the cause of all this," Zarah hissed angrily.

"Habibi,just let this girl be," She shook her head looking at Kabir,Yusrah looked numb as she looked at the floor.

"You dressed like one good muslimah,you put on a long hijab and even niqab.Like you fear God." Kabir eyed her "No one should enter between a loving soul and his lord." She mouthed in a mere whisper.

"Um you all should calm down please." Yusuf announced his presence "You two should go home," None of them protested,they all went out after saying a whisper like "Bye".

"Mind sharing?" Yusuf raised his eyebrow "Zarah is my ex wife,the one whom I divorced because my family compelled me to,Yusrah is her sister who got pregnant with an illegitimate child whose father is still unknown.She ruined their family's image and she is also the reason why everyone wants me to separate from Zarah." Now every single puzzle is being fixed.

"I understand your grief but don't you think you are being too harsh on her?"

"No,who told her to go and get pregnant?"

"Kabir,is it that you cannot see it or maybe you chose not to see it?"

"What?"

"The fact that she is also in pain,her eyes hold so much grief which maybe her mouth never voiced out,she is a human being who is bound to make mistake and als~"

"You are my friend so you should be supporting me," Kabir cut him off.

"I support the truth," Yusuf voiced out.

He can still remember how his father always blamed their mother for their arranged marriage.So he knows how the person being blamed for a thing feels,he knows the heartbreaks it come with,he knows how hard it is because he have also being blamed for something he didn't do.

"You don't even know her so why are you supporting her?" Kabir questioned.

Yusuf slightly chuckled as he let out a breath,feeling sadness and grief engulf him.The way he have being blamed for every single thing came to him feeling like his feeling are going to knock him out.

"Because she reminds me so much of myself."