Dear Namjoon,

I'm sorry, but I can't stay alive. I have nothing to live for, I have nothing that's worth living. So, next month, if I do not find a reason to live, I will go to that bridge we always looked at, and I will jump it.

Remember when we looked down at it and you'd always say "I think if I ever became the sea, I would be happy passing through life." And metaphorically or not, I want to become the sea too, maybe I'll find happiness. Ironically, next month is February, the shortest month of the year.

- jh