I look around the room confused and a little pissed cause my cheeks HURT!! There were creeps in robes and 4 exceedingly handsome men.... well pretty boys would be more accurate... I was having a panick attack internally...

'What the fuck. WHAT THE FUCK?! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS THIS HORSE SHIT!? I SHOULD BE FACING SOME SORT OF GOD RIGHT NOW! BE FINDING OUT WHICH RELIGION WAS TRUE AND THEN GOING TO WHEREVER I GO NEXT! NOT ON THE FLOOR NEXT TO THE FOUR GUYS FROM TATE NO YUUSHA!!!???'

'I've had enough. I can't take it anymore. I will do it this time. I will kill myself today. I'm sorry mom, auntie. I have failed you. I have failed myself. I can not endure. 'What was that prayer Jessica said in outlast 2?'

"Oh right." I sit kneeling before my window looking at the moon... It's beautiful tonight as well... I wonder what will come after? It's always puzzled me... "well then." I close my eyes and start to speak "Now the light has gone away. Savior please listen while I pray. Begging thee to watch and keep, and to send me quietly to sleep. Watchful savior wash away, all I've been wronged today. Please help me every day to be, gentle gentle more like thee..."

as I said these things I hoped that whoever heard would understand what I meant, for I could not utter it aloud. ask for you're forgiveness of my sins, for sinning is human nature and the past make use of me. If am a super weeb with an I love! Love is not a sin!"

I lay on my bed holding my katana over my heart, dressed up nicely with my favorite outfit.

(This with a choker cross...)

I plunge the sword into my heart directly with purpose. The pain is quick but barely there, I hate pain so I took a bottle of ibuprofen to numb it just incase it hurt... I found out through a failed attempt that a bottle of low dose ibuprofen and Dr. Pepper can't kill you. I also found out that apparently in the military it's taken like it's fucking candy. My last thought is the reaction my mom would have when she found me... sorry mom i would get in a fatal accident but the cars not home and I don't have a license.

Oh god.... I've got my isekai redux wish in the SHITTIEST game styled isekai EVER! I'm so gonna fuck everything up... LOOK OUT WORLD AND PREPARE TO GET FUCKED BY THE ISEKAI OBSESSED OTAKU!!!!! Or not.... we'll see!😗