why can't I let go

why am I sentenced to relive

the times we had together

our happy moments are a double edged sword

we built it together only for it to stab me for eternity

you've long ago let the sword go

And are seeing beauty in other things now

so why is my hand still glued to it

stabbing myself

Punishing myself

For all the laughs we shared

For all the quiet moments just you and I

I wanna let go

the sword

the punishment

the fear of the consequences of a shared laughter

it will happen again

my wounds are wide open

and it will happen again

good moments will punish me

they'll turn into double edged swords

the moment they leave

so many

so sharp

they'll kill me,

even if I escape this one

they'll kill me