"I'm thirsty" I stated harshly earning pain in my neck instantly making my anger grow. Any rebelling or fighting to get free would hurt me. This wasn't fair. I wanted- no needed the blood or I was going to lose it. That's all I could think about and he didn't care at all.

Isn't this what vampires do?

"You need to control yourself" he stated out calmly holding me with my back against his chest. Control? I was thirsty and I only had two bags of blood not two hundred.

"I will once I have some-" "No you will now. You're letting the blood control you. I'm not giving you another one" I growled rolling my eyes. I tried my hardest not to lose my temper because I knew he wasn't lying. He was stubborn.

I swallowed hard not responding as he leaned his head down and kissed my shoulder gently gripping me tighter. His lips moved up to my neck giving me goosebumps as I felt his light breath.

I closed my eyes biting my lips as I let my head drop.

Now I was fighting with two strong feelings.

"Just relax. Listen to my voice, breath in and out" he whispered.

I felt his breathing on my neck and it started to stir the heat in my lower region instantly taking a bit of the urge to drink away. I tried to listen to him as best as I could knowing I had no choice but to calm down. He wasn't going to let me go if I didn't fight it and calm down.

It was killing me though.

"I know it's hard but, you can do it. Focus on something else" I tried thinking about anything but, my mind kept slipping back to it. It was so good and my throat was starting to bothering me again. I wasn't sure how I was going to get through this.

I know he would be here to help but, how can you control the thirst. I feel like this was going to be hell.

"We can go downstairs with everyone else" he suggested and I nodded. Maybe it would help. I just needed something to stop this urge.

He let go of me and grabbed my hand bringing it up to his lips to kiss it as I stood there trying to keep myself together. I just needed to make myself busy. Maybe talking and being around others now like me will help.

They have all went through this, I'm sure they had some advice.

He gave me a reassuring smile and led me downstairs as I heard everyone downstairs talking but once we made it to the doors. there was silence.

I felt awkward seeing everyone watching us smiling. I felt more of an outsider than before weirdly. "Seems like she doing good" I looked up to see Sophie smiling at me and I couldn't help but return it even if it wasn't true.

I sure they heard us upstairs but, I appreciated the encouragement.

"The first months are hard but, it will get easier. You'll be fine. You have a full house of vampires here to support you" She continued and I nodded looking down taking a deep breath.

Cam squeezed my hand gently making me look up to him again. Calmness took over making me relax suddenly. Was this his emotions? Was he just calming me? Was it knowing that I had a support system helping? I wasn't sure but, I'll take it.

This was my new life.

*******

After a bit, everyone started talking again like nothing happen thankfully. I stayed quiet but, listened around occasionally laughing with them but, I mostly listened to Cam's voice, heartbeat and felt him. I sighed smiling as he kissed my head gently just because.

Everything finally felt like it was going to be okay till I heard two heartbeats further away.

I don't know how I caught onto them with all the talking and laughing around me but once I heard them, my mind stayed there. One heartbeat was strong and the other was a little quieter. I assumed maybe an adult and child walking. I swallowed hard trying to focus on the conversations going on but, it slowly started to overwhelm everything.

It came closer causing the heartbeats to be louder in my ear. I was hearing the blood pumping through their veins. And with that, the ache in my throat was back. I took a deep breath trying to calm myself down to think of how great it would be to not lose it. Think about how proud Cameron would be to see this.

Cam touched my hand and I looked at him instantly. He had a small smile and I smiled back trying to focus on him. Guess he knew I was struggling but, I could get through this. I just had to occupy my time and remind myself I was better than this.

"Relax"

I kept reminding myself that it was two innocent people going on a walk, their lives don't need to be taken. No lives needed to be taken and they won't if I control myself. It was kind of late to be walking though.

"Breath"

They could be coming from somewhere I guess but, where? Park? Store? Maybe just a nice stroll? I should go ask maybe it could go there sometime.

I was out the door instantly following the sound of their hearts.

"Carter No!" Cam yelled. I knew he was right behind me but, needed to calm down. I just wanted to know where they were coming from. I didn't stop to even explain it to him, I just continued going. He would understand once we go there. He would see that I could control myself.

The volume of the beat increased as I continued through the woods until it ended and they came in sight. I smiled at the sight too. It was a lady and a little boy walking. I was right. Only their heartbeats and I got it.

That instant knowing where they were coming from didn't matter.

I could hear the blood pulsing through the veins and the smell of it was mouthwatering. She would be first. Her head turned in my direction and her face went from confusion to fear instantly as the wind blew her red hair in my direction.

Before she could even react, I grabbed her and they both screamed in fear. I winced at the high pitched screams but went in for the attack. I was ripped off and slammed against a tree before I could sink my teeth in her. Cam, of course, was holding me there and I growled trying to get past him to her.

She was still screaming scared, he was crying in fear and I was quickly getting annoyed by it. Killing them would do us all a favor if he let me go but, of course every push against him earned me a sharp pain right in my neck filling me with feelings I couldn't even really describe. But, I knew it made me want to to be violent.

"Carter stop" he demanded but, I couldn't. I needed it. I needed them and I couldn't until I got that.

Sarah hurried over to them making eye contact and seconds later they were both quiet. I froze watching in shock. It was as if she just took the memory away. They just continued walking like nothing happen making a low growl leave my throat. Once again I was left here with my throat burning and nothing to satisfy it.

He grabbed my head forcing me to look at him and I pulled away wanting to go crazy but fearing the consequences from the mark.

He grabbed my head holding it and pushing me into the tree harder "Fight it. If you hurt them, you won't forgive yourself for taking two innocent lives" he yelled making me freeze.