I looked at Suga who smirked at me after he caught me looking at Normani who was stretching after we just finished our usual 12 hour of day practice.

At first I wasn't quite fond of the idea that we were having a eight member. I still was confused when Si-Hynk told us it was a girl, but when I found out it was normani, I couldn't help but like the idea.

Having to live and be around a girl that pretty for almost everyday, all day. How could I not enjoy that?

She was so sweet and humble it's ridiculous.

"What?" I ask snapping my head to Suga who was drinking his water. Before he removed the bottle from his lips he shook his head.

"Oh... Nothing. Nothing at all" he shrugged.

I rolled my eyes ignoring his smirking look and obviously stupid comment.

"Great practice everyone!", I clapped complimenting the seven members.

"So what's the move tonight?", She asked causing all of us to turn to her.

"Move?"

Jung-kook asked in confusion, as I realized everyone other then Normani and I understand the term.

"계획 (plan)", I explain to them in Korean.

They all "oohed" in understanding and shaking their head.

"Let's go all go out tonight. I want to go to the club" Jin says.

"Yes. Good plan.", J-hope says slapping hands with an excited Jin.

"So the club?" I asked looking around the room wanting to know if anyone didn't want to go.

V and Jimin stood shrugging meaning the really didn't care. Jung-kook and Suga nodded. J-hope and Jin were already dancing which mean they already were in the plan to go. I was down with anything.

Anytime they go away where I always tag along. The only one who was left was Normani.

I watched as she was on her phone, looking at her screen intensively as if something was wrong.

"Mani?" I asked causing her to look up and immediately lock her phone.

"Yeah" she responds voice soothing to my ears.

"You want to go out with us tonight?" I asked hoping, even praying she'd say yes.

"Yeah. I'm down" she responds, her phone vibrates causing her attention to towards back to her phone.

"So it's settled. We leave tonight at 8", I tell them all, walking over to the wall to gather my things.

The door opened quickly, and I felt like there was a quick pass by me. I turned to realize in the room it was the boys, and Normani was gone.

What was wrong with her. She seemed a bit off today.

I leaned against the wall trying to control every emotion I was feeling. I bit my lip nervously as my phone vibrated again.

So it begins. As much as there was a lot of love out in the world towards BTS. There also was a lot of hate.

I mean I was used to negative comments by haters since fifth harmony but I really thought this time would be different.

I haven't even been in this for three weeks and now I'm starting to get hate comments under my pictures. And the things they say are so harsh and hurtful.

I heard footsteps approach my room door. "Normani?" The voice asks before knocking.

"Yeah. You guys go on ahead without me." I say trying to sound as if I wasn't just crying.

"Are you sure? The boys and I could wait for you to get ready if you— I cut RM off, "no. It's fine. You guys have fun. I'll just be here resting", I say.

"Oh, okay" his voice was unsure as if he knew something was wrong but it wasn't his place to ask me.

Seconds later the footsteps walked away, allowing me to let out a breath.

My phone vibrated again. I picked up my phone, swiping across the screen which automatically put my screen to Twitter.

The picture of BTS & I.

The comments.

"she's black"

"why did they have to put this untalented bitch in the group? Out of all people. They really prefer a bitch who whispers"

"The only reason she got into the group is by shaking her ass like some whore"

"At this point so she's so overrated"

"look at her... Camila has everything normani wishes she has"

"Ew. kill yourself

"She's so ugly LMAO"

"I just don't see it? Where's the talent"

"This monkey in BTS. Thank u, next"

"She isn't going to make it in this industry. I mean who the hell would like her?"

I tossed my phone to the ground having enough of reading the comments. And those were the most nice ones, trust me there's more.

But all of this only meant one thing. I needed to work harder then I have ever did to prove that I belong in this group. That I deserve this.

At the same time it was like no matter what I do I will never be good enough for anyone. Since fifth harmony I out of all the girls had gotten the worst hate because of my skin color.

Now it's even worst because I'm completely different from all of the guys. They aren't anything other then Korean.

Meanwhile Normani was at the dorm sobbing her eyes out because of the negative comments on her position as the eight member in BTS.

The other seven members were out at the dance club in the VIP section with guards surrounding them as they dance to loud music.

NamJoon sat on the couch watching the four his of band members dance to the music. He couldn't keep Normani off of his mind. He knew something was off with her but decided not to get into it, respecting her.

"yo! So why didn't Normani come again?", Jimin shout to RM, but Suga and V also overheard.

RM shrugged unsure of the reason himself, he glanced over to Suga, and Taehyung who sat on the couch nodding their head to music.

While, Jin, J-hope and Jung-kook were going full out to the music. Those three had so much energy it was ridiculous.

"Probably that time of the month, right?", Suga asked shrugging.

Almost all at same time all of the members phone vibrated. RM looked around confusedly pulling out his phone looking at Jimin who also pulled his phone.

Jung-kook walked back to the couch sitting down breathing heavily just from dancing.

"What is this?" Suga asked his phone screen displaying the picture the group had taken together on the day of the "update" video.

Tae scrolled down to the comments to notice all of them had been tagged for some odd reason.

Jimin read the comments, and his eyes widen.

"What's going on?", Jung-kook asked also pulling out his phone to notice his other members were on the phone.

"Go to Instagram" Jimin told the younger member.

RM scrolled down to see comments that were everything but positive about their eighth member.

He breathed heavily, looking up to notice everyone else but Jin and J-hope was reading the comments.

"She's being cyber-bullied?" Tae frowns asking, looking up to RM.

"Is that why she didn't leave her room all day?" Jung-kook asks.

"It would also explain why she didn't want to come tonight." Suga said.

"she knew we'd probably ask her what was bothering her so she didn't come" Jimin adds.

RM stands up putting his phone in his back pocket, "let's go" he says demanding all of them.

As Jin and J-hope laughed stumbling over to the VIP section where the rest of there band mates were.

Jin looked around confusedly, "what's going on? Please don't tell me we're leaving already.", he says frowning.

"Yeah man. We just caught here" J-hope seconds Jin's statement. The two were unaware of anything that was going on.

"It's normani" Jimin says standing up next to RM.

The two looked puzzled still unsure of what that meant. "Just check your phone. Let's go. We are going home", RM who seemed to be the only one upset about all of this said before walking away from the couch.

I sat on the couch watching television eating noodles. This was how I was spending my Friday night. While the boys were out partying, I was sobbing on the couch, eating noddle and watching a Korean drama that didn't even have English subtitles.

I sighed softly, as my phone vibrated again for the a millionth time.

I didn't know how to feel. It felt like 2016 all over again.

The actress began to cry dramatically on the show. "Same, Girl. Same" I say before stuffing my mouth with another fork full of noodles.

I placed the bowl on noddles down feeling full, I lifted the hoodie on my jacket and placed it over my head.

My phone buzzed again.

At this point, I wanted to toss my phone out the window so I wouldn't hear it buzz.

I turn up the volume on the television so I wouldn't hear it buzz. The more and more I think about it the more and more I began to cry.

"Ugh. Get a grip off yourself, Normani. You are THAT bitch." I mentally tell myself shaking to ignore that thought in my head telling me to give up on this group.

On BTS.

I breathed heavily. I couldn't take it anymore, I turned off the television, turning my phone completely off.

There is was. silence. The silence I needed.

I could hear my own heart beating.

I inhaled and exhaled deeply before breaking down all over again. I covered my mouth to muffle my cries.

Tears fell from my cheeks once again. I breathed heavily, suddenly I hear the door open.

I quickly stopped crying, hearing footsteps enter the house. I knew it was the guys. I wiped my tears quickly but not quick enough.

Before I even realized it one of them had walked into the living room.

I turned to see RM.

I swallowed hard, breathing heavily looking around, was he alone? My question was answered when Jung-kook and Tae walked out from behind him.

"hey... w-what are you guys doing here. Did you guys have fun?", I asked removing my hoodie, and forcing a smile.

RM stood there unsure how to approach me, I think they all did. They knew. They had too.

"A-are you okay?" Tae asked in the most softest voice ever. I wanted to cry all over again.

"Yeah. Why wouldn't I be" I say getting up the couch grabbing the bowl of unfinished noddles, walking towards the kitchen with them following me.

"Normani", Suga calls out my name as they all noticed my attitude was different.

"Oh, I was wondering when's the next time we perform?" I asked trying to make conversation. I didn't want to talk about anything I knew they wanted me to talk about.

"It's okay. we know" Jung-kook says softly.

This is exactly what I didn't want happening. Now they were treating as if I was some body or some little girl.

"know? You mean the day we're performing?" I asked still in denial, I was literally on the edge of breaking down any minute by now.

I walked into the kitchen about to play the bowl of noodles down when I was interrupted.

"Normani" NamJoon's voice frighten me causing me to drop the bowl on noddles. The wet noddles along with the glass bowl fell to the ground causing the bowl to shatter to the ground.

Within seconds, I had began to break down.

"I'm sorry. I-I'll clean it up" I say dropping my head to hide the tears that fell from my face.

I looked like an emotional wreck and I was. I hated crying in front of people.

"Don't" NamJoon's says approaching me as I realized I was barefoot and everyone else had shoes on.

"Jin and I will clean it up" J-hope says smiling softly trying to make me stop crying.

RM had reached behind and underneath me lifting me up so I wouldn't step on glass. He carried me out of the kitchen, putting down in the living room.

I created distance between him and I. I looked up at him wiping my tears.

"I don't normally do this. I don't cry in front of people" I let him know.

He sighed before responding, "the thing is Normani we aren't just people. We are your group members, meaning it's okay if you have to cry. We will always be around for you to lean on us when you need to. Do you don't need to hide anything from any of us" he tells me.

I nod unsure what to say.

"I mean it. If there's anything ever bothering you just let one of us know, and we will help you okay?" He asked.

"Thank you", I say.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked me.

"I really just want to go to bed right now", I say feeling embarrassed that any of this even happened.

"Okay. See you tomorrow", he nods understandably.

I nod walking past him. I knew I had to explain to boys why I was like this, I just didn't want to do it tonight.