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I looked at the mirror in front of me. I didn't even changed a bit. It's still me. The scared and weak Jieun. The girl who kept trying not to fall down. The girl who's trying so hard to be loved by her parents even though there's no chance.

My life is really a mess...

I whispered and smiled at myself

The door opened and I saw Mom smiling at me. She entered and closed the door. I looked at the mirror as she sat beside me.

Mom asked as she brushed my hair again

I nodded and faked a smile

she asked and continued to brush my hair

she whispered and suddenly pulled my hair

she whispered while holding tight to my hair

Mom whispered

she asked and let go of my hair, she kissed my cheeks and quickly left my room

My tears started falling as soon as the door closed.

How about me? Does she even love me? Did they even tried loving me and making me feel that I am not born for money? I also want to be loved not be used for their money.

They just want me gone...

Yoonah calling...

Jieun? Your brother asked me to call you. Did something happened? Are you okay?

I covered my mouth trying not let her hear me crying.

Jieun, please tell me if something happened. I will go there. Do you want to go out? I'll be in there in 10 minutes

I quickly ended the call

I am already crying but damn if someone tried asking if I am okay or someone cares for me. I will cry even more. That's what I hate, I always cry even more when my brother or Yoonah tried comforting me.

I lied down on my bed but the tears still falling...

I whispered to myself and tried to caress my cheeks to calm myself

I think I am not fine. I am so tired of everything...

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I entered our classroom and saw everyone there but Jieun isn't there. I sat. I want to ask Yoonah but I am worried she might think I cared for Jieun.

Yoonah asked

Jaemin nodded his head

Yoonah said

Winwin asked Yoonah

Yoonah sighed and kept typing on her phone

Jaemin asked

Yoonah

our class president shouted as he went to the front

The door suddenly opened, Jieun entered while she's looking down. Her face is covered using her hair. She went straight to her seat but before she passed by. I saw her eyes. She cried. She finally sat beside Yoonah.

Yoonah asked

Jieun answered

"You are going to be fine, Jieun. Just act like you are fine. Smile. Act normal. You can't let them get worried about you. You can do this Jieun" (Jieun's mind)

Yoonah asked

our class president announced and wrote something on the board

Jieun said

our president said

I raised my hand

our class president said and was about to go but I quickly stood up

president

Shit.

I nodded