Crawling back

People I used to call friends crawling back

To me

Hoping for a second chance

Even after the pain they put me through

Do I allow them to hurt me again?

Do I push them away?

Do I forget it all?

I can't help but feel hopeless

They'll spread rumors I'm sure

Make me seem like I'm not worth much anymore

Once hurt a thousand times

Trusting comes harder for me

I've been damaged and ruined

I'll never be the same

Others will call me selfish and unkind

If I don't allow them in my life again

But if I do

I'm allowing them to be selfish and unkind to me

I've gone through a lot of things

But none of them have taken this much

This much energy and time

Completely and utterly wasted

It's too late to restart

The friendship train has passed

It won't pass by again

I'm alone

It's sad

However I'd rather be without friends

Than with fake friends

I can't remember

The last time I had a real one

Years and years

Of once meaningful times

Turned into useless conversations

With former friends

Life's not as simple as it was

It's definitely worse

Maybe someday a true one will come by

One that I don't have to worry about

Hurting me