My mind says I'm not enough

I'm still growing up and broken

It feels like the way the narcs have

Got into my head with their voices

My mind tricks me into thinking I'm

Wounded, I'm weak, I'm bad I don't

Deserve love, I should be tough and

Be selfless while killing my soul

I thought addressing would help

But lending a finger, it held my throat

Drowning me into darkness, keeping

Me in lies you weaved as a spider

Keeping me away from people I care

And who love me no matter what

What a punishment you gave me just

Because it always was in the past?

I thought we were partners, mind?

I know we need a focus and discipline

I forgive you, nevertheless you're me

And I'll never let you fall into the pit

Had a conversation with Divine

He says I need to free myself from the

Illusion of the past, that it gives me

Lessons, no I won't deprive again

Thought it was seasonal depression

Or transformation and purging

But with that it also was a lesson of

Taming the mind, keep it a servant

Your grateful author,

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