you kiss me,

and tell me,

everything's gonna be alright,

and i move into your home,

and leave my apartment behind,

because you said,

i'm much better off,

with the only person who loves me,

but i still think about her,

my big sister,

who loved me like no other,

and sent me letters,

even when she would never get better,

and i still don't understand,

what she meant when,

i had to escape,

from what,

from who?