A/N: I gave the MC's name here. This is actually a fanfic for Baekhyun of EXO. (Yes. If you've seen this already, I'm GullinLuv you can read my fanfics there about exo. But I decided to be inactive lolololol) I wrote this when I was 14 and I'm 16 now. so my writing style is different here. (And it makes me cringe haha) I noticed that this story fits our lovely Zen.. So I hope you'll like it! ^^

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Dear My Lovely Hyun,

I remember the first time I talked to you.. We were classmates, but I was extremely shy to even sit beside or look at you.

But then our silly classmates pushed me to you. I don't know what to do. I was in panic and can't think properly. But you know what you did? You smiled. I freaking fell for you more that time. Your smile gave me hope that I have a chance with you.

I said "H-hey.." It was so freaaaaaaaking awkward and embarrassing. But you smiled and said "Hey." I don't know what you thought but I was literally frozen that time. "Hello?" You said and that snapped me. I suddenly gave you the cookies and ran without saying anything again.

I was weird back then, right? Haha

Oh! Oh! I forgot to say how I first saw you! I saw you on the music room and you were singing while playing the piano. You look like a shining angel back there. I mean, because you're wearing white and is facing the sun.

My heart pumped faster without doing anything tiring.

I even asked my mom and dad on why did I felt that. I was sick worried if I have a heart problem. Wait, don't judge me! I was too innocent that time!

Hehe XD

So yeah, I talked to you first.. And our classmates are always teasing us and you'll be like, wrap your arms around my shoulders and say "Guys, don't tease her like that. She's getting shy."

But to be honest, you're making it worse -,-

And then we became close friends.. I'm not that awkward to talk to and I knew things about you. You always give me those warm smiles.

I was contented at what we have that time. As long as I can see your smile and be with you.

But, you suddenly gave me a letter saying "meet me at the rooftop"

I don't freaking know why but I went there. I was thinking you'd do a prank on me but I was surprised when I saw you smiling and holding a guitar.

Remember it? When you sang "Moment of Truth" by FMstatic?

It became my favorite song keke

So yeah. I was surprised when you sang it. I feel so flattered that time. My face feels so hot.

And I was more surprised because after you sang it, you held my hand and said

"I never knew how and why I felt this. But all I know is that, I fell in love with you. You make my heart race, I always think about you before I sleep, I know this is so corny but, I hope you realized that I'm confessing to you. So... What I'm saying is that.. I love you already."

I seriously can't explain how happy I am that time. It feels like my heart can explode anytime.

All I know is that I answered "I love you, too." And you suddenly hugged me and I fell asleep while you were hugging me haha

Well.. I said I love you too.. But you need to ask my parents first.

So, I introduced you to my parents. I was holding my laugh back because you look so funny when you're nervous. You were biting your nails! Haha

My parents are not that strict so they allowed us! Yay! Remember that? You suddenly got super close with mom! Haha (because you both like face products) Honestly, my father thought you were gay and that you're just my bestfriend! Haha

So yeah.. We started dating.. My favorite was when we went to a mall and we took so many pictures of us! Haha look at our photobook, I developed all of our pictures. And my necklace, I have your picture there! Keke Cause I got addicted to your smile.

I just feel so happy that time. I can always see your lovely smile plus your cute eyesmile! Haha :))

And remember when you guys made me join a singing contest? I almost quit it! I was so nervous when I got on the stage but.. I saw you, smiling so widely. You gave me thumbs up. I don't know.. I suddenly had the courage to sing. Thanks to you. (^_^)V

And my most unforgettable moment was when our school had a grand ball. I didn't want to go, 'cause you know, I don't like wearing fancy dresses and heels.

But you said it to my parents so I have no choice but to attend it.

I remember when we were dancing.. You suddenly dragged me to somewhere.

P.S. YOU LOOKED SO HANDSOME. YOU'RE ALWAYS HANDSOME BUT YOU LOOKED HANDSOME HANDSOME.

I was so surprised when you dragged me to the school garden and I saw many colorful lights.

A guitar suddenly played and you offered me your hand and of course, I accepted it.

We started dancing and I said "What is this?!" But you just sang "Put Your Head on my Shoulders" by Micheal Bublè

Honestly, that song was so corny for me but I can't deny that fact that I felt butterflies on my stomach.

You stopped singing and you said "I'm soooooo inlove with you right now. I don't know why, but I fall for you more and more. What are you doing to me? Haha I want to marry you. I'm dead serious. I want to be with you for the rest of my life. I want to have a family with you, grow old with you. I'm just saying you these cause.. I don't want to lose you. You'll never leave me, right?"

My tears fell that time. I was so happy at the same time, sad.

You wiped my tears and you suddenly sang "I'm here to wipe your eyes" that made me chuckle.

You held my face and said "I love you" you're looking straight to my eyes and I can see that you really mean it. I replied "I love you too." And you slowly near your lips to mine. I just closed my eyes. And for the first time I felt your soft lips with mine. It was so magical. I just feel so happy back there. I can't explain how I love you into words. But all I know is that, I don't want to lose you too.

You said you'd want me to meet your parents and I didn't agree. It was the first time that we fought. I didn't want to tell you why I don't want to. Cause you know, I don't want you to worry about me.

We didn't talked for like an hour but you came to me and said "Sorry. I should have asked you why." I hugged you that time and again, my tears fell.

I apologized too but I decided not to tell you the truth.

I slowly feel myself being weaker and weaker. But I didn't told you. My parents knew but I told them not to tell you. I really don't want you to worry about me.

And there was this time that I decided to break up with you. I really don't want to tell you about my sickness. It freaking hurts, but I think this is better.

You were mad at me. I saw you cry and it breaks my heart. Especially when you asked me "You don't love me anymore?! Tell me!! Tell me why!? Why?!" I wanted to tell you "No! I love you! That's why I'm doing this!" But all I did was nod and ran.

It was so hard for me but I need to do it. I'm sorry.

I got worse and we need to go to America. And I started not to go to school.. You always go to our house but I never answered or looked at you. Until maybe, you got tired and stopped.

My parents decided that we should really go to America. I wanted to tell you. To say one last goodbye but.. I decided not to. It would just break my heart more.

But...

I heard you call me at the airport. You're shouting my name like an idiot. It freaking breaks my heart. I can feel my tears falling but I tried to stop it. Until I felt you held my shoulders.

"Why didn't you tell me?" You said and all I can do is cry. You hugged me from behind.

"Don't leave me behind. Don't." You told me and it made me cry even more.

"I'll help you get away with that sickness! I'll take care of you! I told you, I don't want to lose you! I don't know what will I do if you leave me.. Please.. Don't do it again. We'll fight your cancer together.." I looked at you and you were smiling while some tears are falling down on your cheeks.

I hugged you so tight and all I could say is "Sorry."

I forgot something important. That your smile gives me hope.

My cancer got worse and worst but you stayed by my side. You were smiling. I never saw you frown or cry. You sing beside me. I'll miss you. I'll miss this! How I wish I can escape this!

You were smiling while you were holding my hand. I feel so happy that your smile was the last thing I saw before I left.

I love you, Hyun. Please forgive me. I can't be with you forever. Just remember that, I love you very much. I know you'll see someone that deserves your love more. Someone that can spend the rest of their lives with you. So please.. Keep that precious smile. I don't like seeing you cry. It breaks my heart. So please. Smile for me. I love you veeeeeery much! I love you, goodbye.

LOVE,

Smiley.

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I was crying like an Idiot while I read her letter. I can see the stains of her tears and her writings are crooked. She kept on writing even though she was dying. Life is so unfair!! Why does she need to die?!

Why do you need to die?!

But as she said. I won't cry forever. I tried to smile for her but my tears can't stop from falling.

I wiped my tears and wore her necklace. I added her photo there.

"I know you're at a good place and happy wherever you are right now. I love you too, Smiley. Goodbye." And I smiled at her picture.

"I promise, I will keep smiling for you..."