"Silvi baby wake up." I shook her lightly and smiled waiting to see her eyes again. "come onnnn baby wake up I ordered your favorite....waffles with honey"

Silvi shot up at that comment. She always had quirks to make me smile.

" I heard waffles" She cheesed looking around the rom.

" Ahhh but first you gotta win the game"

"what game, gimme waffles fucker"

"If you can guess what I'm going to do next correctly 3 times you win. If you lose, you'll see" I smirked at her reaction. This girl really loves food. But she's too cute to care about it.

I wrapped a silk blindfold around her eyes. She smiled. "Oh.... I see"

I couldn't help but laugh at that.

"That wasnt intended gus, I'm just cool like that"

Dumbass I swear. " Okay first guess"

"You're gonna kiss me on the neck"

I smirked deciding whether I want to do it and let her win, or play with her. But how could I resist her sexy little body. So i began kissing her on the neck lightly. And led into hickeys.

"Okay baby okay, I love when you mark me up but dont get carried away. we're still playing!"

She was wrong, I could'nt resist her. I unwrapped her blinfold and laid her onto her back. I began kissing her body all the way down.

I kissed on her ribs " here" and then i kissed her belly "or here"

she said here as I reached her stomach

"Here" I kissed on her panty line. "or here" I kissed on her thigh

She giggled and said "mmm take em off baby"

I liked that she always knew what she wanted. I bit on her panties and pulled them down her legs. I began to go down on her, but she pushed my head and I looked up at her.

"uh uh babyboy, its my turn" We switched places and she went down on me. I'm never leaving this girl.

The waffles and honey were long gone. and our morning had started off on the right foot.

"Baby, What's going to happen now that you missed tour?" she ran her little fingers through my hair.

"I dont care, my phone is off and the only thing I'm tryna tour is your body babygirl"

She bit her lip and looked at me. Bringing her closer to me I just enjoyed our moment together.

"Silvi, Let's go get married today. I don't ever wanna lose you. And I dont want to wait any longer for you" I was serious. this girl became my entire world. I gave up everything to be with her. And I just want her to see im serious.

"Lets do it" she stood up and waved me on " Well what are you waiting for? Get dressed, we'll go to the courthouse today and maybe later we'll have a party?" she paused and grabbed me by the hand

"And baby it's time to go home. You're not quitting music and everything, but you can take a break if that's what you want. But promise me..." She paused and looked down at our feet. Looking back up at me she finally said it "Promise me baby, that no matter what we're going to do this together. "

"I promise baby. I promise I'll always Love you"

"I'll always love you too"

But she should hate me like everyone else...It would have been easier for me to accept then myself. What I was doing.

i carried Silvi inside of the house. She passed out on the way back home. I loved her sleeping, she was so peaceful and pretty.

Iwoke up inside of our house.butthats just what i felt.

"gus?'' I went up the stairs "Gus baby where are you?" I stopped at his office. i opened the door and peered inside. And i froze. There he was on the floor passed out. And on his desk... more then just the white powder I dreaded. I shook him awake, or so I thought. He widened his eyes shocked I had found him this way.

"Baby it's not what it looks like"

"OH REALLY? YOU'RE NOT GETTING HIGH RIGHT NOW?"

i fell to the floor and sobbed. Why couldn't he just tell me? Why couldn't he just let me do it too. I just wanted to protect him.

"Look at you gus. I thought you were dead!"

"Silvi, ... I... please dont be mad at me please"

"Gus how hard is it not to lie to your WIFE!" I paused. "I just want to make sure you're alright, just..." I took a deep breath and looked away "Gus just let me do it with you, so I know it's not bad, so I know I won't lose you. You promised me, and I promiesed YOU, we'd get through things together"

Gus grabbed me into his arms. "Silvi No"

"what?" I began crying louder "NO? What am I supposed to do sit here and watch you die day by day?"

"I'M NOT LETTING YOU RUIN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE OF MY DRUGS SILVER!"

It had been so long since he used my name. Since he yelled at me.

I began hitting him in the chest. he just took it. But i wouldn't stop and he grabbed my arms. hard... Angrily.

"Fucking stop silver. Youre acting stupid right now. I love you but fucking christ bro. Can't you see? I'm dragging you down with me and I hate it"

"Let go of me" he let go and I stood leaving the room. I started my car and checked how much money I had in my purse. Gus came running into the garage. I locked the doors and he began banging on the window.

"NO SILVI DONT FUCKING LEAVE ME BABY. PLEASE IM SORRY. NO BABY. COME ON TALK TO ME. please"

I looked at him, but I couldn't do it.

"im sorry gus. I need time"

Glass flew all over.

"Gus what the fuck" I was truly terrified. He'd never done this.

Gus unlocked the door and yanked my keys out the ignition. He grabbed me hard, and dragged me. I was scratching at him.

"STOP GUS! LET GO!"

"NO silvi. I told you I love you and you aint fucking leaving." He threw me into our guest bedroom and slammed the door behind him. I crawled away to the end of the room and balled up crying. He stood there, this was someone i did not know. This wasn't gus..

"Get awa from me" I pleaded. "just go, I dont know you anymore"

"Im not leaving." Then he fell to his knees and cried. "I get it okay, Im a fuck up, Im nothing silvi. And i hate it because I hurt you and i wasnt thinking and Im going to lose you. But i just want you to know, I love you and i cwant do dis aneeemoh"

"Gus?" i ran up to his slurring self He was slowly going unconscious.

"No baby please. No, what did you do. WHAT DID YOU DO FUCKKKK?"

he began to breath slowly and heavy and he smiled looking mein the eyes.

"I love you SIlver, My wife. I',m sorry" and his eyes closed he went limp.

I frantically dialed 911 and screamed. I was losing him. All this and i was losing him. I rocked him in my arms waiting for the ambulance to save him.

"gus please dont leave me. If you die...I wont live. please"