I sit up not knowing where I am for a moment and then I remember and smile. I had a wonderful night with Kookie. I turn to my side and the space where he laid is now empty and cold. I roll onto my back placing my open palm on my chest, as fear surges through me. I am completely naked and pull my cover up, tucking them under my chin. Suddenly, terror invades me. Where is he? Was this all real? Did I dream it? Of course not!

I toss the covers back with an urgency, jump out of bed, grab my backpack and quickly slip into a tee shirt and sleeping pants.

Barefooted I move fast through the grand suite to the other side where his bedroom is. I will jump in his bed and surprise him. That's where he is. He would not leave me alone after such a lovely night, where promises were made. Did he not want to sleep with me all night? Did he really mean what he said or was it just sex for him? Oh God, he is not here. His bed has not been slept in and I do not find him in the other rooms. I feel a panic run through me as my shoulders and spirit drops simultaneously.

I crawl back into my bed like an injured animal and start to sob. What the fuck is happening to me? I am not like this. I don't fall apart. I don't like this feeling of dependency. He cares, and I know he does. I need him and I hate it. I've never wanted to be with a man as much as I want to be with Kookie. Why would he leave me? If Jealous Tae was not bad enough now Needy Tae has shown up. I hate this bitch more than I hate Jealous Tae. Kookie what the fuck are you doing to me!

I huddle around my pillow and pull my covers over my head. As I softly sob my eyes get heavy and I drift off.

I feel movement on my bed and still myself.

"Baby, are you awake?" I hear Kookie's sweet voice as I wipe my eyes and I swear I hear heavenly music and birds chirping. Needy Tae is doing flips on a damn trampoline. The covers slowly pull away as I feel Kookie's gentle hand on my back. It is warm and I just want to lean into it. His touch is magnetic. The strong, confident, independent part of me that I love is confused as Needy Tae has a silly grin.

"Tae are you okay?" He says gently rubbing my back. His touch is comforting and loving as I quickly realized that I have been a fool. He is here and has not left me. Needy Tae lowers his head shamefully, as I send him to the corner opposite of Jealous Tae who is sleeping after his busy night.

"Tae? Can you turn towards me?" He gently moves my shoulder back as I turn to him.

"Oh my God, Tae. What's wrong? Why are you crying? Did I hurt you? Please be okay." He's surprised and his voice is caring. I sit up fast, and grab hold of him firmly pressing my head into his shoulder.

"Oh Kookie! I-I was scared when I w-woke up alone," I stammer.

"Scared? Baby, I went down to the workout room to exercise. I spoke with chef, and he is preparing us a wonderful breakfast. Tae, I'm sorry. I-I didn't tell you because I wanted to let you rest. We had a very long day and night." He smiles softly and starts to place sweet kisses on my head.

"Kookie I'm sorry. I-I'm a mess and this is not me." I squeeze him tighter as he comforts me so sweetly.

"Tae it's okay. I'm here. I will never leave without letting you know again. It is my intention to always keep you close." I feel a powerful inner glow hearing his words as I absorb into his embrace.

"Kookie was it true, what you said last night?" Immediately he pulls back and searches my eyes. His eyes are frightened, and I do not like that look on him.

"Tae! Of course, it was. Please tell me it was real for you." I hear a tremble in his voice.

"Yes, Kookie I want to be with you forever. I-I just felt scared because..." I lower my head and look away.

"Tae, I get it. Remember this is insanity. Right?" He lifts my chin and I see his big, beautiful bunny smile and bright eyes. My chest fills with warmth.

"Right Kookie it's insanity. Twenty-four hours of insanity. Teehee."

"Yes baby, twenty-four hours of insanity. But our insanity." He chuckles and suddenly all my fears and uncertainty are gone as Needy Tae is asleep in his corner. I now understand what this is about.

"Kookie, I kind of have a history of men leaving me." I bring a hand to my mouth as this revelation appears to me.

"Tae, that history ended last night when I told you that I intend on being with you forever." He pulls back and kisses each of my eyelids so tenderly.

"Teehee."

"Kookie what happens when we leave? Our careers? I-I don't want to be without you either. What will we do?" I feel Needy Tae starting to rise from his corner chair just a bit and I shout, 'sit your ass down,' in my head. He quickly complies.

"Tae, we will figure it out together. But not today. It's Christmas Eve and we will be together and run free and have fun." He chuckles and I smile big and bright.

"Teehee! Yes, Kookie we will have fun."

He pushes me make back on the bed and passionately kisses me.

"You are so hot Tae. I need a shower and I'd like my boyfriend to join me.

"Teehee. That's right Kookie we are boyfriends. Right?"

"Tae, I didn't officially ask you. Will you be my boyfriend?"

"Yes Kookie! I will be your boyfriend!" I jump to my knees and clap like a trained seal. He completely serviced me last night in bed. Now it's time for him to meet Sexy Kitten Tae. I like Sexy Kitten Tae.

We enter the shower and I immediately take charge. I know remarkable things about the human body from my training but mostly thinks others around the world have shared with me. I grab a very special handmade body shower gel given to me by a woman in Philippines. I rub just a little into his skin to awaken his senses. It's not as potent as the sweet oil but perfect for early morning shower sex. I give him a sensual massage that relaxes him but does not make him weak. His body is on fire, and he is begging for his release well before I drop to my knees and wrap my full lips around his throbbing dick. He stops me before he comes. He lifts me effortlessly and powers into me hard, and so hot. He comes screaming my name as I do the same. This is only a drop in the bucket of what we will do in the future. I really like Sexy Kitten Tae. It has been a very long-time since he has come out to play.

After we shower and dress our personal chef appears with a waiter who is carrying what the chef calls a breakfast board. It is the most delightful presentation of an American breakfast. Over breakfast we laugh and talk about our evening. I again apologize for not telling him about Troy. He can now see the humor in my situation. He tells me, had the situation been reversed he would have killed Troy and fed him to a polar bear.

"Hahaha! Kookie you are outrageous."

"Baby, I'm just sharing my truth. Nobody messes with my Tae or face the consequences. Like that asshole last night. I swear Tae, if I see him again..." He grits his teeth and tightens his fist.

"No Kookie, please don't. Anyway, we will never see his ass again. Oh, I didn't tell you it was his birthday yesterday." I can't help but feel a bit bad for Taylor and then Kookie burst into laughter.

"Bahahaha!" He bends over and slaps his knee in hysterics.

"Kookie!"

"Tae, he got what he deserved. He also got off easy touching you inappropriately like that."

"Kookie, no more violence, okay." He reluctantly smiles and nods.

"Tae I was thinking if we should talk to the owner about Troy. I am concern with the privacy violation."

"Kookie, it was inappropriate, yet I feel a bit guilty for my role of leading him on. Can we wait, and see?"

"Sure, Tae. Anyway, our next few days are about us. Getting to know each other better, having fun and a lot of sex."

"Teehee."

Our day is just perfect. We have an exciting and enjoyable time at the ornament making class. I can't wait to hang our masterpieces on our Christmas Tree. Kookie is hilarious as he gets glue and glitter everywhere. He reminds of a child at play, and I love it. I continue to find more reasons to care about this man. He is so much fun and so free. We have lunch at an authentic Alaskan restaurant and sample the local cuisine.

We return to the lodge laughing as we talk about our Snowmobile ride and a very impromptu snowball fight that started a snowball appeared out of nowhere hitting me in the back of my head with no one around me except Tae who claims he had no idea who or where it came from. However, he had a very suspicious smirk. Although he denied it, I am certain he was the culprit. However, I learnt that he was surprising skilled at throwing snowballs. It has been a long-time since I've experienced a fraction of the joy, I had with Tae today. I was blessed with his laugh and smile all day. Yes, I have been fortunate.

As we return to the lodge, we see Taylor walking across the lobby. I had no idea he worked here. He stops immediately in his tracks as I see the left side of his face has bruising from Kookie's right hook. He looks at us and quickly picks up his pace moving away as fast as he can without the appearance of running. Kookie just nods his head in disgust and continues to walk.

As we get closer to the front desk, we see an old friend. Troy. Although he had inappropriate designs on Kookie he was under the impression I told Kookie he had an interest. It was definitely no crime to desire Kookie, but I can't help but feel his tracing us through the keycard chip was inappropriate and over the top. It was a terrible violation of privacy, and I am certain it will result in immediate termination of his position at the lodge if we report him.

He looks up and smiles professionally. "Good afternoon Mr. Kim and Mr. Jeon." I feel Kookie's arm slide around my waist as we walk past. He clearly wants Troy to know that we are in fact, a couple. "Please enjoy your day at the Snowy Mountain lodge." If he were awkward, I could not tell. Kookie nods and I just look at him blankly not sure how to feel. Jealous Tae rises his head and just rolls his eyes knowing he is no longer a threat.

We are quiet as our elevator advances upward. I hear a ding sound and Kookie removes his phone from his pocket. He is in deep thought as he looks at his phone. I have not seen his phone since he was on the plane. I do not interrupt him

We walk into the suite as he continues looking at his phone. He nervously runs his finger through his hair, and I can tell that something is concerning him. I wait until he put his phone on the table and leans back into the sofa.

"Everything ok Kookie?" I probe.

"Yeah, it's just an email from the businessman I was meeting with. He's been trying to contact me to confirm our appointment in LA the day after Christmas. I-I'm not sure what to do."

"Kookie, do you want to go forward with the deal?"

"Tae, I don't know. It just doesn't feel right. I need to think about it. But not today. What do you think I should do Tae?"

What, he wants my opinion? I bite my lip and think what I would do and share.

"Well, Kookie when I am unsure of a decision, I pause, give myself time to think and later react. This is what works for me. We don't know if we'll be back by then. Tell him the truth. You had a travel issue and will call to reschedule, soon."

He then goes silent and types a message.

"Thanks Tae, that was perfect." He puts his phone on the table and gives me a passionate kiss.

I run to our tree to hang our ornaments. They are so lovey. I stand and smile as I feel Kookie's arm move around my waist. He pulls me over to him and I place my head on his shoulder.

"It's beautiful Tae."

"Yes, Kookie it is." My phone then ring and look at the screen and immediately smile. It is Yea.

"Kookie, it's Yea!" Kookie Quickly moves next to me and eagerly waits to hear the call as I put it on speaker.

"Hi Yea! I'm here with Kookie. I uh, mean Jungkook. How is Song?"

She laughs. "No need to explain. I'm happy you are getting to know each other. Song is doing wonderful. He's regaining his strength and will be ready to travel on to LA in a few days."

"That's great news Yea," Kookie shares. "Sounds like we might all be traveling back to LA together in a few days."

"Jungkook, Song and I will be seeing you soon. I know Song is eager to thank you both." Her voice is cheery and upbeat. I miss her and smile as I think of how we all laughed during a most grim time.

"Oh Yea, have you seen it. Us all being together again." She goes quiet for an awkward moment. I did not think that this might be uncomfortable for her. Me asking about her visions. However, I still want to know.

"Yes, Tae I have seen it." She chuckles a bit. She starts to end the call before I can probe further. "I just wanted to give you an update and wish you both a very Merry Christmas."

We both say goodbye as the call ends. I will always be grateful for Yea. Without her help I would never have met this wonderful man that I will being spending Christmas with tomorrow.

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