I decide to text Rose and tell her it was me and that it was just by mistake. Nah, I'll call her I miss her.

"Heyyy how are you??" She spoke within two times of ringing. I was excited to talk to her. I didn't realize how much I missed her until I heard her voice," Heyy babe, I miss you!"

"I'm so glad you called Lisa. Guess who I ran into"

Jimin Sunbae of course. But she doesn't sound excited and I suddenly feel bad. "Who?" I manage to speak.

"Jimin Sunbae, Lisa" She spoke with her voice low. "I think he has the wrong idea Lisa. I used to text him but only because he's Jungkook's hyung. And all our texts were mostly general. But maybe I overdid unknowingly?"

"I think he's come on purpose to meet me. What if Jungkook finds out?"

I was shocked. Rose really likes Jungkook. How did I not see this? Maybe I was blinded by my own crush and did not see this coming? After all Rose asked him out. She wouldn't do that if she wasn't sure. "He won't be mad unnie, don't worry" I spoke .

"I know he won't be. That's the problem. He hasn't opened up to me yet Lisa. He might slip away if he finds out" she said and I could see the sadness in her voice.

"Don't say that Unnie, give him sometime." I tried to console her.

"I've been following BTS for a year Lisa. I like him for who he is. I know he's shy and introverted. He also has a naughty side. But I don't see all these feelings in his eyes." There was a pause and I didn't know what to say.

"I'll go on two more dates. If I still feel he doesn't have feelings towards me. I'll let him go"

"Unnie are you sure?"

"Yes Lisa. I'm sure. Now what do I do about Jimin Sunbae?"

"Maybe tell him how you feel? He might be able to help you?"

"Yeah I already did. Anyway I'll call you later babe. Got to run! And listen, I love you Lisa. Take care of yourself"

"Love you too Unnie! Byee"

After I ended the call, I felt so guilty. Rose has liked him for a year and I have liked him for hardly 4 months. Her feelings seem strong. Really strong. She asked him out before I did and she deserves this. It's her chance with him and I won't sabotage it anymore. I'm sure of one thing. Two hearts broke today. Mine and Jimin Sunbae.

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I've been in my room all day. I watched Rosekook videos. Is that bad? How did I not realize Rose was looking at him as well! Maybe if I'd known I wouldn't have got curious about Jungkook. "It's not too late right?" I whispered to myself.

"What's not too late?" Jennie unnie asked.

She had entered my room and was observing me. I tried to say Nothing but I just couldn't and I broke down. She closed the door and tried to console me but I couldn't stop. After everything I've done, "I'm so selfish" I cried.

"What's wrong Lisa? Tell me everything" she whispered. I had to talk to someone and I told everything from the beginning to Jennie. She as shocked but she understood.

"Lisa- I know you love Rose and want her to be happy. But sometimes in the matters if heart you can't help it. Don't blame yourself. It could have been worse"

"Who do you think Jungkook likes? It really seems he likes you so" She asked.

"I don't know Unnie. I thought he felt the same about me after that day in the cafe and in the elevator. But I don't know how he feels about Rose and maybe he's forgotten about me by now."

"Well if he did feel the same way then it just won't disappear. But since he went on a date with Rose I don't think the feelings were that strong. Or he hasn't made up his mind." she said carefully.

"I k-know"

"I think you should forget him Lisa. This might affect things between you and Chaeyoung . And that's not good. And moreover he should have-"

"Yeah Unnie. I have tried! I just can't get him off my head!" I yelled with more tears coming out of my eyes.

"You can try talking to rose. If you think she'll understand"

"No Unnie I can't do that"

She looked at me with sadness in her eyes. She pitied me. I could see it. "Maybe you need a distraction"

"Like what?"

"You remember you had a crush on Sehun? Maybe he can get your mind off Jungkook"

I didn't like the idea. "I can't ask him out Unnie. I'm not in the state to" I said softly.

"Leave that to me" and she smiled. Something was going on in her mind but I didn't ask. She's a well-wisher and I don't doubt her intentions.

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Two days later

It's been two days since Jimin is back. There's something wrong with him. He's sad. He's the most lively person in the dorm after Hoseok hyung but something is up. He's been like this from when he's back and I've noticed he doesn't talk to me much. He's avoiding me. I remember the amount he used to text a week ago and now, he doesn't even look at his phone.

I can't take this anymore. I'm going to ask him. I had V ask him yesterday but he didn't say much.

All hyungs are out in the studio for their solo recording. Jimin and I have to go tomorrow. I take this chance to talk to him. He's sitting by the pool and staring at the water.

"Hyung!" He looks up with a weak smile.

"Are you okay?" I sat next to him.

"What's there in you that I don't have?" He looked down. "I didn't mean it like that, kookie.. I'm just-" I was taken aback. Before I could speak, he continued.

"I went to meet Rose." I looked at him. I was going to tell him I knew but he cut me off.

"I'm sorry kookie I just wanted to see if stood a chance before it was too late. Now that I know she really likes you, I'm not coming in your way. I'm really sor-"

"It's okay Hyung. What did she say? I mean don't if it upsets you I just-" I wanted to know what she said.

"She asked if you talk about her to begin with. She then spoke about you and I could see it in her eyes. The Sparks there were just by talking about you. She knows you're shy at times. You don't like being called a baby. She has pretty much followed everything about you for a really long time. Her asking you out was not all of a sudden. She's been trying to from sometime and she finally did. She also knows you don't feel the same way yet but she said she wants to try." He said trying to convince himself.

I was taken aback . I didn't realize she liked me so much. She didn't show it I'm impressed. "Namjoon hyung always says "Always choose someone who loves you over someone you love" so I think you should give her a chance Jungkook-ah" he said looking at me. "She was always your bias too. See how it works out. Love always comes from unexpected places. I never said this for Tzuyu but I think Rose might be the one for you."

Everything he said seemed right and I made up mind that I'll give this a chance.

"And about Lisa, don't lead her on kook. Or just pick one of them and stick to it. I know it's too early but I'm your hyung and I'm right" he winked.

"I'll see how it goes with Rose for the time being."

I know for sure Rose likes me. Lisa also mentioned a someone else. It's only logical to see how things go with Rose.

"Are you sure?" He said.

"Yes I am" I said after thinking. "What about you hyung?"

"I'm Jimin" he winked. "I'll just pick one of the fangirls"

We both chuckled and I was happy that were good now. But I'm choosing Rose over Lisa and I hope it's the right decision.