"What is coming, is better than what's gone"

says as he tugs on my shirt. You must be thinking, Daddy? Well we-I have a 2 year old son, and a beautiful 3 month old baby girl, her name is Lilliana Hazel Grey.

She was born prematurely, which leads us to where we are. Her grave, my sweet button. No she didn't die from cancer, she beat its ass. I smile a little as I remember the sparkle in her eyes as she rung the bell.

After cancer we started our lives together. I proposed. Right out side the ice cream shop where we first actually talked to each other. I put the ring in the icecream, she almost choked on it.

We got married. I can still see her walking down the aisle, almost tripping, in her beautiful long white dress. We said our vows, and of course she cried.

We got pregent with Maddox. The day he came was one of the happiest days of my life. He looks just like me actually, hes gonna grow up and be all big and tough.

Than the second time. With our little baby girl. Maddox would balber about how he'll be a good big brother. Wont let anyone hurt her.

I sink down on my knees when I remember what happend next. We found out about her heart problem. Our little girl had a weak heart she needed to be protected. Lillian came out at 25 weeks, an emergency csection.

My cheeks get wet as tears run down my face. The doctor coming in with blood all over him. Her blood. With that look of pure guilt and sadness.

"Daddy?" Maddox questions again.

"Go with Aunty Livia for a second okay?", he nods and runs off.

"Hey button.", my voice breaks "Its been three months since you went to heaven. Baby lily is growing up. She looks just like you, small and tiny with those big, bright, blue eyes"

I stroke her head stone, "I miss you so much baby girl. I-i dont think I can move on, I'll never be able to move on. You're the love of my life. My one and only. This isn't the end of our story love.", I lightly kiss the tombstone.

I get up from my knees to where Maddox is holding Lillian, I gently pick her up and hold Maddox's hand as we walk back to the car. I hear Maddox whisper very silently, "Goodbye Momma.".

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Who's cutting the god damn onions?

But for real, I cried writing this chapter. Is was so sad to say goodbye to my little character who I've grown so close with.

Hazel is actually based of my little cousin who has the same button nose.

I'm so thankful for everyone that has been with we through this journey. We can all say it's been one hell of a ride.

And for one last final goodbye,

-Gabi♡