"I'm so, so sorry." I say as I back off of his mouth, it was so weird I can still feel his lips on mine even if they only touched for a few seconds. Achilles only blinks and shakes his head.

"I- I'm not mad but em, I - I need to go." He shakes his hand and stands up and starts running down stairs, I go after him and just before he goes out of the door I'm able to grab his hand.

"Please, forgive me... It wasn't on purpose, you know I wouldn't have done something like that on purpose." I say shaking my head, although after those few seconds I'm not really sure now.

"I know" He says and storms out of the room.

Man, I fucked things up.

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*Achilles' POV*

Why did I run? It wasn't a big deal, is not like it is the first time a boy has kissed me but this time felt different, it was so innocent, nothing like before. I've kissed both boys and girls and none of those kisses have been like this, so innocent, so spontaneous, so not wanted.

"I'm homeeee" I yell thinking that my mom is somewhere in this big house, somehow she has been here for more than I expected her to. I go to look for her, I want to talk, not that I will tell her what happened but maybe I'll get distracted and that way I will stopped thinking about it.

His lips, centimeters away from my face.

His lips, brushing mine just for a few seconds.

His lips, getting away because he didn't want that.

His lips, so soft and so innocent, so different.

I bet he had never kissed a guy before, I've thought about him in that way for a few times, I've thought about his lips kissing me before but I never thought it would be like this nor I thought it would happen. I know he is straight as fuck and that if this happened it was a mistake for him, but for me it was... Wonderful.

No words can describe it.

My mom is nowhere in sight so I guess it will only be me and my thoughts, about Patroclus kissing me, about us going further than just a mere kiss, about things I shouldn't think about a guy like him.

A thunder sounds.

I've wondered more than once why I'm attracted to Patroclus, I don't seem to understand it but maybe is that he is not only extremely gorgeous but he is also really nice.

Another thunder, rain starts pouring.

It's funny though, I've only known this guy for a few weeks by now yet I find him extremely interesting.

I want my mom to come here so we'll do something that will distract me, what if she's on a plane and I don't know anything? No, she would have told me before.

I need to get distracted before I start picturing him taking me in his mouth, again.

Another thunder.

Damn it with this rain.

I could go for a run, I don't really care about getting wet, and just like that I go out of my house for a run to try and distract my mind.

When I come back home after running under the rain for a long time I see someone sitting on the porch, maybe my mom lost her keys or something.

As I apporach the porch the person stands up and I am able to see who it is.

Patroclus.

"Hey." I say watching the ground and walking toward the door. "How long have you been here?"

"I came while ago." He says and puts his and behind his neck. "I wanted to come and see you because of what happened." I hadn't been able to forget it, mostly because it only happened a few hours ago and also because it has been impossible for me to get over it.

"I see, it is okay don't worry." I walk up to my bedroom to change my clothes "Follow me, I'm freezing."

"That's because you went for a run under the rain. I'm sorry" He says sitting on the edge of my bed.

"Why? You didn't send me for a run, I went for it." I say as I look for something to put, I decide only for a short.

"I think it was my fault, I know it wasn't like I was all over you but yet." He is looking at the ground and I sit next to him on the bed.

"Don't worry, believe me... It's okay." I say "I wouldn't have mind even if you did it on purpose... You're confused with all the Briseis' thing." I say and I put my hand over his.

"Oh..." He stares at our hands and I move mine away as quickly as I can "She didn't love me." I know.

"Why do you say that?"

"Because if someone loves you they wouldn't do that." He says. "I thought that while I was waiting for you. I am sad though." He says and puts his head on my shoulder as I watch in awe that, for a few seconds I don't know what to do but I decide to put my arm around him.

"She didn't deserve you in case."

"But... Did I deserve her?"

"You don't deserve someone who will treat you like that." I say looking down at him and he is looking back at me, his brown eyes piercing through mine.

"Oh." It's the only things that comes out of his mouth, before I take his mouth in mine, kissing him like I've desired to do since I met him but then he pulls away.

"I'm sorry" I say when he stands up, he is probably going to go and never talk to me again. "I really am." I say, he doesn't move he just stay standing there looking at me.

And then he is kissing me too, he is on top of me, kissing me in a way I didn't think we could. Oh, briseis, you really lost a great guy.

I take off his shirt as we kiss and I would do more but I know he is not ready. Not yet.