"I bought you chicken briyani!!!" he said and dramatically showed me the packet in his hand.

"Wow, really? You are the best!!! I love you," I hugged him tightly.

"But, I heard something else just now!!!" It was Sandhya. "I was just angry just now. I didn't really mean it," I said, trying to avoid awkwardness.

"Okay fine, come and eat. I told you nah, not to miss your meal like this?" Harish started his lecture again.

"Yeah, I know. Can I eat now?" I asked and he smiled. We went to the dining table and I started eating, not caring about anyone.

"I didn't know someone else is here, so I didn't buy for you. Why don't you eat mine?" Harish offered to Sandhya.

"No, it's okay. I had dinner already. You can eat this," Sandhya said and Harish started eating.

"Where did you buy this?" I asked him. No shop would be open at this hour, right? Okay okay I know!!! I knew no shop would be open, but you cannot blame me for this. Blame my pregnancy cravings.

"I found this shop near our favorite ice cream shop!!!" he said.

"What?? Are you serious? It's like 50 minutes away from here," I realized how much I tortured him.

"Yeah, but only that shop was open!!!" he said and tears formed at my eyes.

"I am sorry Harish!!! I am really sorry. You had to do it just because of me. I am so crazy to have asked you like this!!!" I cried.

"Gosh, your mood swings drives me crazy. One minute you are happy, another minute you are angry and the next second you turn all emo and started crying. I didn't expect pregnancy hormones will make you like this," he laughed, when I cried.

"Ananya, are you okay? Why are you crying? What happen? Is everything okay?" came a concerned voice. Siddharth came running to my side and made me face him. At that moment, I completely forgot all the dramas and even my chicken briyani.

He is talking to me.

After so many days!!!

"That's nothing Sid, it's just her pregnancy hormones," Sandhya chuckled and Harish even joined her. Then, Sandhya told him what happened. That's it!!! After she finished the story, he just smiled and went to our room, practically rushed. Gosh, that feels weird.

Siddharth POV

"Why did I talked to her? What was the need? I am so stupid!!! I decided to ignore her but now I am doing this!!!" I asked myself.

"Because you love her idiot!!!" my heart replied to me. But, she doesn't love me!!!

Flashback

I was so happy that I finally realized I loved her!!! I have fallen in love with her the moment I saw her being so strong. But, it took me some time to realize it!!! I am finally going to correct all my mistakes and accept her. But, what she feels about me?

I waited outside her office, sitting in my car. Today I want to talk to her about what I feel about her. Also, I want to know how she feels about me!!! Yes, today I am going to have an answer for my question.

I saw her walking outside with her bag, she looked so beautiful!!! But....the next second a guy came up to her. I thought he was disturbing her so I got off my car to help her. But, when I saw her getting excited seeing him, I stopped in my tracks.

The next second she hugged him tightly and cried on his shoulder. I felt awful seeing her hugging another man!!! I felt like to rip them apart and bring her with me, but I couldn't do that. Cause I have never seen her happier than that. She was happy with him but not with me. I felt my world fall apart.

I got on my car and drove very far from her office. I stopped my car once I have gone far and started crying!!! I cried. I have never cried in all my life. The last time I cried was when I lost my parents. And now I am crying because I felt like I have lost Ananya!!! Forever!!!

I thought I could finally be happy. I really love her. I cannot lose her, but I can't be selfish and keep her with me just because I want her right?

I have already made a big mistake and ruined her life and now I won't stand in her way of finding happiness.

Having to meet her was the best thing ever happened to me. If she wants to leave me, I won't stop. But, can I forget her and continue my life like nothing happened?

Its not even two months since I met her, but I have fallen for her. She is amazing and it is not difficult for a straight man to fall for her. Her part in my life is short, but I definitely know the impact is huge.

If she leaves me, I cannot be the same, because she was everything I wanted in my life partner.

Strong, beautiful, kind, smart and definitely lovely.

Present

I ignored her as much as possible, to let myself heal from the wound I received. I wanted to stay away from her because that was the only way for me to forget her. Even though I realized that was not working!!! The more I wanted to ignore her, the more I ended up thinking about her.

I want to make her happy but she is not going to be happy as long as she is with me. I have always thought that the one saying 'if you love her, you should make her happy even if it means you have to leave her' was just bluffing. But, now I really understand that!!! I have to let her go if she wants to.

"Siddharth..." I heard her calling me. I didn't have to see her face to recognize her. Her voice means more to me than anything. I quickly wiped my tears and turned around to face her.

"I thought, I would check on you. You kind of left in the middle," Ananya said.

"I am fine. It's just that I got nervous when I saw you crying," I said without thinking. That was the truth. "I don't like anyone crying," I didn't had to say that. But, I did. I don't want her to feel stuck with me.

"Thank you," she said, disappointed. Wait what? Why would she be disappointed?

"Ananya, there is two weeks left for us to make a decision. You know, you are going to be 12 weeks pregnant in just two weeks. What do you think?" I asked her. I wanted this conversation to happen so that I can make it clear that I have no objection in her going with other man.

"I don't know, I don't really think about it!!!" she said. Even though I know that is the answer it's going to be, I still felt disappointed.

"You know, just because this baby, you don't have to be tied up to me. If you want you can...you can abort this baby and go with the man you really like," I said the thing that hurted me the most!!!

"What do you mean?" she asked me slowly.

"I mean, okay I know!!! I saw you hugging a man outside your office. If you don't like me, it's fine. You can just go with who you like. I won't stop you!!! I know you are not happy with me!!!" I said.

"Wait, what?? Seriously Siddharth? You thought I liked him? Wait... All this while, you have been ignoring me because I hugged him? Why you didn't asked me about this?" she asked.

"I didn't have to ask Ananya. I know your life now is difficult because of me. You can always have the life you desired!!!" I said again.

"You are not me Siddharth!!! You don't know what I am thinking is you didn't ask me. Do you think you can simply believe everything that you see?" she shouted.

"But, I am not that stupid to not see that Ananya. I saw how happy you got when you saw him. I saw it. I saw that," I said, my voice was so soft that I am not sure whether she heard me.

"What you saw? Me hugging him? That's it, right?" she asked.

"Its not a small matter for me Ananya. It is not SIMPLE for me," I shouted and she flinched. Oh my god, what am I doing? I am hurting her and it is evident in her eyes.

"He is my brother," she whispered. Did she just said brother?

I thought I heard wrong.

"It was my brother goddammit. Do you even remember I said I have two brothers? It was my brother, my younger brother. He came to check on me because I didn't call him at all, after I move out," she was full on crying now.

Regret immediately washed me, as I think about the words I said. I misunderstood the relationship between a brother and sister.

"I thought you was better than that Siddharth. I didn't expect you will judge me just like everyone else. Remember when I told you I didn't have a love life before you? Then, how could you think that I am happy with another man," she said. When I was quiet, she continued.

"Shouldn't you have asked me who was him before deciding it yourself? You didn't trust me enough. Why? Until this second, everything I said, I have been honest with you. Then, why can't you be honest with me? When your design went missing, I learned it from a third person. Did you know how I felt the whole week when you showed me attitude because of that issue? If you have simply said that you are having problem, I wouldn't have disturbed you. But, you didn't. You should've been the one telling me those things Siddharth. Now this time, you ignored me for the second time. Did you know how I was feeling all this week? Continuously thinking what wrong I did for you to ignore me like this? Is this how you are? Trying to run away or ignore the problem instead of confronting it? One question, just one question you have asked me and this whole conversation wouldn't have happened. Why do I feel like I am the only one trying work on this relationship. If you want to give up that easily, why do I have to work hard to keep this up? I am tired Siddharth, honestly tired," she finished.

I didn't know what to tell. Anything I said this time, it will only make it worse. She was crying, so bad. I wanted to hug and beg her for her forgiveness. But, I couldn't. As much as an asshole I was, I couldn't do that. I am scared of rejection, I am scared she will push me away. I am scared I will lose her if I act recklessly. I am scared that she will never realize how much I love her.

I stood rooted to the ground. I didn't move, at all. I just watched as she collapsed to the ground and cried and cried.

"I am sorry," I said after a long moment of silence. It felt like forever. I took every ounce of energy in my body to get that three words out of my mouth.

"I want to be alone," she said and I left. I left the room because she said she wanted to be alone. Am I doing the wrong thing by leaving her alone? I should stay with her to prove that I love her right? But, she wanted space. I couldn't give her that being with her. Me being with her, doesn't help her either. She is hurting every second and the reason?

Me.

Just me.

I hurt her, I hurt her all the time.

But, what could I do now? What could I possibly do now? How can I make her feel loved? How will I make her believe I truly love her?

I just hope she will give me the chance to prove her. I just hope, I didn't lose her forever.