I tell myself not to believe such a thing could happen to me but deep down inside, I know it’s true. I ask myself why me, why me? Why would he do such a thing to me? To someone so honest and so true, I knew it all couldn’t be true! It was all too real!

We started out as boyfriend and girlfriend. Things seemed fine, so amazing. I couldn’t believe I was in such a deep relationship, together, part of a team. We had been together for four months, going on five. I thought it was the most romantic relationship anyone had ever been in. It felt so real. It just had to last forever. Most teen relationships are just not a “forever thing” but in a huge way I knew this one could be. It was the kind of real-life thing, not some shitty little kid’s stuff that only lasts a month max!

As time went by it was just getting better and better. We were tight, closer than close. My friends had never seen a relationship like this before and neither had I. Seven months went by. I knew he was the one for me, even though we hadn’t had sex yet. I dreamed that someday we would have a child and still be in love!

As July slowly came around the corner I found out something embarrassing and horrible that killed me deep down inside. This supposedly wonderful relationship came to an end; my “dream lover” had been cheating on me for seven months! One of his friends ratted him out by telling me every detail. I was crushed and ashamed!

I wanted to know more, more from him! So I decided to ask him about everything. What made me feel even worse inside was the way he answered me when I asked him about the affair, he said “It just happened!” How could something like this just happen? Why would a human being do this to some- one and kill them inside? Kill their courage? How can I ever trust anyone again?

I was dead for a long time. In a way I was glad that this situation happened to me. I went on slowly and surely.

I went on. I survived.

Kristina Pelletier