Is she really gone? Lawson asked. I cannot believe that she is no longer here with us. If she can die, won't I die too? Mom?!

No honey, I will not lose any more of my family. She will not have died in vain. Is there a reason that the Universe is trying to divulge upon our family? I explain.

Well, I know I can't mourn forever, there will be a time and a place to mourn, and right now if we don't continue strong, they will mourn us.

How? Why? Where are we? The questions that always appear in my mind. The island seems to always grow bigger and bigger every time I wake up, it saddens me. Now I know the fate of one of my family members, death. Is this what will happen to us all? Maybe my son is right. I wonder how my mother is. Still, I've come to a sudden realization things are going to be okay for my family, as tough as it was to let go. Maybe I needed to have this experience to cope with a death of a loved one. I should no longer be sad, although I still blame myself for her death and Adam always seems to comfort me.

As I hold my late daughter in my arms, I start to realize that we may never be the same again after today. Without Lily, I might as well be dead, our entire family is falling apart! Thoughts continue to pour out of my mind and into my subconscious like a raincloud through the sky. I hope no one else gets sick. Who's going to be next? Lawson? I hope and pray that we will get out of this alive. Lily didn't make it, but we have to be strong as that is what she would have wanted.