I layed in bed staring at my phone when a click came to my window, I ignored it until it happened, again and again, i slipped out of my comfy bed and dragged my feet to the window. I pull back the curtain and see a figure in the darkness he looked familiar but i didn't realize it was Zeke until he stepped into the light. I swallowed and looked at him, i haven't seen him since he left and i don't think i want to see him now. I look down and reach to shut the window. I lean back into my room holding my hand on the edges about to close it.

“Wait!” he whispers yells. I don't listen and i start to shut it till a scream of pain is yelled. I open the window quickly and Zeke's arm was in between the window and ledge.

“What were you thinking!” i whispered.

“I couldn't let you close it, I need to talk to you” he said

“You lost that chance two months ago” I said my voice cracking as i was about to cry.

“Lindsey please” he begged I looked at him tears were in his eyes now.

“Why why do you want to talk to me now you didn't want to talk two months ago.. You” I started to cry now i couldn't hold it in anymore I was finally able to see him and talk to him, and i wasn't wanting to hug him or ask if he's been ok, I was mad at him.

“You left me a note Zeke….. I wake up in the hospital and you leave me a note... “ My stomach was twisting as I looked at him.

“I cried for a month thinking it was my fault you left…. Thinking i messed up somehow”

“No no Lindsey you didn't mess up!” he quickly added he hopped up into the window and sat on the ledge.

“How was I supposed to know that! I couldn't get ahold of you, I didn't know if you were ok”

“Lindsey I was fine” he said softly. I grabbed my hair and pulled slightly.

“But how was I supposed to know! You left without saying goodbye, the doctor said he saw you leaving out the back door, and when Alex got home half of your clothes were gone” I said.

“Lindsey I didn't mean to hurt you by leaving, I was trying to protect you” he said trying not to let the sadness in his voice take over. Goosebumps were on my arm from all the cold air flowing through the open window.

“From what Zeke” he ran his hand through his hair.

“What were you trying to protect me from!?”

“Myself ok! I was the reason you got hit by the car, I shouldn't have let you come I should have told you to stay home!”

“Zeke you didn't protect me you made me more vulnerable, I was easy to break after you left! I isolated myself from everyone, I stopped hanging out with everyone at lunch instead I sat in the corner of campus!” I was too broken to talk to anyone!” I yelled tears were hitting my knees as I wrapped my arms around them.

“Lindsey, I'm sorry you don't know how hard it was for me to leave… I didn't want to..”

“Then why did you!?”

“Because Isaac told me it was for the best” He said looking at the ground. It was getting harder for me to breathe as the tears kept coming, it was like someone was choking me.

“Zeke.. please go I can't do this right now…” I said burying my face into my knees I heard scrambling of paper then Zeke spoke again.

“Zeke, I don't know if you'll get this, or if you'll even reply but, I need to know where you are. I don't know what has happened to you you're not calling me back or anyone for that matter. Zeke you mean so much to me you were that person i could go to when i needed to talk to someone or just to laugh with, but you left and i feel like i messed up somehow and that's why. I don't feel like me anymore without you, I don't wake up smiling or talk to people at school, I wake up in the middle of the night because of nightmares about what could have happened to you, I think about you all the time wondering if your out there still, I'd run a million miles if it meant i could talk to you again, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't look out my window without wondering if you're thinking of me… if you forgot about me about us your friends and family….. Why did you have to leave me like you did? Or leave me at all? I thought you liked me, I thought you were falling for me, I guess I was wrong” he finished and folded the paper and put it back in his pocket.

“You wrote that to me, and left it on top of Jewell school because you knew it was my favorite place to go.” I couldn't speak, my eyes were hurting and my stomach was twisting and turning into knots even more.

“Lindsey…. I’m sorry” he said, he reached in the window and put his hand on my knee. I jumped slightly and pulled away.

“Stop!” I said a little too loudly. My door opened and Mia quickly walked over to me, she sat on the floor next to me and looked out the window.

“Zeke…” She said, I could feel her looking down at me then back at Zeke.

“I think you need to go” she said in a stern voice”

“Mia please” he begged

“Zeke, please leave for the night” She said again he sighed and jumped off of his spot on the window seal Mia shut the window then put her arms around me I sat there crying into my knees.

“Mia?”

“Yeah”

“I wrote a letter to Zeke, and he got it.. the only way for that to happen is if.. He stayed in town last two months”