As I'm driving back to the barn, I turn to the side and look at a drunk Cayson. I laugh to myself as he's muttering random things.

He is literally super drunk because he took 16 shots and drank 3 beer bottles.

Apparently, I'm taking a break from alcohol at this moment as it is just as addictive as the drugs.

Ian is making sure about it and didn't let me touch any drinks. Even though the first round was on me, they all drank but I didn't and to accompany me, neither didn't Ian.

He is literally the sweetest friend anyone could ask for.

Sometimes when I think about everyone in my life, I think about how I don't deserve them. They can't see me destroy myself whereas that's what I'm good at.

But, after meeting Cayson, it's changed a bit. I can be suicidal many times but it's not the same as it used to be.

Because of Cayson and my friends, I actually want to live my life. They're all important to me and I don't want to disappoint them.

I will live my life and won't try to sabotage my career either.

"Hey Stavish?" Cayson whispers, breaking my train of thoughts.

"Yeah?" I reply back in an instant.

I take the turn into the barn and park the car. I notice that my friends are already here, safe and sound, delivered by Ian.

I turn to face Cayson and find him smiling. There is a smile etched onto his face and he looks away and chuckles.

The moon shines through the windshield and onto my face. He turns to face me and comes a little closer to me.

He raises his hand towards my cheeks and slightly brushed the back of his hand and I closed my eyes. "You're so beautiful," he whispers.

I smile to myself and open my eyes to find his emerald green eyes, very close to mine. I close my eyes and i could feel our nose touching and lips just inches apart. His hand still resting on my cheek and I quickly look away.

"Cayson we're uh- we're here," I clear my throat and point to the barn house.

"Why do you do that?" He asks.

I look at him and confusion takes over my face. "Do what?"

He sighs. "Pull away. It's like you know you want to give in but something is stopping you," he mutters.

"Because something is stopping me," I mutter back.

"Please Venus, just trust me. I promise I won't hurt you," he says and the words are slurred as they come out of his mouth.

"It's not you Cayson, it's me," I reply back. "I don't know if you'd understand it but I need to tell you something."

He waits for me to give him my answer but I don't. At this moment he is drunk and maybe he won't remember anything next morning.

"It's best that I tell you everything when you're sobered up," I say.

"I'll quickly freshen up then," he mutters are tries to open the car door.

I quickly stop him and smile. "Not tonight, tomorrow."

He sighs and frowns. "Promise me?"

He holds his pinky up in the air and I smile. I shake his pinky with mine and he smiles. "Promise."

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"What is he doing here?" Ian bursts out and I quickly close my bedroom door and push him back until his back touches the wall.

"Shh," I shush him and Kate smiles on the other side.

"Venus, why is he in your room?" Tyler asks and I sigh.

"It was late yesterday night and I didn't know where else to drop him. So, I figured that I should bring him here," I answer back.

"That still doesn't answer why he's in your room," Ian asks again.

"I don't expect you guys to remember but I literally knocked your guy's bedroom doors super hard but none of you woke up. There are only five bedrooms in this house."

"You could've put him in the basement."

"I couldn't just shove him in the basement. He was just as drunk as you guys. So, I figured that he could stay in my room."

"He didn't misbehave, did he?" Chris asks, sternly.

I look at Chris, Ian and Tyler who seem quite pissed about this situation. Sometimes, I forget how overprotective they could be.

"He was fine Chris," I reply back and Chris takes a sigh of relief while Ian just narrows his eyes at me. "We didn't share the same bed."

"Dang it," Kate says and so does violet, "Damn it."

I laugh and they frown.

"I slept on the couch," I say and finally Ian relaxes and takes a sigh of relief.

"I mean I don't really mind about that situation anymore, you got that much right?" Tyler asks and I nod.

"We shared the same bed," Kate says, twirling around her hair.

I clear my throat as Ian's eyes pop out and violet just chuckles. What else can we expect from Kate.

"No need of dirty deets right now."

"Actually share some," Tyler simply asks.

"Tyler, you horny ass monster. You need to get laid," I joke.

"To be completely honest, I don't remember anything at all from yesterday night. It was like a blur," Kate replies and Chris nods.

"Seriously," Chris agrees.

"I'm so happy that you got the contract," Tyler says and I smile.

"Guess we're best of the bests," I reply back.

Suddenly my bedroom door opens and I quickly turn around and find Cayson groaning as he pokes his head out.

"Good morning," violet says.

Cayson looks at everyone and his gaze finally lands on me and he smiles. "Good morning," he says, looking at me.

"Morning," I mutter back.

"The breakfast will be ready, let's meet downstairs in ten?" I ask and they all nod as they disperse through the halls and into their rooms.

"Stavish?" I hear Cayson while walking downstairs.

"Yeah?" I ask, stopping in my tracks and look back.

"I look forward to listening to your reason as now I'm sobered up," he says, smiling and closes the door.

I turn around and start walking downstairs. My face is literally flushed at this moment because I thought he would forget.

Crap, he remembers.

Guess he has a high tolerance for alcohol because he didn't pass out after drinking so much.

I sighs and start making pancakes.

I haven't ate pancakes for a long time and I missed them. It has been almost over a year ever since my last pancakes meal.

My tummy is craving some yummy chocolate chip pancakes with a lot of syrup, butter and, milk.

Today will be the first day in a long time when I am not thinking about anything negative in my life. Today, everything is positive. It will stay this way for a long time now.

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