I miss my bae and she's sick. :(

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Have you ever missed someone so badly that you cry? Like your chest tightened and your heart just feel like it could burst anytime? Like your head was damaged so badly that you kept on overthinking?

That was what happened in the morning of my first day of work. I suddenly felt the need to hug someone. My eyes were filled with tears and my face was horribly red with my nose stuffed. I had miss my father so badly and thinking of how he could have been alive if it weren't for the business he was dealing with, destroyed me inside slowly and painfully.

I wanted to take them out on someone; not the anger, but the emptiness. I needed to get ahold of someone and embrace them tightly, but I couldn't do that to mother. She would get even sadder than she already was after getting to know a serial killer murdered her husband.

The only thing hidden was that she doesn't know it was Justin Bieber who killed him, but Jason McCann. Either way, she was still afraid to send me off to work, so I definitely didn't want to get her to make me resign without actually working. I didn't want to fill up more stress in her.

So, I knocked on his bedroom door and felt guilty instantly. I woke him up by the sound of me crying and now, I was still disturbing his sleep. I turned away to back into my room, but the door opened widely and a sleepy Luke was rubbing his both eyes lazily before looking down at me.

His eyebrows creased immediately when he saw my horrible condition. Before I could tell him anything, he pulled me into his room and closed the door shut. I sniffled a little and opened my mouth to explain.

"I'm just overreacting, it's fine. I'm fine."

I looked around his room to avoid his eyes burning a hole through me. I could still feel his stare. He spoke, "You don't look fine at all. And do you know what you need?"

"A coffee? Yes." I rubbed my head with one hand looking at him, but he wasn't satisfied with the answer. He walked towards me and wrapped his arms around me tightly. I felt warm and cuddly instantly when he nuzzled his head into my neck. I held him by the neck and he held me by the waist.

He whispered softly, "I'm here."

And I felt really bad for him because all I could think about was Justin and how he held me so securely and I felt so safe. With Luke, I felt like I was giving off my stress and there was nothing stopping me. Weird I could say, because both were not close to me for that long period of time. Justin kidnapped me and I met Luke three days ago.

But I was already falling for one of them, and I was definitely terrified of the answer.

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Enjoy. ✨

10th of March, 2017.