Memory/Flashback: 2 Years Ago

I just got to his house with breakfast and I walk in as I always do. I've been doing it for so long I might as well live here. I'm not sure why I don't yet if I'm honest.

"Lane!" No response.

"Lane I'm here!" Still nothing.

"Lane where are you?!"

Both his vehicles are here so I know he has to be. I walk around the house looking for him. I don't find him anywhere.

Odd. Maybe he's working in the garage.

I head out to his garage to see if he's working out there. I hoped to find him, but I didn't expect to find him on his phone in hushed whispers.

"Look I'll see if I can get free later."

I wonder who that is?

"Yes. I'm sorry I'm just busy today."

Probably just a friend or family member.

"You know I want to see you too."

Maybe?

"Okay, I'll talk to you later. I love you too, bye."

Goddess Please...

I feel my heart drop to my stomach. Maybe this is why he wouldn't mark me. He didn't want me feeling him cheat on me. I walk into the garage with my head high.

"Who was that?"

He looks at me startled "Who was who?"

Don't play dumb with me jackass..

"On the phone just now. Who was that?" I stare at him.

He scratches the back of his head "Oh, yeah. That was my grandma. I'm probably gonna go see her later this afternoon. So you can't stay too long."

"If you're going to see her why can't I stay here?" I give him a questioning look.

"Because I don't know how long I'll be gone. No point in you waiting around for me all day."

I don't know if I believe him, but I want to. I love him too much to think he'd honestly do me wrong. I'm just being paranoid again.

I have to trust him.

"Okay, well breakfast is here." I give him a quick peck on the cheek.

We both walk in and I head to the kitchen to get plates ready. We sit down and eat, talking and laughing. Then we lay on the couch and watch a movie together. It turns into more as he slowly start rubbing on my body and kissing me.

We don't even leave the couch. We're so caught up in each other we make love right there. I always thought it was as good as it could get with him. I thought he was a God, like he knew me better than I knew myself.

Once we're done we go to the bathroom to clean up. He decides to shower, so I make it to the living room before he does. I see he left his phone on the arm of the couch. Part of me wants to look in it, but I decide to leave it alone. Until a text comes thru.

'Can't wait to see you later baby ;) I miss you XOXO'

Along with a picture of a girl's breasts. There's that feeling again. My heart plummets to my stomach as bile rises in my throat.

"No."

"No"

"Nova wake up."

I feel someone gently shaking me. The voice familiar, sweet and loving. Part of me fears it's him. Part of me knows it's not.

"Nova baby, please wake up."

I open my eyes to see Zane with a look of panic on his face. His hands on my shoulders. I had laid down on the couch, but didn't mean to fall asleep.

"Are you okay?" He looks so worried.

"Yeah, fine sorry." I'm ashamed, I can't even make eye contact.

"Are you sure? It didn't seem like it." He gently turns my face to his.

I look down to the floor "I'm fine. It was just a bad dream."

"What was it?"

"It doesn't matter." I turn from him.

"It does to me. You were tossing and turning, whispering no over and over." His voice is gently, caring.

"It was nothing. Please drop it." I can hear that I'm about to cry and I really don't want to.

That was the first time I knew for sure Lane was cheating on me. That was when things started to go downhill. That was when I knew he didn't love me.

He sighs "If you say so."

I sit up and stretch. I can't believe I fell asleep. I look outside to see it's pitch black, I slept through dinner.

Damn it.

Zane reads my facial expression and can tell something is wrong. He clearly doesn't want to push me further, thinking it's the dream. I decide to ask him if there's any food left, and he offers to go grab me something.

Once I eat we lay together in bed. Neither one of us saying a word, but we don't need to. He just holds me, one hand gently rubbing up and down my arm. I didn't have any nightmares after that.

The next morning I'm woken up by something being thrown at my face.

"Get up bitch we're going to the beach!" My sister exclaims.

Greatttt...

"Come on the guys are waiting for us!"

I dress in the mint high-waisted bikini she threw at me, and put a white t-shirt over it. I throw my hair in a top-knot. Slip on my shades and black sandals, and follow her out the door.

"Hey!" A girl comes bounding down the stairs as we head out the door.

I look at Lex "Who the fuck is that?"

"Oh that's Talia, KCs mate. They're coming too." Lex tells me.

Ooo-kayyy... I didn't even know he had a mate. The more the merrier I suppose.

"Hi! It's nice to meet you, I'm Talia."

"Hey, nice to meet you too. I'm Nova." I reach my hand out to her, but she pulls me in for a hug.

People here really like hugging..

"I know who you are silly! I loved watching you put that bitch in her place yesterday." She says as she laughs.

I just laugh in return. We walk out the door and see the guys all waiting for us, and I want to drool. Zane looks delicious in his swim trunks, only his swim trunks. With that V that leads to his...

Stop! Goddess, do not go there right now!

I guess I can spend a little time at the beach. I just have to be back in time to be with Max when he calls Lane. I won't miss that, I can't. I want to hear his voice when they tell him I'm dead. See how good of an actor he really is.