I'm a little confused on if I'm dreaming or in a nightmare. A beautiful fuckin sexy dream where Roxie agrees to fulfill mine and Kai's every fantasy and I don't want to wake up; or a horrible nightmare where my long time crush lets me and my boyfriend fuck her senseless until she's ripped from us taking our hearts...my heart with her. I'd still wouldn't want to wake up. I didn't know if I could keep my feelings separate from the physical but I'd try if it meant a little more time with Roxie. I had to remind myself this is all she could give.

Right now it seems like a dream. We're all sitting naked on Roxie huge bed writing a list of fantasies. We're talking and laughing like we've all been dating for forever. We discussed our sexual like, dislikes, soft limits, and hard limits. This thing between us feels so natural. It's like we belong together. It made writing the list easier By 11 Roxie and I are cuddled on either side of Kai both our heads on his shoulder. I'm in bliss but I can't get use to this. It won't last forever.

We all have 3 fantasies each written down that we have agreed on. Roxie flips the notebook so that Kai and I can see.

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I don't remember us discussing that last one but I can't say I'm not excited about it.

Reading the list to myself my mouth waters. I can't wait to get started on this list. It still doesn't feel finished but we decide we could add more on as we go. The way we have been going at it this list would be completed in no time. Especially now that there's no restriction on how often we see each other I plan to see Roxie daily.

"Let's watch a movie" Rox suggest hopping off the bed to grab the remote control. "Y'all can stay if you want. No practice tomorrow and my parents are out of town" she adds as she flips through the channel. It looks like she's hoping we'll stay. I'm sure she's lonely in this huge house all alone. I know Kai will say no. He is an only child and was always helping his parents out on the weekends. I usually stayed at his on the weekend so we don't miss out on time together. "I can't stay but I can stick around for the movie. I gotta be up at 6 to help dad with some yard work so I have to go. But baby you should stay and keep Roxie company" Kai says reaching for my hand and kissing my fingers.

I'm not really sure if I should stay without Kai but I agree. "I'll only stay if you cuddle me tonight Princess" I say coping the nickname Kai calls her. "I'll do more than cuddle you Nari. I plan to be covered in you" she says bitting her lip. I shiver and I know they both noticed. How does she work me up so fast? "Save some energy for me you two. I'll be here by 12" Kai says smirking at the both of us. "I'll always have energy for you Kai" I say kissing his cheek then his lips

As we lay together cuddled up watching a movie my mind wonders. I can't help but think about how natural this feels. If only Roxie would reconsider this being only physical. When she kisses me I know she feels more. I know I feel more. I'm terrified to tell her in fear that she will want to stop all of this well before the 5 months is over. I want everyone to know she's ours. I don't care what anyone thinks. If only she felt the same.

Kia yawns and I know he'll leave soon. I'm as tired as he is but I know I won't get any sleep tonight. Roxie said she wanted to be covered in my juices tonight which is one of the sexiest things anyone has ever told. How could I not give her what she asked for sleep be dammed.

The movie ends and the credits begin to roll in. Kai gets up to get dressed before kissing us both goodnight. I typically don't like sleeping without Kai but I'm sure Roxie will make a good cuddle replacement for the night. She better make good on her promise.