From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 17 August, 1999 02:11 PM

Subject: You, I and our day

Dear Sabrina,

I should say I am a little disappointed. When I open your letter, I will be in a romantic mood. And when you write too serious subjects, I feel out of place. But I know why we are discussing all these. And I know I have to answer all the questions.

Marrying more than one person is NOT legal in India. It is a punishable crime. Long back, these things existed, not now. It is not considered civilized. This is one of the misconceptions existing in the western world about India. They write something about India without even caring to visit India once.

The age of marriage allowed by law is 18 for girls and 21 for boys. But usually in our state and in our caste (I will tell about caste later) boys usually marry at or after 25. I have about three, four years before I marry. But this is not a strict rule. After 21 a boy can marry anyone legally. There are a lot of proposals coming to me. I told my parents not to pay attention to them. You know why.

Yes, here parents usually play a big role in marriages. Arranged marriages are a part of our culture. But the new generation does not care to follow these rules. They find out a lover and force their parents to accept them. Sometimes, the parents may not agree, then they may move out. But it also happens that because of parents, they have to forfeit their love.

What did you say? You are old enough to be an actress? I have to laugh. Who told you this blunder? You are really cute. I am not praising you. This is a fact. But my dear, I won't let you go to acting. Many people will touch you. No, no, no!!! I don't like anyone even looking at you!

Do you think I will be late? No, I will be there before the right time. Just you, me and our music... And as you said, after that I will go into bed with you. I am cursing myself now because I gave a promise to you. Remember? Waiting for your permission...Otherwise...But today I will kiss you with a passion that has been never felt. Be ready, at 9'oclock I will be kissing you in my bed. I will lick, bite suck and kiss your lips and explore your mouth with my tongue. Don't forget...Now take this kiss. Ummmmmmma!

And about our meeting, I don't like you coming to Germany. I am not at all familiar with the place. Anyway, I am trying hard to cancel my assignment. I think I can postpone it. But then the problem is to find a house for us. It is really going to be a difficult one because no one will be ready to accept an unmarried couple. Then there will be hotels. They will be damn costly. I don't want you to pay when you are coming here. You would have already paid a lot of money to get the flight ticket. (Tell me how much does it cost?) But you know, I passed out of the college last year and joined here one year back. Before I got you, my life was a careless one. I spent all the money I got. I didn't have any air or ambition then. So I didn't save anything. But now, now you've given a new meaning to life. Every day is a day of sunshine love and grace for me.

And as you said, one day is not enough for us. It will just go past looking into your eyes only. I know you can't get leave for more days. But this is tooooooooo short. Your idea of meeting in a foreign country appeals to me. That is a great idea. We are going to do it. Hmmm...The day to break all the promises!

We have to work out a plan. Anyway, I am trying my best not to go to Germany. Because my friends say, it will not be possible to access the internet every day. I don't want to lose you. No, I know what you are saying. But this time I am going to disobey you. Because of love, not of anger.

You called me a spoiled person. Ok, maybe. But I never told any of those girls except the first one that I love them. They just assumed that I do. Yes, I may have the fault of not saying the truth...I don't mind getting their curses as long as you are there for me. Now if I call them again, I will be touching a bitter area of their mind. It will be painful for them. Still, you want me to do so?

I wish I can write a lot now, because I know we are going to have our first date today. Don't you have a lot to talk about? Today I will listen to our whisper coming from far away but in my heart. I will whisper to your ears. I will breathe for you today.

Hey, did you get my picture? I attached it in the previous mail. And tell your Allison to go out. I want you to be alone while I am talking to you.

You didn't give me your phone number. Ok, I understand your reasoning. But when thinking of you, there is no logical thinking for me...

With a thousand kisses

Kamal