From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 2 August, 1999 02:22 PM

Subject: Nothing can...

My princess,

I don't know how I spend two days without reading your mail. Saturday and Sunday are off days of us. But I couldn't stay calm there, so I went to a computer center and read your mail. But I couldn't reply then. So don't feel angry, my sweetie, please...

I got your letters, even though it was a bit late. How is your eye now? Is it Ok? I am sorry dear, I wish I were there now. See, even though the disaster struck, I got your letter. What does that mean? It means that nothing can separate us. Buddha is with us. And if He was not with us, I will fight against him. I want you that much.

One other thing I want to tell you is about what you said. You said that I want sex. Do you think what I want from you is simple sex? If you think so, you are mistaken. To get sex is cheap, if you have some money with you, you can find any number of girls ready to lift their skirts. But what I wanted was sleeping with the woman I love. You said that women need communication and affection. Yes, what I need is your heart, nothing else. Yes, I made love to you in a dream for 3 hours but didn't break your hymen, because when I tried to put my penis in your cunt, I remembered your words, that you don't want to make love to anyone whom you don't love. So I didn't enter your cunt. That time you hadn't told me that you love me. But now I love you and you love me. (Don't you?)

That is why I asked you for permission to break your hymen. If you don't want to have any sex, I won't force you. You also said that you don't like the men who turn over and sleep after making love. I too don't like that. Making love with one whom you love is different. That day, when I finally went to sleep, you were in my arms, your sweet eyes closed in a divine sleep and your lips curved to form a cute smile in sleep. I looked at your face for a long time before falling asleep. I am telling the truth. If you don't want to have sex with me, it is Ok for me. I will wait until you say you are ready. Hereafter I won't masturbate thinking of you until you say. I won't make love to you in dreams until you say. You must tell me. But I will take you to bed every night and hold you in my arms. I will kiss your lips and then we will sleep. I hurt a little that you didn't understand me clearly.

This Sunday was August 1. I thought about you all day and stayed in bed. You told me that your date was on that day and it was paining. I was a bit worried. No woman has told me this much openly, even my old girlfriend. This was a new experience for me. You know how much the husband will be tense when his wife goes into the labor room for giving birth to the child. I was just like that. How are you now? Feeling well? How is the pain? Are your breasts Ok now?

I will tell about India and my girlfriend in the next letter. This letter I wanted to tell you how I feel about you. Don't be sad that you couldn't give money to your friends. You are my virgin princess. But you know how much I like to absorb you, to make love to you. But see, I can control myself. You are the princess of my heart and so you will decide everything.

When you are going to visit India, don't run away from me. If you are a hippie, I will become a hippie. I want to see YOU, not your dress or ornaments or makeup.

Lots of love

Kamal