Before I start up my day, I first light up a cigarette, as I inhale and exhale the smoke, I thought about what the fucked up things I did, after I was in Alexis's funeral, I remember going to the bar, after that it's all blurry, I couldn't remember anything I did, I threw my cigarette and began to go downstairs, where I was greeted with a "Good Morning" from Alexis, I was shocked to see her, I rubbed my eyes a bit, and she was gone.

"I guess I'm still a little bit sleepy, should I go back to bed?" I asked myself.

"I want to go to sleep again, but Alexis is waiting for me...oh shit did I say Alexis I mean Chryssel, fuck what the fuck is happening to me," I told myself.

I forget what happened and start my day, I prepared my bag, cigarettes, extra clothes, and a bottle of water, I was all set, but as I was leaving my house, I heard Alexis's voice said, "Don’t forget your lighter,"

"Oh right...wait a minute,"

I thought I heard Alexis voice, but when I turned around she wasn't there, back then I thought I was crazy, but I was too lazy to dwindle on it, so I got my lighter, and headed to school, As I make way going to school, I see the places I usually pass by, I think about how it hasn't change since I arrived in this town, the store old man Joshua owns, still sells the same things, the roads are still cracked, the light bulbs in the street lamp are still missing, I guess this part of my life will never change, I finally arrived near the vicinity of my school, the gates were close as usual, cause it was already way pass seven, I didn't care I was late, It was the first I didn't care for a long time of being early, I sneaked in and, quickly went to my classroom, where everyone was minding their business.

Eddie, Jiro, Eric, and Christian were talking to each other, and the other group of people were also hanging out with their friends, it really felt normal, as if nothing happened, I enter my classroom, and went to my seat where I sat, my friends went closer to me, and we started talking, until, one teacher entered the classroom, and class started,

It was Mr. Ogy, all my classmates, began to take a seat, and everyone became quite, as Mr. Ogy was babbling about something important, I didn’t know what he was talking about cause I wasn't listening, I was staring outside the window, where the wind was blowing the trees, and the birds were chipping, I think about 30 minutes passed by, then

I heard Eddie's voice. "Yo, Leon, you coming?"

"Huh, where?" I asked him.

"To the roof bro, we're eating our lunch there." He said.

"Oh yeah, sure." I told him

As we leave our classroom, my eyes glanced over Alexis's old classroom, I stopped walking, I widened my eyes, because I saw Alexis was there sitting on her seat, chatting with her friends, I rushed towards her, to hug her, and when I hugged her, she pushed me away, and a bunch of her classmates started to block my way.

"Hey, what the fuck is your problem?" One of her classmates said.

"I'm so happy to see her fine." I told her.

"What do you mean to see me fine, who are you anyway?" Alexis said.

"hahahahaha. Stop it, Alexis you know me." I told her.

"No, sorry I don’t," She said.

Then my bros started to pull me back, because I was too stunned from what Alexis said, how could she not remember, wait a minute why the hell is she alive in the first place, all this thoughts came rushing towards my mind, before long I finally noticed my bros were already dragging me, I pull myself up, and started to walk on my own feet, we finally reached the roof, but the incident still hasn't left my mind.

My friends started eating, but I just stared at my food, thinking what the fuck just happened, why didn't she remember me, did was the thing that happened in the park not real, did everything that happened between us made up.

I questioned everything, suddenly I felt an aching feeling in my heart. It was painful, I held my chest, the others started to notice, and quickly went to my aid, as I collapse on the floor, I was losing consciousness, the last thing I heard were my bros calling for a nurse.

I woke up it was already afternoon, the sun was red and I was in the clinic of our school, even though I still haven't eaten lunch, and my stomach was rumbling so hard, my mind was still in the moment where Alexis said she didn't know me, after about thirty minutes of thinking to myself, the door opens, and the nurse came in, she told me that I had a heart attack, and it was enough to make me unconscious, she told me stuff like stop doing my bad vices and shit, and I shouldn't do anything strenuous activities, but I didn't listened instead, I thought of Alexis, I wanted to talk to her, I wanted to be with her, so I raise my body up, and asked the nurse what time was it.

She told me it was already 3:30 in the afternoon, I still had time to see Alexis, I quickly ran towards her classroom just to see if she was there, my heart began to ache again, but I didn't care, if it meant seeing her again. unfortunately she wasn't there, but maybe she was still in the school grounds, so I ran to the gate to see if she was there, putting more stress on my heart, I was already in the corner, when I saw her, she was standing there, I smiled and ignored the pain coming from my chest as I walk towards her, then suddenly, a guy walks to her, gave her a hug and held her hand, the both of them walk together still holding hands.

I was stunned, paralyzed, and shocked to see her with another guy, then all of a sudden, all the pain that was coming from my heart became even stronger, but I just stood there, as they both left together hand in hand, I didn’t know what was more painful my heart being torn to shreds or the actual pain that was coming from my heart.

I was about to cry, but suddenly everything went black, I couldn’t see anything, I realized that I lose consciousness.