"Growth begins when we start to accept our own weakness" 

~ Jean Vanier 

Part 38

Angel's Pov 

I was looking at the ceiling thinking about how my life took a worst kind of turn every time I thought everything was getting into place. 

When I thought Blaize and I would be together for eternity, he had to leave me. 

When I thought finally I got a good friend but he ended up giving me the worst kind of pain anyone could ever give. 

When I thought I would be free from Ian's fear and be happy with mom. She had to go through an accident and that broke me seriously. 

When I - "Angel will you stop giving pain to your head?" Benny's voice broke me from my thoughts. She came back today from her small business trip.

I felt her hand on my shoulder and sighed. "I got some fruits for you, I thought we could eat together?" She asked kindly and I sat up. 

She needs to eat because of her pregnancy and I don't want to deny her. 

She gave me a slice of apple, it reminded me of Clara. When she was pregnant, I used to cut apples into slices for her and she wouldn't eat that until I would share.

A tear slid down my eyes as I saw that slice. I really miss her, she did nothing but care for me and what I did? I just left her there. 

"Hey, you okay? If you don't like this then I can order other fruits too." I shook my head and put the slice back. 

"B-benny?" She looked shocked at first but composed herself soon. 

"What is it Angel? You can tell me. I was dying to hear your voice sweetheart" 

"I want to know " I looked at her with my tearful eyes. She wiped my tears and urged me to speak more. 

"I want to know, why am I so weak? Why can't I be like you? Like other girls? Why can't I be strong like everyone?" She hugged me and I just sobbed. 

"Who said you are weak? You are not weak Angel. In fact you are the strongest girl I have ever seen. You had to go through so much in your life and you are still standing like a tree. Everytime Lacey tried to hurt you, you never ever said a word. That makes us know how mentally strong you are." 

I looked at her and she again wiped my tears, I showed her my still plastered hand and leg. "I'm not strong, I'm so weak, so pathetic, so-" she cut me off in the middle. 

"Okay enough," she pointed at my plasters. "This doesn't mean you are weak. What if you have no physical strength, you are still mentally strongest girl. You know Blaize is physically very strong no one can beat him… except Kyle and Chris" she said, making a thoughtful look. 

"But the thing is Blaize is physically strongest but mentally he isn't strong, he always lash out in anger, he has no strength to control his anger, his emotions. So he should be weak too, but he isn't, so your capacity doesn't describe who you are, it's your capabilities who defines your colors. So believe in yourself Angel. Love yourself before loving any other person. Just accept yourself as who you are. Because you are the best version of yourself" she took a deep breath at the end. 

I just looked at her shocked. I didn't ever think like that, I just thought about what others did, I never thought how I would react. 

I hugged her tightly. "Thank you for believing in me" 

"I'll accept your thank you, if you start behaving like a living person. You'll have your food at table with everyone and you won't lock yourself in your room in darkness. I want you to accept the light with open arms. Trust me this will never be taken away from you again. You have my words" 

I thought about what she said, I can trust her and what worst could have happened? It will not be anything new. 

I nodded my head and she squealed like a child. 

"I'm actually surprised that you had that in you" she muttered something under her breath and passed a fake smile at Chris. 

I was surprised to find Chris and Blaize standing at the door. Did they hear everything ? 

"And what did you call me? Angry beast?" Blaize said, glaring at her. 

She glared back at him "Oh prove me wrong" Blaize didn't reply, he knew she was right.

He sat beside me, "Chris take your wife with you, I want some alone time with my wife" he said holding my hand, I tried to pull but he didn't let me. 

"Really? And why would he listen to you?" She glared at Blaize again but squealed in surprise when Chris suddenly carried her out in bridal style. 

"Now what were you saying, My Rapunzel," I frowned at him.

" Your hairs are much longer then before so I thought you might be planning to become rapunzel" 

Should I listen to what Benny said? Should I listen to my heart? Can I give myself a last hope that we might be together like before, happily?

Blaize kneeled down beside bed and rested his head on my lap. "I'm sorry Angel, I'm so sorry, I had never given you a chance to express yourself, I always listened to others over you, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for everything I did wrong to you. Please forgive me" 

He held my hand and looked up at me. "Just give me a last chance, I promise it will never ever happen again, I promise Angel, I'll never let anyone hurt you. Please Angel, just give me a chance to prove you that I'm sorry for everything" 

I took a deep breath, I think it's time for me to leave my past behind and live my present with the one I love. 

I just hope my past will never shadow on my present. 

"Will you fulfill all your promises?" Because he always broke his promises before. 

"I swear on my mom Angel, I will fulfil every promise that I keep you" I nodded my head at him and he hugged me too tightly.

Then we just cuddled and he brushed my hair while I just listened to his heart beats calmly. After so many years, I felt like I'm finally home. 

"Angel, I want to ask you a question from so long" my heart beat increased at his words. Will he ask about my past? 

"Yes?" I said in a shaky voice. 

"Why didn't you tell anyone about James? I was with you that whole night, I thought you were crying for layla. Why didn't you tell me that night?" 

I sighed and tried my best not to remember that night. "I did try, when I bumped into you that night, I wanted to tell you but you were so angry and you were worried about your project so I didn't want to ruin your project."

 He tightened his grip on me like I would disappear any moment, "I'm sorry Angel that I made you feel like that, I was just so scared and worried for you. I didn't want you to know that so I just lied. No project or deal is more important than you for me. You are my life Angel. I'm sorry again"

"It's ok Blaize, stop saying sorry." I hugged him tightly. "I want to ask you something too" he looked down at me and nodded his head.

"I want to work again, I want to come to the office tomorrow " he glared at me and I thought he snapped again.

"No, you are not going anywhere until your leg and hand get healed" I looked down again. "But I want to go out, I mean I want to work again" he sighed and looked at me. 

"Okay, but not tomorrow, you can go after 5 days. Your hand and leg plaster will be off till then." 

"Thank you," I said, closing my eyes. 

"Only thank you? No smile, or other stuff" I could imagine him biting his lips.

I didn't reply this time and he sighed. 

"Okay baby steps" 

I hid a small smile that occurred on my lips. 

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