"Well," I say looking into Brooke's eyes.

She broke down less than 15 minutes ago and now she is ready to do shots. Everyone in this lounge saw especially Zach who looks worried for his cousin. I on the other hand am confused.

"Uh...Um... Uh ... Well, you may as well tell them," a girl with dark purple girl says besides Brooke.

"Rose," Brooke whispers desperately to I guess the purple-haired girl.

"B it has to come out at some point you have been keeping it a secret for almost 1 year and a half. For fucking sakes you kept it from your father even though you know what he will do when he finds out," the girl Rose says.

"What happened half a year ago, Brooke?" Emery asks looking worriedly.

"Rose, now look what you have done," Brooke states.

"Brooklyn Lilac Hudson tells us what fucking happened a year and a half ago to make you a bitch," Zach yells at her.

"Rose this is your fault," Brooke tells this Rose.

"No, it isn't. Well, maybe a little but just tell them they can help you through it, and then maybe we can find the bastard and you can kill him," Rose tells Brooke.

"Brooke you just broke down crying tell us why that happened," I tell her. She looks at me and man her eyes are telling a lot.

"Fine but it will take a long time to tell," she says before sitting down at one of the couches. We all sit next to her and listen as she tells us what happened.

I did not want to tell my parents what happened. So why should I tell strangers who I have only known for about 2 days. So I decided to tell them some of what happened and not the parts I can not tell anyone else because I would then have to live it and I am not strong enough to do that.

"I was 13 when I met this boy. Sweet, Loving, thoughtful boy. I fell in love with him because of how loving he was towards me. It was going fine until a year later when he found out about what my father does," I tell them.

"As a club owner or as a hotel and casino owner?" Mason asks.

"Both, Declan wanted to be the best of the...." I tried to think of the best word to use for my dad's job. "Industry, he wanted to own more clubs than my father and he thought he wanted to take me away from my father too.

"But I did not release he started to use me instead of loving me until 2 years later. I was in love with him. All I could think about was seeing him but all he could think about was controlling me to the point of death of other people. So every time I would try to fight his controllingness he would kill someone or have me watch him beat someone shitless.

"I would cry when he would make me sit there and watch as innocent people died or got hurt because of my stupid mouth or stupid emotions. But he would.... He would take me to his room after would to either hit me or pleasure himself. Whether having me touch him or forcing himself onto me.

"I tried to get away. Like when I was home I tried to drive away from my house to get anywhere but the city but he would track me down and bring me back to my house to my parents saying that he was dropping me off from a date or from cheerleading.

"Cheerleading was always the excuse when I would have bruises or a twist ancle. The last time I ever let him touch me or pleasure himself on me was on a day I will never forget because he killed one of my friends because I hit trying to show him something that was outside," I end by now everyone is looking at me with empathy or sadness.

But if they heard the truth of what he did. They would have completely different emotions on their faces. The lie was easy because some of it was true but the rest was easy to come up with. Espiacally just saying his first name and not his full name.

If they ever find out his first name and learned I created that monster they will hate me and my family.

"I want to kill the bastard. I can track him down and kill him. What is his full name?" Zach demands standing up like as soon as I give him his full name he will get in his car and go kill him.

I stand up because if go looking for him if I did give him his full name he will get killed and I can not have his death on my hands.

"No," I tell him with coldness over my features.

"DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM?" he yells at me.

Of course, I don't as soon as I found out about what I did to make him a monster my love for him turned to ash. But he can not know that.

I thought about my answer long and hard before answering. This may make me even worse of a monster than I already am but I can not tell the truth.

"Of course," I say. His eyes widen from what I said.

"You love the bastard who screwd you up?" Zach exclaims like he could not believe what I just said.

"Yes," I say.

"Wow, you're really fucked up," He tells me turning his back to me and walks towards the door but stops when he hears my next words.

"I believe me I know," I tell him. "I have been fucked up since before him but guess what the only thing that gets me through the day is because I know I have to be there for my brother and my parents or else I may be the monster people run from."

He looks back at me and looks concerned and worried.

"I tried to make sure I was still the girl who loved flowers and sometimes I am but other days I am a fucked up person. Have you ever wondered I have never told any secret to you in my life it is because I was taught not to trust people. It takes me years to trust someone," I tell him.

"So just imagine that I trust someone and fall in love with them. Then they turn into a monster. So now I just trust myself. So excuse me asshole for not telling you this sooner." I yell at him.

Andy comes strolling in after my rant and looks pissed off.

"Miss, would you like to go home?" he asks me concerned.

"Yes, Rose do you want to stay or come?" I ask. She looks around before standing.

"Sure," she says. We follow Andy out of the club and to the Limo.

I climb in and pour myself some scotch.

"Brooke, you should have told them the truth," Rose says across from me.

I look out the window and watch the scenery before I reply. "I know but once they find out they will not want to be around me plus it's safer for everyone they do not know," I say.

And when they find out they will have to pick sides for the war that will start because of me. When the time comes I promise myself I will tell them but for now, they must think that I still love Declan Blue Diaz leader of La mafia de la Muerte. (The Mafia of Death)