I wake up and notice that I'm still sat in Dereks lap and my heads laid on his shoulder. I hear the voices of the pack.

"Come on we need to know what happened to him you saw how bad he looked" Scott said. Derek growled and help me closer.

"It's fine you can ask me any question you want" I say with a yawn. Derek looks down at me with a look that screams are you sure. I nod and turn around in his lap so I'm facing the pack.

"Ask away" I say looking at the pack.

"What did they want from you" Scott asks.

"They wanted to try and draw Derek out and they knew I was his mate so they used me as bait. They wanted to kill him and then turn me" I say.

"Why would they want to turn you" Malia asks confused.

"Because I'd obviously because of the whole mate thing feel immense pain if he died and a angry and in pain fox is a dangerous one" I say.

"Where are you wounds?" Issac said looking curiously at my shoulder.

"Uhh Derek would you like to answer" I say looking up at him with a smirk. He glared at me.

"I healed him" Derek says.

"What, how" the pack asks.

"Because he's my mate I can heal him by kissing and licking the places he's hurt" Derek said uncomfortably.

"Ok let's just say if he was kicked in the balls" Jackson begins to say.

"Jackson Whittmore watch yourself" I say before he could finish.

He puts his hands up in defence and stayed quiet.

"OOoh so Derek licked your abs" Lydia squealed.

"I-uh yes he did" I say. All the girls squeal loudly.

"That is hot" Lydia said. I roll my eyes at her. I feel Dereks grip tighten around my waist.

"Shit it's a full moon tonight I completely forgot" Scott said jumping up.

"Oh well done Scott, the one thing you should be worried about you forgot" I say sarcastically.

"Shut up do you still have those chains" Scott said.

"What do you mean do you still have the chains" Issac asks confused.

"Well when Scott first shifted we realised he went crazy on a full moon and he was refusing sourwolf's help so I had to do what I had to do" I say like it was nothing.

"So let me get this straight you skinny defenceless Stiles at the time chained a newly bitten werewolf up on full moons?" Derek asks.

"Yeah he was my best friend I wasn't gonna let him do something he'll regret" I say shrugging it off.

"You could have gotten seriously hurt" Derek said raising his voice.

"But I didn't I knew the risk and I didn't get hurt" I say raising my voice to match his.

"Your not getting it do you know how I'd feel if I lost you" Derek shouts at me. I get up off his lap and stand up glaring at him.

"Yes I do" I yell.

"No you don't because your not supernatural" he yells.

"I know that and I don't want to be I just want to be Stiles" I yell.

"Well look where being a weak human got you. You were possessed by the nogitsune Stiles." Derek yells his eyes glowing red at this point.

I felt a pain in my chest at his word.

"Yes and while I was weak he got in and I let him because I couldn't take it anymore. I was watching while he did all the stuff and could do nothing. He taunted me you know using your name and the packs all I heard it say was they'll never love you they all hate you. You'll never be loved, they won't forgive you no one will. That's all I heard constantly and now you just brought it up. Don't you think I now what I did don't you think I feel bad" I scream at him with tears streaming down my face. His face drops in realisation. I run up to my room and slam the door shut and lock it.

I hear them talking down stairs and I begin to cry. After a few minutes I decide I need to help out with the full moon because I promised Issac I'd be there. I wipe my eyes and walk downstairs.

"Come on it's getting late the moons gonna be out soon we have to get you guys chained up." I say grabbing my keys.

"Are you coming with us" Scott said to me but looks to Derek.

"Yes I am I don't care what any of you say I'm a grown ass adult and I will not be told where I can or can't go by anyone" I say sternly. Derek looks down guilty.

"I promised I'd be there for Issac now let's get going" I say and head out to my car. Issac, Scott and Derek get in my car. I roll my eyes. I begin driving toward Dereks loft. It's silent until I hear Issac whimpering.

"Hey you ok" I say glancing at Issac.

"Your fighting it reminds me of my parents" he whimpers. He flinched when I reach out to him but he flinched.

"I will never hurt you Issac yes we may be fighting but we would never hurt you." I say sincerely. He nods and grabs onto my hand and starts playing with my fingers. I smile at him and continue driving.

Once we arrive I see that the moons nearly out so I rush up to his loft. Once we get there we immediately chain them up making sure they can't get out just in time because they just shifted. Then all of a sudden Derek dropped to the ground growling.

"Derek what's wrong" I ask. He growls at me his eyes glowing red. Scott pushes me behind him and that makes Derek growl louder. I run from behind Derek and hug him. He immediately calms down and hold onto me tightly.

"I'm sorry" he mumbles over and over again. I hug him tightly.

"We'll talk about it after the full moon ok, we have to help them right now" I say and he nods. I look at Scott and nod at him signalling it ok. He smiles at me and nods back. I walk over to Issac. Derek growls at me in warning. I don't listen to him and walk over so I'm just in front of Issac so he can't touch or hurt me.

"Issac listen to me ok you need to find an anchor." I say to him.

"Who no one cares about me" Issac growls.

"I care about you Issac so does Derek and the rest of the pack." I say. He shuts his eyes and then begins to calm down.

"Oh my god I did it Derek I did it." Issac cheers happily. Derek smiles at him and unchains him. Issac hugs Derek then hugs me.

"Thank you, I found my anchor it's you and Derek" he said and sits down. I smile at him and then at Derek. It gets to the morning and we all decide we're not going to school because that full moon took to much energy out of us. The rest of them go home and I text my dad that I'm staying at Dereks and won't be going to school for the rest of the week. He reluctantly agrees. I walk towards Dereks sofa and just fall face first on it. Issac comes and sits next to me.

"Stiles" Issac says.

"Yes" I say without looking up.

"Dereks really upset he's in his room" Issac said. I jump up and go to Derek. I enter his room and see him crying. When he sees me he wipes his tears hiding it from me. I walk up to him and put my hands on his face

"Don't do that don't hide your emotions from me please" I say sadly. He pulls me down into his chest and hugs me tightly.

"I'm sorry for what I said i don't want to loose you" Derek said crying.

"You won't loose me it fine now come on get on some pyjamas on and we're gonna go to sleep" I say and strip down into my boxers. I lay in bed under the covers. Derek does that same and pulls me so that my head is on his chest.

"It's not fine and I'll make it up to you later ok" Derek said.

"Yeah" I say with a yawn and fall to sleep.